R. Anderson
I thought they were my friends.
Mar 30, 2007
Well I am young and that means that my friends are too. Well some of them act like they are in highschool still. Come on we are in twenties. GROW UP! Well I have a couple of friends that seem to not really like the idea of me having surgery. I know they will never read this and if they do, too damn bad. Sarah has expressed many times that she thinks that I will change. I don't understand in what ways. Yeah I know that I will change. I will probably be happier, thinner, more confident. Honestly what is wrong with that. Maybe it is because she is like 4' 11" and weighs 200 pounds. She needs to realize it is what is best for me. I am so depressed now. I can't even move around with my son. Maybe if she was as big as I am she would think about it more. She thinks that I won't want to be her friend anymore. WHY? This is stupid. Unless she keeps giving me this added stress. She is worried that I will be so beautiful that I will forget her. So what are you saying? I am ugly now that I am fat, but will be beautiful when I loose weight. What am I suppossed to think about that. I have heard it all my life. Rachel... you have such a pretty face. Oh and the rest of me is horribly ugly. I hate this comment.
Julie... She is a big girl too. She is almost 400 pounds and is like 6 feet tall. She is gorgeous. But she has a hard time with her self confidence because she is big. But the thing is that when I vowed never to eat McDonalds again, she was telling me how she will never give it up and that she loves it. Well hunny, I am sorry but the weight will never come off if you eat that kind of stuff. And the biggest thing with her is that she likes to go out and drink. Ok there is nothing wrong with wanting to have agood time. But she drinks everyweekend and pretty much Friday night and Saturday night both. Well she is upset that i can't drink anymore. I am sorry my life is too important to be worried about not drinking.
Susan... again is a big girl. She is probably 5'7" and I am not sure how much she weights but she is probably a 24. She has 2 kids and a husband that she doesn't always get along with. She in a way wants to see me happy but I know that in other ways she is envious. She has told me that she wants to have the lapband. I did nothing but encourage it. She would be so much happier. But I think that she wants it for the wrong reasons. She wants to prove to her husband that she can find someone else. She should want it to be healthy and more active. I think that deep down she does, but when you are talking to your friends you need to dogg on the husband more than get all sappy and tell them why you really want something like that.
Other than those 3 friends I think everyone else seems supportive. I just wish that my fiance would say more about how he feels. I know that he loves me. I know that he wants me to be happy, but some of the things he has been doing are really hard to deal with. We don't have alot of money, we are both college students and he works at Target. Well he will go and eat fast food while he is at school so that i don't know. He for one is hurting himself and me, because he promised me that he wants to help me. He wants to loose some weight too. He eats the most horrible food too. McDonalds, taco bell, and gross places like that. I would not be upset if he made better choices but he goes all out and eats double quarter pounders and stuff like that. I remember eating that stuff and when I think about it, it makes me sick. I can not believe how addicted he really is. He even lies about the stuff that he has until I have to confront him with our bank statement that says where he went and how much he spent, and then he just walks away. I don't know if he is ashamed or just upset that he got caught.
Well that is about it for me now. I will try to keep up on this, because it is the only place I can really vent about these frustrations with out starting a war with my friends.
Julie... She is a big girl too. She is almost 400 pounds and is like 6 feet tall. She is gorgeous. But she has a hard time with her self confidence because she is big. But the thing is that when I vowed never to eat McDonalds again, she was telling me how she will never give it up and that she loves it. Well hunny, I am sorry but the weight will never come off if you eat that kind of stuff. And the biggest thing with her is that she likes to go out and drink. Ok there is nothing wrong with wanting to have agood time. But she drinks everyweekend and pretty much Friday night and Saturday night both. Well she is upset that i can't drink anymore. I am sorry my life is too important to be worried about not drinking.
Susan... again is a big girl. She is probably 5'7" and I am not sure how much she weights but she is probably a 24. She has 2 kids and a husband that she doesn't always get along with. She in a way wants to see me happy but I know that in other ways she is envious. She has told me that she wants to have the lapband. I did nothing but encourage it. She would be so much happier. But I think that she wants it for the wrong reasons. She wants to prove to her husband that she can find someone else. She should want it to be healthy and more active. I think that deep down she does, but when you are talking to your friends you need to dogg on the husband more than get all sappy and tell them why you really want something like that.
Other than those 3 friends I think everyone else seems supportive. I just wish that my fiance would say more about how he feels. I know that he loves me. I know that he wants me to be happy, but some of the things he has been doing are really hard to deal with. We don't have alot of money, we are both college students and he works at Target. Well he will go and eat fast food while he is at school so that i don't know. He for one is hurting himself and me, because he promised me that he wants to help me. He wants to loose some weight too. He eats the most horrible food too. McDonalds, taco bell, and gross places like that. I would not be upset if he made better choices but he goes all out and eats double quarter pounders and stuff like that. I remember eating that stuff and when I think about it, it makes me sick. I can not believe how addicted he really is. He even lies about the stuff that he has until I have to confront him with our bank statement that says where he went and how much he spent, and then he just walks away. I don't know if he is ashamed or just upset that he got caught.
Well that is about it for me now. I will try to keep up on this, because it is the only place I can really vent about these frustrations with out starting a war with my friends.
