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06 JUNE 01**I CALLED THE SURGEONS OFFICE TODAY AND THY HAVE PREPARED MY LETTER TO SEND TO THE INSURANCE COMPANY. THEY STATED THAT I HAD ALL OF THE INFORMATION THAT WAS REQUESTED AND THEY WILL CALL ME IF ANY THING ELSE IS NEEDED... IM PRAYING THAT WILL BE ALL THAT’S NEEDED.
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15 JUNE 01** well the drs office called last night and decided even though I am a light smoker I should wait 3 months to even send the letter to the insurance co. They said that Aetna frowns about and may say no to the surgery. So ill start the process again. This news really breaks my spirits.
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25 JUNE 01** Hello again all of you lovely people!!! I have gotten so much feed back on smoking b4 wls. I really appreciate that. This site is so incredible there is no way to put it. This site is the only support that I get about wls. My family with the exception of a niece, says I am to lazy, no self control, and I am just looking for a cop-out (is that a word?)But here I know that that is just not true. I will no longer discuss this with anyone other than here! Some say they stopped 4 days b4, some 2 weeks b4, i am now 2weeks smoke free and desperate.
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29 June 01** well there has been nothing to update. I'm 1 month down of being 3 mos smoke free. And then the dr's office will submit to the INS. Had I’d known this I would have told them that I did not smoke. So still for now I patiently wait (not!). This site is something else. I now find myself on here almost every spare moment. Till next time my people.
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30 June 01**went to the seminar today. It seems as though he tried to have a sense of humor. We’ll give him an "a" for effort. The presentation was systematic. Until next time... but it does seem like time is standing still.
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01 July 02** well guys still on my road to being smoke free. I have done it perfectly with no surprise to me. I was somewhat of a social smoker anyway. The dr makes since, why try to get healthy by losing weight, when smoking is killing you another way..duh. Sept is still 2 months way. Man, this site is all that keeps me going it seems. I even dream about it sometimes. Obsessed huh?
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05 July 01**well I want to have all my ducks in row when I reach my 3 months of being smoke free. I went to my pcp today and he gave me a letter to add to what is already turned in to the surgeon. I don’t want to be put off again after waiting this long. The letter was basically that I have still been trying to lose weight all year long with him. On meds. He a wonderful dr and is trying to help me get thru this. Even though he feels it’s drastic. Until next time family....I love you guys mann!!
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18 July 01** well I went back to my primary care today and ive gained another 3 pounds. If my paper work is not sent soon to the ins co, I don’t know how much larger I will get. I will not diet any more. It only adds an extra 20-30 lbs when it’s all over. If this surgery is not approved I guess I will just try to hold fast to this 224#. I guess that that will be a challenge in itself!! Still waiting to be smoke free 3 months, I am only a little over a month to go, then it's wait on the ins. co.....over and out.
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29 July 01** well amos there is still nothing to update. I am one month away of being smoke free for 3 months, so yeah me. Well I knew that I did not have any support from my family as far as the surgery goes. But yesterday, I had all of the air blew out of me. well my peeps, I was talking real enthusiastically to my husband, about a new friend I met, thru dr horrilleno(our surgeon).I was telling him that she had gotten approved and we have the same ins, and she should have her surgery aug.1. And he said, like a hammer,"mann,i know her husband is glad". and it really didnt hit,at first. but I went to say something else and boom,it clicked. So I asked him if I had been getting on his nerves that bad about wls, and I guess I had. he could'nt even deny it. oh well, i'll choose who I speak with about the subject a little better. but I guess the reason that I was so blown away is that I try to support and see him thru anything that he "thinks" he wants to do. AM I not entitled to the same thing from my HUSBAND? I think that would be yes. or should be yes. maybe he's threatened by the fact that I soon will be approved and im not sure if that's what he wants. but oh well, a sistas got to do, what a sistas got to do....much love to amos.. peace out!!
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10 august 01** hey gang. nothing really to update, but you know how it is. I'm still doing a good job being smoke free. I tried to call the surgeon and ask if I could go ahead and set up some pre-op testing for mid to late sept and they said no. first let them get the paperwork to aetna, which wont be until sometimes in sept, b4 I do anything. you know that seems to be a bit conservative to me. because I know how long you have to wait on an appointment sometimes, but I guess they know what they're doing. it just seems like no one is ready for this to happen except for me. oh well, I guess i'll stop pouting now.thanks for listening..smooches!!
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10 AUGUST 01** hello amos , again. well, after the above post,I was feeling kind of grim and depressed. So. I called the surgeon's office to ask if they could go ahead and submitt my paperwork, just to see if I could get approved. And if so, I would be more at ease waiting out my last month to be smokefree. Okay, I'm whinning and going on for no reason. She says " Girl have you quit smoking?" I told her yeees (prepared to continue whinning:(ha ha)and to my delight she says that she has me on her "to do" list and will be looking over everything and preparing the letter for Aetna on monday, to call her back then.oh my GOD!!..DOES PRAYER WORK!! OR DOES PRAYER WORK!! YOU BET !!! Okay, I know you guys are sayin' that a letter being submitted, does not makes an approval. But they could have waited as planned to send the letter waaay in mid September. So I am very excited. God always come thru for us. So again, GOD thank you in advance for my approval and thank you amos for keeping me sane with encouragement.TO GOD BE THE GLORY FOR THE THINGS HE HAS DONE AND WILL CONTINUE TO DO!
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13 august 01** Okay. What's up my amos peeps? Well I called the surgeons office today as Debra requested on friday. All I needed to fax over was a copy of my insurance card. Which I did. She stated that everything looked good. I have prayed that this wls be approved. She said that she would be calling Aetna today. But did not say what was the next step. Im just glad to be getting something moving here. It seems as if nothing as happened in years instead of months. If Im this excited just getting the ball rolling, boy, Im gonna be a sight when Im finally approved!!!( I BELIEVE GOD IT'S APPROVED!!)baaabies, let me tell ya, I am not gonna have no shame,at all, ya hear me. Oh well I'll talk to yall later. Any one out there with Aetna hmo, holla atcha gyrl, and tell me what's up with them..please. thanx
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16 AUGUST 01** I called the dr's office back today, and she stated that she(Debra)still have not sent the paperwork off. She said that they have been very busy. What's up with that! She has had the surgery also. Does'nt she know how crazy that this is making me! whiiiiiiiine!! okay, now that is out of my system. she said that she will call me as soon as everything is sent off. tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock
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21 august 01** hey hey hey hey!!!! YES IT'S TRUE I AM APPRROOOVVED!!!! THANKS TO MY ALMIGHTY GOD!!! I called the ins. co. this morning and it was an approval letter that was sent out. so they approved me within 24 hours. To GOD be the glory! I was told that my tentative date is oct. 29th. unless I can get all of the tests done b4 then. fooling with my pcp's referral coordinator it could take that and then some, but I will stay on her like there's no tomorrow, believe that! to excited, talk to yall later
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21 august 01** Are we moving right along or what?? First of all I have an angel. Her name is Sharon Green she is having surgery on Sept 6th and I will be her angel as well. I hope that I do her justice. Well the phsyc eval is going to be 8/22, then 8/23 is the labwork. after that on my birthday is the gall bladder thingy 8/25. ( happy last fat birthday to me!!) Then last will be the cardiologist on 8/29. If I can get all of the test results back in time my surgery date can be before 10/29. Keep praying for me as I do for every one on the journey, and all will be well.
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30 august 01** Okay yall let me blow ya mind. I have completed all of my pre-ops except for the strees test and let me tell ya why. LISTEN ! I went to the Cardiologsit and he ask what kind of surgery I was having and I told him. He said no he will not "LET" me have this surgery. He said that it was against God and I dont love myself and " I was an illiterate idiot" ,and that the surgeons that do these surgeries were "son's of bitches". And kept giving me things to read. Told me in exact words that I was lazy and rude to my body and wanted an easy way out. Now, yall listen. I am usually a person that is in your face in an instant if someone offends me. But this took all of my functions to even comprehend what he was sayin. okay! He called my husband and asked why he was letting me do this. It goes on and on. Finally after my senses came back, I raised him up off of me!I told him to shut up and do what I came for. He stalled and I have to go back on 9/10/01 for the stress test, He only did the ekg. But he tried so hard, sayin God was interviening thru him to tell me this surgery was AGAINST NATURE. I will report him. But any way one more test to go and IM Set. Thanks to MY GOD !!
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10 SEPT 01** Hello again AMOS. I went back to the above Quack today and he was much better. When I walked in he said that he will keep his mouth shut. I told him that I would appreciate that.But any way he said that I had a really strong heart and was a really strong person. I even had to run just a little to keep up with the treadmill. He said that although I was tired a huffing and puffing, It took a long time to get my heart rate up. I guess that was good. He said I passed with flying colors. All Tests complete. Now let's work on getting an earlier surgery date. Until next time. See Ya!!
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11 Sept 01** well I have my consult scheduled and I'm not to happy about the date. It's sept 28th. Dang, she said back in june, that I would have surgery about 3 weeks after my testing is done. With a consult of 11/28, I dont think that's possilbe. She said that me and the Dr could talk about an earlier surgery date after the consult. BUMMER! As it stands now the date is still 10/29/01.
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28 sept 01** Hey guys I had my consult today and it was very disappointing. The Dr. was great as was the staff as always. But as far as getting an earlier surgery date goes, forget it. He said that he would be out of town for a couple of weeks for additional training. Leo, his nurse said that I am still looking at the end of October. God I cant express how bad I feel right now! I am to call back on Tuesday of next week to get the official date. If its not tommorrow, its to far away! Any way Dr. Horrilleno was very cool, and up front about everything pertaining the surgery. Good and bad. I really like him a lot. Until next time guys, signing off wiping tears. lol! OH,p.s. He said that I will probably will have my surgery done open and gallbladder removed. He said that I qualify for lap but, most of his minor complications has happened when lap was done, versus the open. I dont care just DO me!-TTFN
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01 october 01** wwwwhhhhyyyyy!!! Well guys*crying* I did not get an earlier surgery date. I am to upset. Almost, bullestic...lol It still is a firm october 29th. Oh well I guess that is way GOD intended. so be it.
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04 october 01** well family, I have only 24 more days to go. All of the shopping is done. I am going thru some really tough and second thought things right now. See I have a husband and 4 children. This is an elective surgery, And I keep thinking that if something happens to me and I leave them here it's all my fault. My children are.. 17,13,10 (all boys)and girl is 7. What will they do without their mama. I love them so. My husband will be lost also ( I think..lol ) God I have prayed for this since day one. Now that I have recieved the blessing look at me! I am so torn. But I keep saying He did not bring this far to leave me. If I don't do this I will not be able to live with myself. I need help, encouraging words anything. What is happening ?!!
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18 october 01**11 more days, then surgery.... these days are going like molases in the winter time.. tick tock tick tock aaah!
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26 october 01** hey hey hey, thank you everybody for your wonderful posts, I love you guys. Only two more days to go and then surgery! OMG It did not seem like it would ever get here. Im about to go crazy with all of these mixed emotions. Should I do it, should I not. Well I am to be at the hospital at 9 am an surgery is at 12pm.
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05 OCTOBER 01** HELLO EVERYONE THIS IS MY FIRST UPDATE.. SUREGERY WENT WELL. I STAYED IN THE HOSPITAL 5 DAYS BECAUSE OF A FUNKY FEVER BUT I FEEL PRETTY GOOD OTHER THAN BEING TIRED. I WAS UP AND MOVING THE SECOND DAY AND EVERYTHING IS OKAY. TODAY AT THE DR'S I GOT MY DRAIN PULLED TODAY AND THAT WAS WITH NO PAIN, I DID NOT EVEN KNOW HE HAD IT OUT. I WAS SO PREPARED FOR THE WORST. THE FIRST COUPLE OF DAYS I ASKED MYSELF WAS THIS WORTH IT. THE SECOND DAY HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL I SAID THAT IT MOST DEFINEATLY WAS. I HAVE LOST 14 POUNDS. MY HUSBAND SAID THAT HE CAN SEE IT BUT I CANT. OH WELL IM TRYING TO GET BETTER, BUT THAT REALLY HELPS. THE SATFF AT MEDICAL CITY OF DALLAS WAS GREAT. YOU ARE LUCKY IF YOUR GOING THERE. I WILL DO MORE OF AN UPDATE WHEN I GET A LITTLE MORE ENERGY. THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING, EVEN THOUGH SOME OF YOU SCARED ME A LITTLE MORE THAN WHAT WAS NEEDED, I WAS TRULLY PREPARED. LOVE YOU GUYS...LATER
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10 november 01** hey everybody, I know that I am not updating as I should. But guys, I just dont know what to think of this wls. I guess I should first start on the good note. on the 9th I weighed and I had lost a total of 22 pound. That was like a 2 pound a day lost. And I thank GOD ALMIGHTY for that, for only he has the power. I have had only one rough night since out of the hospital. I woke about 1am the other night with a pain that I felt was worst than the wls itself it passed around 5am. but yall, ya gyrl was in agony. I start to call the emergency unit, OKAY! I finally took some pain medicine, and then went to sleep. when I woke up again about 8am, I passed some gas and had a bm. So I am gonna rule that experience to GAS. GOSH, I hope that wont happen again. I called my doc the next day and guess what? They did not call me back. Now aint that sumthin. but I lived.Now I am so tired of this little bitty opening crap. I can barley drink sips of water. I am beginning to think that I will never eat again. I tried toast as my doc said I could and it aint even worth it. im still prettyy much liquid, I am afraid to try to eat. I know that I have to get over this but the water hurts. I dont know b'bout yall, but you only have to hurt me once to get kicked to the curb. am I being to much of a baby. yall I need help. I am starting to think that I will not get over this terror of food. email me me with yalls good advice if you read this, again I love you guys, thanks for being there.
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05 december 01** well hello everyone. I have not updated beause I did not want anything that I had to say to impact anyone that could do so well with this wls. Although I fell better today it has been an ongoing battle to keep up on this journey. It has been a little over a month and I have lost over 32 lbs, I wont know until 11/06. I think that is kinda slow, but I dont care anymore. I just want to feel better! I dont know if that will ever come. WATER, omg, why does it hurts so bad, I am not getting what I need. I was dehydrated once and had to get an iv, which made me feel better instantly and stopped all of the vomiting but as hard as I try I am leaning that way again. I know that this is hendering the whole process and it seems as if this will be all in vain. I really want to feel better and now I feel like this peeble that has been tossed in the ocean. I mourn food all of the time, yet I have no desire to eat. I am still on the first stage of the diet and I think that is why I dont want to eat. God I want some veggies. anything but chicken, toast broth, eggs, jello, turkey,fish. But... that was the deal. I take my vitamin. so that is a plus. when are my good times gonna roll. well guys I well update the official weight loss tomorrow after the doc visit. any ideas.. holla atcha gyrl, it's very welcomed,peace!
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10 december 01** hey guys not much to update. I went for my month check up on the 6th of dec and had lost 32 pounds. I was very happy about that. I had been having problems with water but that seems to have gotten better, so hopefully that will help lose faster. I also have not did any exercise so that needs to get better. but truthfully I have just started to feel like a person again. I still look so fat, I thought that 32 pounds would make a difference but it doesnt show much to me, but you know how that goes. until next time guys...luv ya!
hello every one... it has been a while 17 march 02... I have been
doing very well I am now weighing 157.5 and loving it. I have not done any thing but take a free ride on this journey. just think how good I would have done if I had done everything that I was suppose to have done. like... physical activity! but now that I am 25 pounds from goal, I think that I may just have to. Oh well. I think I owe myself that much. I just got my browser up and running so will update agin and in more detail soon!! this was the best thing that I sould have ever done for myself and my family.
**MAY 12,02**** HELLO EVERYONE. IT HAS BEEN 2 WEEKS SHY OF 7 MONTHS. I AM NOW WEARING A LOOSE SIZE 10 IN PANTS SHIRTS A DRESSES AND SOME SIZE 8'S IT DEPENDS WHERE I SHOP. AND SPEAKING OF SHOPING, THAT'S MY FAVORITE PAST TIME. EVEN IF I DONT BUY ANYTHING. I JUST LIKE TRYING ON ALL OF THE NEAT CLOTHES. MAN! THIS IS SUCH A HIGH FOR ME. NO ONE EVER MENTIONED THAT LOVING YOURSELF SO MUCH WOULD BE ONE OF THE SIDE EFFECTS. HA HA HA. BUT YOU KNOW I AM LOVING THIS. EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME THAT I AM GETTING TOO SMALL. HAH! IMAGINE THAT. THESE WERE THE SAME PEOPLE THAT WERE SAYING THAT I WAS TOO BIG. WHAT A TWIST. I STILL HAVE TO LOOSE 24 MORE #S TO GET TO GOAL. I THINK THAT I WILL MAKE IT, BUT IF I DONT. I COULD CARE LESS. I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL I WEIGHED 145 WHICH WAS THE LOWEST WEIGHT I CAN REMEMBER, NOW IM 5 #S LESS THAN THAT WHEW HOOO. WELL JUST ABOUT ALL PROTIEN MAKES ME SICK, BUT IM TAKING THIS ONE DAY AT A TIME. I DO DUMP MILDLY ON SWEETS AND FATS. BUT IT KEEPS ME IN CK. I AM TOO FINE! SEE YOU GUYS LATER.
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hello everyone this is august 14 and im a little shy of 10 months out. Every thing is going okay, I guess. I love the fact that I am losing weight and that I am 1.5 pounds from my dr's goal. I swear I never thought that I would be saying this but I really hope that I dont lose another pound. to me I am starting to look fraile, and all my husband do is complain that I am fading away. I love the compliments on how well that I am doing and all. I now wear 1,2,3or 4 depends where I shop. I hate eating now though, it seems like such a chore, and meat is the worst. I am trying hard to maintain weight but it keeps drizzilg along. I only pray that it stops before I am 100 lbs. Now aint that a kick in the head, me worrying about losing weight when I have fought a battle for 15 or more years. good luck and godspeed to all....
sept 18th...hello everyone and happy losing to all. I will be 11 months out in 11 days and under goal weight. I weigh between 120 and 124. for the last few weeks anyway. I hope not to lose another pound. I know that I keep saying this, but I do plan to gain a few pounds of muscle, to me I am to skinny. I still dont eat very much. I have good days and bad days. but im cool with everything now. I still dump on just about anything that I am not suppose to eat. but I guess that keeps me in check.see you guys next time. peace out!!
03/10/03___ hello everyone it has been a while since I have been here last. but I guess you all know that I am having a ball. my weight changes a lot between 115 and 120 but that is fine with me. I prefer to stay at 120 and wish I was 125...aint that a kick in the head.. ALMOST and let me repeat, ALMOST everyone tells me that I look sick. ha ha ha, the joke is on them!!! I think that I look good, child you cant tell me nothing.. now dont get me wrong. I am the typical WOMAN and I am not satisfied with a lot of things about my naked appearance. but its nothing that I cant live with. I have a lot of loose skin on my tummy and the insides of my thighs, but its nothing that a pair of expensive sheer pantyhose cant cure. I have an almost coke bottle figure in a lot of things that I wear, but child there is nothing to talk about in the boobs and bootie area. and you know what.. so what. it takes me a while to shop because everything dont look good on me because of this.. but baby let me tell you.. in the stores I can do serious damage with at least 75.00 to spend, it is so strange. I love shopping now. I was denied for a tummy tuck but I think that I can live with it if I have to pay 5,400 dollars. I have some film that I need to develop and then I will post my pic. that will be my last after pics though. I have a membership at balley's to try to gain muscle to fill in some skin, but I dont know when I will make it there. my arms for the most part are fine. I am 36 years old I dont know what I think im suppose to look like. everyone says that I look between 20 and 25 so i'll go with that. I am so very happy that I did this and would do it a thousand times over. I have had no complications to talk about. I am very very and very bad about vitamins and protien. I find that I still dont do meat well it may be user error. my hair is getting stronger and stronger my bm's are now regular which is different because I use to stay constipated. sorry guys. I love myself to death, my confidence is tremendos and I feel good about my body (clothed). my husband is still having problems dealing with the new me and some of that may have to do with the fact that I am not insecure and so needy of his approval. my clothes are more sexy and that makes me feel sexy. oh I almost forgot I love victoria's secret. but she is out of control. well i'll have another update and pics as soon as I can figure out how to do this dang thing....see ya
%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% Hello hello hello, It has been a while I have sent some pics off to be added so get ready cus here I come! I have had so much fun I dont know where to start. I have Maintaind at 120-125 for over a year now. No major upsets, I still dump and it's been 2 years. I have days when everything makes makes me sick unto death, and truthfully I have more of these than not. I dont know if thats good or bad, and sometimes it all so overwhelming. But my good days are very good days. If I stick to tatsy soft foods and eat lite Im okay but I cant do that all of the time. I eat sweets, I drink alcohol,I do not deprive myself at all!!! Men open the door for me, I am usually one the ones that recieve the attention at the places I go. I get double take, women that I use to hang out with, Have tapered of to a select few,but I have made new ones. It would be neat to find some post ops to hang out with. My husband is jealous and overbearing, distrustful, insecure, for not reason. To tell the truth is plan old mean now. Maybe he's regretting all the things that he did to me as an obese wife. I love him unchangingly, but it's a job in itself to stay in love with him this way. OH WELL!! on another note I am getting sick of being nauseous(?) all of the time. My bowels are never solid. (sorry) and sometimes I dont have a lot of energy. I know a little exercise could help that. I don't take my vitamins like I should, but I do okay. Im healthy and trying to cope with all of the new experiences of this wonderful gift that God and Dr. H has given me. Would I do it again?? Hell Yeah!! In half of a heartbeat!!!
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hello everyone it has been a very long time. in oct. I will be 5 months post op. I have gained some weight that has caused some issues in my head that was never there b4. I am obsessed and haunted by this constantly!!.. I have gotten to 137 and cant stop thinking about food. oh my god, I am sick all the time if I eat right or not so I eat what I want. I dont leave the house unless there is no other way to get things done. sometimes I hate myself for having this surgery, because of the illness and this 17lb gain. what the hell is wrong with me? everyone keeps telling me that I look so GOOD, and at 120 they were afraid for me. Some compared me to looking like I had been ill for a long time. All I do is sleep now. My husband who has never supported this is more happy now than he ever was and asked to get rid of all the clothes that I had so much fun shopping for at 120lb when my weight has stablized. Help me somebody please, suggest anything, be blunt, harsh, whatever, I NEED HElP!!.. One good note I still turn heads.. HA HA.