Marisol C.
Well I decided to upgrade my profile to the new format. My name is Marisol also know throughout the web as Daca Inaru.. which is a Taino name that means Spirit of Woman.
I'm 36 years old and a single mother of an 11 year old. Most of my life I have been obese years of depression and a history of sexual abuse caused me to seriously not care about myself. Even though I was always obese I seemed to never have problems with my weight being active and living life as fully as possible although I maintained underlying anger and rage which I surpressed with eating.
Around the year 2000, I developed problems walking. At 280lbs the weight was just to my for my barely 5'2 frame. I feel into a deeper slump and ate some more to surpress the underlying rage. Finally in 2003 I decided to go ahead and have a VBG surgery.
Everything went fairly quickly with the planning stage until my Doctor on the day of my surgery decided to high tail it out of town. My surgery was rescheduled and then on the new date I was called by my surgeon's receptionist who informed me that my doctor had decided to quite apparently there was some scandle regarding the surgeries he had preformed previously. So to make a long story short I ended up having surgery done by Dr. Sarnelle whom by the way ended up being a fabulous doctor.
Now... here's the kicker... after surgery I realized I could no longer keep my mouth shut. I could no longer eat myself into a pacificed silent way.. Needless to say I made a number of people really pissed off at me.. for once I was forced to stand up for myself and to speak out and to say NO... and eventhough my life had been turned around and upside down it became the most liberating feeling I had every experienced in my life. I was finally free not only of the weight but of the ties that kept me bound in silence and rage..
I lost loved ones, family members and friends to this surgery. At first I mourned the loss but later I realized that it was the best thing that has ever happened to me. For the first time in my life I have set things to my goals and desires. For the first time I started to take care of me.
For those of you who are thinking of having this surgery.. First let me say make sure to get counseling for any underlying issues you might have that have kept you the weight you are, secondly keep in mind that this is not an easy solution its a tool that can fail if used incorrectly.. and thirdly, if you do it remmeber that you might end up losing people who you where use to having in your life are you prepared for that?
THis has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions but I wouldn't hesitate for a minute to redo or relive this chapter of my life because its made me who I am today.
God Bless
