Brooke Spearman
August 18, 2005
Aug 17, 2005
August 18, 2005- Today is Thursday. Man I had such a bad day! Nothing to do with my surgery just plain stressful, for all my fellow mommys you know these days. Lailah woke up this morning and I noticed she had a redrash all over her body. Little bitty red dotts all over! So I thought well maybe it was a reaction to the shots she got Monday. So I called her Dr. and he told me to bring her in right away. So we went--top this off, I was babysitting two of my cousins 3 & 4 year old, so I had to tote them with me. Well we got there and since we were being fit in we had to sit there and wait and hour and a half in the waiting room. Lailah is irritable! The staff had taken a lot of the toys outta there that they use to have and so ...well yea it was fun! Then we go and see the Dr. not without waiting another 45min in the patient room....geeezz....Lailah is screaming her head off the entire time (she's very smart, she knew she got shots there just 3 days ago) I mean she was crawling up my mountain stomache, pulling my shirt down ...anything she could do to make me take her outta there.....well anywho to make a long story short she has some kind of infection . You know where your tonsils are rt? Well that long thing that hangs down by it, was RAW all around it...He told me that this is a very painful infection! So he put her on a hydrocodone for babies! My poohbear is sound asleep right now, Thank God,lol....for the past two nights she has awoken screaming every hour!!!! So maybe this will help and she will be better in a few days or so! Besides that I still haven't heard anything as usual. Rickey is in DFW today. He got into a big frienzy with his trainer, so I am worried about him not eating right and not getting enough sleep. He always sounds sp depressed, I miss him
I wish he could get a local job driving, but any local driving job wants a years experience over the road...so what the heck do ya do???? oh well
I have been reading a lot of people's journals on here and their success stories, man to me I find it depressing! I am happy for them yes, but I want to be happy for me to,lol!!!! Ugh the suspense of maybe or maybe not having the surgery is killing me! Sometimes I wish I would take up drinking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Until next time, take care and God Bless!!!!
August 16, 2005
Aug 15, 2005
1. I want to go on a crusie with my husband. I don't care where! Anywhere where I can look and feel sexy,lol.
2. I want to take my daughter to disney world and be able to ride rides with her when she gets a little older. I don't want to have to take her grandma just for her to get to ride, becasue mommy can't fit.
3. I want to go to church all the time and wear dresses and skirts...my husband would love that I was went. I beleive in God and I love him very much, but I don't go becasue I have nothing to wear. It is hard when you are so big. I know they say come as you are......BUT...
4. I want to cut my hair short just for the heck of it,lol...my mom always told me becasue my face is so round-if I got a haircut my face would look fatter---I know its true...but I always hated to hear that
5. I want to go to a high school reunion and flaunt :) just to feel great about myself ...b/c i never felt pretty in school...I always seemed to feel like the fat outcast
Thats all I guess for today...I had to vent, I know it was a lot ...until next time
April 26, 2007
I am almost 11 months out.WOW this year flew by! I have lost...well depends on the day anywhere from -105 to -110...give or take....so it just depends... I have stepped my exercising up quite a bit....as you may have read in the my story section..I am walking no less than 3 miles a day, normally 4 though. I feel great b/c of this! It makes my day go better ....
I for the 1st time in a long time can wear a size 20. I know that isnt to small,lol by no means, but I wore a 22 my senior year! So I am proud!!! They are just a little snug right now, but give me another week or two! Thank God I am tall,lol b./c I am able to pull this weight thing off better...Im about 5'10.. so
But things are going smoothly right now..I am kinda at the stage where I am having to really fight and push to get the weight off. I do get hungry and I can eat a lot more now, so I am having to be careful ! at supper time or any meal, I put my food on a sauser plate, and I know thats all I can have...that really helps me. I still snack...but I am trying to snack a little healthier. I eat a lot of pickles! Dr. Jones had told me I could eat a whole jar a day an they wouldnt hurt me..I dont by no means, but Im just saying...I have been into them 100 pack calorie snacks also...they are pretty good!
I have just really been trying to puch myself this past month to get to where I wanted to be by my year mark...which I dont think I will do....but Im not qutting or giving up....It took this long for me to actually realize how much I spent on this surgery to just sit here and not exercise! What a fool !!! But I wish you all the best and hope all is well...I will update soon
April 26, 2007
I am almost 11 months out.WOW this year flew by! I have lost...well depends on the day anywhere from -105 to -110...give or take....so it just depends... I have stepped my exercising up quite a bit....as you may have read in the my story section..I am walking no less than 3 miles a day, normally 4 though. I feel great b/c of this! It makes my day go better ....
I for the 1st time in a long time can wear a size 20. I know that isnt to small,lol by no means, but I wore a 22 my senior year! So I am proud!!! They are just a little snug right now, but give me another week or two! Thank God I am tall,lol b./c I am able to pull this weight thing off better...Im about 5'10.. so
But things are going smoothly right now..I am kinda at the stage where I am having to really fight and push to get the weight off. I do get hungry and I can eat a lot more now, so I am having to be careful ! at supper time or any meal, I put my food on a sauser plate, and I know thats all I can have...that really helps me. I still snack...but I am trying to snack a little healthier. I eat a lot of pickles! Dr. Jones had told me I could eat a whole jar a day an they wouldnt hurt me..I dont by no means, but Im just saying...I have been into them 100 pack calorie snacks also...they are pretty good!
I have just really been trying to puch myself this past month to get to where I wanted to be by my year mark...which I dont think I will do....but Im not qutting or giving up....It took this long for me to actually realize how much I spent on this surgery to just sit here and not exercise! What a fool !!! But I wish you all the best and hope all is well...I will update soon
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