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I wish I knew about this site 3 years ago
Jun 13, 2008
One of the biggest hurdles at the beginning was thinking that I was the only one who felt like I did. For those of you who haven't had the surgery yet you'll get what I'm saying after you do, and for those of you who have, are probably saying "oh me too". In the first months the emotional stuff you go through feels unbearable. I was never more depressed in my entire life. I think it had to do with the fact that I was fat, and now I couldn't eat to make myself feel better, Oh My God! What in the world was I going to do. I finally went to a support group and after sharing my feelings, every single person in the room said. "oh, that's normal, it will pass". I walked out of the room feeling like I was in a different world. So, anyone new to the surgery, hang in there. It feels hopeless at times. I promise it will get better and one day fantastic. The other thing I deal with now, is that I still see myself as needing to lose more weight. My sister stated in her own blog, that I am too skinny. When I finally figure out how to post my pictures, I think that most will agree that I am not TOO skinny. I don't see myself "skinny" AT ALL. I do however realize that I have issues with self image. I know I don't even look like the same person, and my clothes size definitely says I'm not still fat. But I have that nasty habit of trying to look at other people and saying "Am I that big?" And of course most friends that I say that to look at me like I've lost my mind. If anyone has suggestions for this issue or is dealing with it themselves, I'd like to hear.
