hawkswoman
I HAVE NEVER KNOWN A SKINNY DAY IN MY LIFE, MY MOTHER'S SIDE OF THE FAMILY IS BIG BONED, BROAD SHOULDERED SWEDES, MY DADS, SHORT, PORTLY GERMANS. I WAS ALWAYS THE TALLEST AND BIGGEST KID IN CLASS AND NO ONE EVER LET ME FORGET IT. I WENT THRU SCHOOL BEING CALLED ALL KINDS OF NAMES... TWO-TUN, TUBBY...FATSO... AND OTHERS I CAN'T WRITE ON HERE. I WAS VERY ABUSED AT HOME GROWING UP BUT OF COURSE WE DIDN'T TALK ABOUT IT BACK THEN. MY MOM DIED WHEN IO WAS 12 AND THINGS ONLY GOT WORSE AT HOME. I WAS AN ONLY CHILD AND WAS EXPECTED TO TAKE ON HER ROLES IN LIFE. I COOKED, CLEANED, WENT TO SCHOOL, NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE FRIENDS AND MORE. THE GOOD OLD DAYS. I MARRIED MY FIRST HUSBAND TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND WALKED INTO THE FIRE FROM THE FRY PAN. THAT LASTRED 10 YEARS, THEN I WAS SINGLE FOR THE NEXT 10, NOW FOR ALMOST 20 I HAVE BEEN MARRIED TO MR. WONDERFUL, WHO STILL GETS UP EVERYDAY TO MAKE MY DAY. BUT THE DAMAGE WAS ALREADY DONE AND I CAN'T GET OUT OF THE RUT AND BAD HABITS I FORMED. I HAVE BEEN ON EVERY KIND OF DIET THERE IS WITH LITTLE OR NO SUCCESS. I HAVE 4 WONDERFUL GRANSONS, 3 OF WHOM I AM VERY CLOSE TO. I WANT TO BE AROUND TO SEE THEM GROW UP. I WANT TO GET MY DIABETES IN BETTER CONTROL AND I HOPE TO BE MORE MOBILE.
