CathyO911
Wow, where to begin. I guess my story is much like the others here. I was never overweight as a child or teen. I have always loved eating and have used food to soothe a lot of feelings that built up over the years however, I was active when I was younger so it was never an issue until I was about 25 ish and got a sedentary, high stress job. (9-1-1 operator)
Around that time things just caught up to me and the eating become more troublesome with less activity and more stress. By 30 I was officially obese - well, who am I kidding - around 26 I was probably officially obese! It just kept getting worse and I was not necessarily eating differently than before, my activity level and age was just catching up with my eating.
I am a person who has trouble asking for help. Sound familiar? I am finding out, with the aid of a great therapist, my efforts to achieve some sort of unattainble perfection are hampering me at every turn. . There is no such thing as perfect and finding out at this age that who I thought I was is not really who I have turned out to be has been very challenging. I have spent the vast majority of my adult life trying to reach perfection then punishing myself for never being able to get there!
I have been married for the last 3 years to my best friend and partner Brian and he is amazing and loving and supportive of whatever makes me happy. I dont have children but I do have two amazingly aloof cats who think I exist only to feed and brush them. :-) I am still in the emergency/public safety field as a manager of the communications center at the local Sheriff's Office/9-1-1 center. I have an amazing life and have been blessed in so many ways but this weight thing is holding me back from being the best me I can be.
So... here I am now at 45 at my highest weight ever at 309 (last time I could bear to weigh myself) and I am going to have bariatric surgery. I just have to decide which surgery to have. I am leaning toward the RNY procedure after the orientation I went to last night.
Stay tuned!
