blynne
Hi my name is Bobbi, my story is this.....
I am not one who was obese most of my life, I actually was quite fit, very athletic and energetic. I married young and had my first child in 1989, a whopping 10lb boy! I gained 90lbs during my first pregnancy. I lost 80lbs pretty quickly. I had our second child in 1991, again a 10lb baby girl. This time only gaining 82lbs. It took me almost a year to lose just 40lbs from having my 2nd child. In 1992 I had a total hysterectomy and I was put on all kinds of hormones to try and figure out what worked and didn't work. Through the emotional roller coaster of being a Mom, having a hysterectomy at age 22 and being married I decided to eat for my comfort. I probably topped out at about 210lbs. I remember weighing myself the day of my wedding and making a promise never to be over 10lbs of that weight. HA! I don't know what I was thinking! I weighed a 105lbs stood 5feet 1 inch, and in 3 years time was tipping the scale at whopping 210lbs! So like everyone else, I tried every diet known to mankind and would lose, then gain it back with a lot extra each time! So I did this rollercoaster ride of up and down weight for most of my adult life, then my body has decided no matter what I do I can't lose anyweight and it seems to think it is comfortable at being 200lbs now.....however I am not comfortable at 200lbs. I am miserable! It has been the past 3-4 years that my weight has just stayed right here, no matter the amount of miles I walk, the little amount of food I eat, ect. I have been put on medicine for major anxieties with an antidepressant. I literally FREAK out about going out in public looking like I do. I change my clothes several times before leaving my house, asking everyone does this look better or does this????? My kids tell me just relax Mom you are fine......I sure don't feel fine.......Everyday I go to work and I see the girl that sits next to me super thin eats whatever talks about her exciting life going out here and there , going shopping, having new clothes every week, another one that is like oh I can't eat that I might ruin my perfect figure and what do I do......I eat it for her!! lol! I want to so badly be back to the person I was or at least feel good in my skin, not like I am going to POP at anyminute. So, I thought about the WLS for about 3 years or actually more like 5 years, my doctor suggested it to me several times. I actually was furious at him for suggesting that I was that big and that much of a failure that I needed a surgery to help me lose weight. Ya, that is me....I am stubborn, think I can do it all myself. Well, I have given up to the thought I need help!!! So I began my intense research of the roux en y gastric bypass surgery and decided that this is for me. Where I live they require you to go through 6 months of nutritional guidance, attend at least 3 support groups, and see a physcologist and have an evaluation. My next step was they submit all my information and appointment dates to the insurance and then the insurance company decides whether to approve it or not. Thank the Lord above....I got my approval just a week after they submitted the information! I am now scheduled for surger on March 2nd. I go in for my pre-op on Feb.28th. I have spent many a moments praying so very diligently that this would work out for me. And the gracious God we have has decided to bestow this blessing upon me! At the same time that I am so very excited, I am so very scared.....not of surgery really, but of the thought that I have turned to the comfort of food so long that I have to learn a new outlet for my emotions. And I imagine I am going to have a lot of emotions this spring. My Son is graduating high school and then he is off to AIT training for the Army National Guard and then off to college, and I have a daughter turning 16 and she is becoming a little social butterfly probably not wanting to spend much time with Ma anymore, my hubby is active in softball, bowling, golf, ect. But I do have my little one who is 6. We adopted her when she was just 2 and she is such a little sweetie and I am excited about being able to have the energy to ride bikes with her, play soccer with her, and be able to go into the playland at McDonalds to retrieve her when it is time to go....lol! She knows right now Mommy can't fit and has to send sister in after her! :)
This is my story......to be continued after March 2, 2007!!!
