Loraina B.
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Feb 27, 2008
I am not very good at this blogging stuff. Much like my journal, the first few pages are filled out and then the rest of the pages are blank. I either run out of time, get lazy or forget. But I will make an effort to keep this updated.
It is so hard to believe that I am in the 200's now. Barely, but I am there. I got on and off the scale three times today because I couldn't believe that I weighed 291 lbs.
Shortly after the VSG (done December 2007), I had a hard time dealing with the liquid part of the diet. Especially since the first week post op my husband and I were staying at a wonderful San Francisco hotel with an even more wonderful (pardon my grammar) japanese restaurant located right below my balcony. The smell of japanese food would waft up to our room and taunt me. This was the first time I truly understood what head hunger was. I lived my life responding to cravings and now for the first time, I would have to learn how to control them.
I have now learned to overcome those intensely strong cravings and I am starting to think about things I want to do as a smaller version of the current me. It's weird, I guess it really hasn't started to sink in until now about what I did. Don't get me wrong, I understood what I was doing when I went in for the surgery and I can see the difference in the small amount of food I can eat. I suppose I have been so jaded and disappointed by the mass of past failures that I wasn't sure that this was going to work. I told myself that the surgery was just a tool, just like other diets have their tools. But for the first time in my life, I am dealing with one that works for me and it is exciting. I miss riding horses and working with my dogs, I am getting more enthusiastic about the prospect of doing these things once again. Until then I will keep doing what I can to stay on track and reach my goal. Giddeyup!
