Aynessa
well long time no update huh
Jan 03, 2009
update
Nov 11, 2006
Nov.11,2006
well yesterday i went to rite aid and got on the scale and it said 244 and i was so happy cuz now my bmi is obessed can u even believe that to go from super morbity obese to just obesed i aint never been so happy in my life to be obesed i see my doc on the 21st of this month last time i saw him i was i believe 270 sumthing so he will be happy most likely well if my profile seems a lil crazy it is cuz i am just getting used to this new profile stuff but if u wanna see my entries just click and see hopefully it works out great lol.. stay blessed
recent post for 2006
Oct 28, 2006
well hey everyone i kno i have not been here in god knows when well i been on the site i just couldnt update because in the begining i had so much bad things to say i didnt think they was worth saying.. but i guess i can fill yall in i went to the hospital june 2nd i think like 7 something.. signed in went upstairs and signed in again and they called me back u kno where they make u get naked lol and wear that stylish robe.. blue most likely lol.. and those socks that double as slippers i was looking good lol.. talked 2 my mom then he and my girlfriend switched places..my girlfriend was scared and so was i she kept saying come on lets just get out of here lol she is so cute lol.. so they put the iv in but i forgot 2 say they did that while my mom was still there.. then dr, slotman came in and said u ready i said yes he said they will be 2 get u shortly.. so me and my girl talked then my mom cae back and its like they just knew she was back because as soon as she did the guy was coming 2 take me.. i hugged my mom and girl and told em i love them and a few tears came out my eyes but i sucked em up didnt want them 2 get upset.. i actually walked into the operation room.. that room and sooo cold.. and i saw all the things they use 4 surgery maybe thats not the bed idea dr. slotman lol i almost ran.. so then i sat on the table go a epirdural i spelled that wrong it didnt hurt as much as i thought.. i was kinda shcked and i didnt jum either so after that was done they layed me back and sleepy time i remember them waking me up 2 tell me 2 roll over in the operating room so they can get the binder on i remember alot of pain when i was doing that.. then i was in recovery.. and i kept waking up and going back 2 sleep finally i seen someone walk by and got there attention to tell them i was in pain.. i mean it wasnt like they didnt care but they prolly thought i was still sleep.. then i was being wheeled up 2 my room were my family joined me shortly.. i just wanna thank my girlfriend she really was there for me those 4days she staied every minute by my side even tho she had to sleep in this horrible chair and was woken up more than she would like.. the hospital stay was a hospital stay i mean it was my first but like any place there was some great people there and not so great.. i walked laps around the halls i couldnt eat anything the whiole 4 days until the last one but thats okay i wasnt hungry at all.. so i saw a scale and i jumped on it and it said something like 350 something almost 360 i believe and i was like what the hell most likely it was all the iv fluids but still weight loss surgery then gaining weight can make u a lil like wat the hell.. the fourth day i go to drink that nasty stuff and make sure no leaks well that sounds simple right.. NOTTT.. wouldnt u know it the time i have 2 be checked the machine is not working right so i had to get up drink some have the doc try 2 take the pic only 2 have the machine not work so i did this twice and swear if they made me do it again i may have hurt them.. i was weak and that stuff was nasty and i just didnt like that.. so i went home the first weeks was hell pure hell i kept saying wat have i done i shouldnt have done it bah bah let me be honest the first month was hell okay.. i couldnt even wipe my own ass thank god my girlfriend was there or i be well i dont even wanna think about it.. but when i went for my 3 week check up and i lost 40 pounds i was all smiles the rest of the day.. basically i have lost 55 60 depending on who u ask and that just since my last appointment in early july was is my current lost now that i wont know until tomorrow.. has this been easy hell no.. would i do it again.. i cant answer that just yet.. do i follow the rules all the time.. umm no.. do i throw up one approved and not approved food... umm hell yess but i do try again.. will i make this surgery work for me.. ya damn right i will.. was my bmi 55.3 or more depending yes was i wearing 26 in jeans and squezin into 3xl shirts but really needing a 4 yes was my back hurtinga nd i couldnt do house work without a break.. yes was i super morbitly obese.. umm u got that right bie now is my bmi 47.2 umm yes prolly less seeing is i havent been on a scale since early july.. am i wearing 22 jeans and a 2xl shirt umm yep.. does my back hurt when i walk can i clean without a break.. oh yes and it feels soo great.. and i now extremely obese yes and like i said prolly lower.. could i have done this without gastric bypass.. now u know the answer 2 that.. not likely.. am i human will i make mistakes fortget vitimins sometimes eat something i aint suspose 2.. well most likely but i will never let wat happen 2 me 2 need this surgery happen again.. so that my up date
Oct. 28,2006
well i kno i have been a bad bad girl i havent updated in a while i am sorry about that i have been very busy for a recap i had my surgery june2nd and its oct.28th lol i am down to 252 the last time i weighted myself was oct.13th so i am not sure if that number has changed i went from size 28/26 pants to 20/18 depending on the brand and from 4xl to xl i feel like a new me the only issues i have is this damn skin its driving me nuts but hey i try to hide it well in clothes well those are myupdates if anyone wants to talk chat watever just drop me a line okay take care and godbless and oh yeah my weight lost went something like this 358 in hospital day after surgery to 252 so umm wat does that mean folks i lost a hundred and 6 pounds in wat 5 months can i get a good job geeze sike jus kidding besos
2006
Oct 28, 2006
May 2,2006
hey everyone i know i have been missing but with school coming to a close and all that has been happening in my personal life i really havent had time to think about the surgery but that is gonna change because i wanted to start a pre-op diet and get on top of everything..i keep on having this cough its not that i have a cold its jus a cough i am not sure what this will do for my surgery date wether it will hold it back or what but i will tell my surgeon.. i really need to buy some protein i am a bit nervous that i wont do everything right i kno this is a common feeling but i kno that too will pass i am going to see my nuti. tomorrow jus to make sure i have all the needed supples for after surgery i am worried about the pain i am a big baby and i jus kno i will be one lol i will try to be strong tho and suck it up..i dont know how to feel or what to expect i wish i had a friend to talk it over with but i do have a few it jus seems after there surgery they jus got so busy i would love a support buddy.. i might have to find one of my own.. well i will write tomorrow when i come back.. until then keep me in ur prayers as i keep u..
May 12,2006
hey everyone.. so i went to to see my nuti. finally after having to reschedule like 3 times.. and i got refreashed on all the things i need to have to eat after my surgery well atleast for the first 6 weeks after that you have to come back for your post op diet.. it was fun this time there were other people in the class it felt good to not just be sitting there alone u kno.. well on the 16th i go into dr.slotmans office i guess to jus see hime before surgery to answer any questions i have which is good because i have seen him since like nov when i had my consult with him.. i cant believe this is finally happening for me.. i am excited yet nervous but i know whatever happens is supposed to happen god has a plan for all of us.. well my grandmother died the 2nd of may i went to her funeral it was sad but i am aight taking it okay she is in a better place she was so sick in her last days that i kno its better for her to feel no pain then all the pain she was feeling..as for school my last day was wednesday and boy does it feel strange not to have to go to class lol so far i have 2 A's and a B my last professor is taking her slow time posting my grade but its aight.. i am so proud of myself for actually doing good this year i mean i want to keep this up threwout my whole college experience... but i had a few great teachers this yearlets hope next year brings the same.. well i jus wanted to check in and update i am gonna atleast try to once amount even after surgery cuz i kno some people jus forget about there profile after their losing not me..atleast one entry a month this month i got too whooo hooo and i am sure i will write again so keep me in ur prayers as i will keep all of u.. god bless
May 23,2006
well i have found out yesterday that my sugery is pushed back until june 2 which is only to days from the oringal date.. i know why it was even tho the lady said someone else was having an emergency surgery that day but that dont even make any sense because how can they know now 2 weeks ahead isnt an emergency surgery done as soon as u need it please i kno why its because my surgeon had this other thing he wanted to attend i remember on the 16th when he saw my date he ask the lady what about that other thing and she said it was not set in stone so i guess it became stone when they bumped me.. i am not mad tho because maybe god has a plan for me and i think it will be aight cuz i didnt have the lovenox i needed anyways and this way i can have it.. plus i really like for special dates to be in the begining of the month and then some months dont have a 31st day so i mean i dont mind i have left this surgery in god's hands he knows what he is doing and if this is his will so be it so please keep me in ya prayer june 2nd..well thats all i really have to update i go for pre admission testing at the hospital tomorrow i will update after that hopefully its painless lol..god bless
May 25,2006
well i had my pre admission and i have to say it was pretty painless.. first i checked in and gave them my info they gave me a green folder i had to carry around and then bring back to then when i was done first on the list was blood work and an ekg the blood work had me a lil scared cuz some people try to act like cuz i am overweight they need to do crazy things to get blood when i know for a fact i have great veins i have been told many times ty.. well after that which i have to say the woman who took my blood did a great job doing like i said painless really i had an ekg i was off to get an chest xray.. while i waited to be talking back i looked at my ekg and i read it said everything was normal also i had my mom there and she works at the hospital as a unit sectary/pct so she knows alot about those readings and she said it looked great.. had the chest xray but i felt like a stuffed susuage in the place where u change i mean could they make it any smaller.. the chest xray was pretty easy so after that i went up to this class u have to take my mom had work 3pm to 11pm then 11pm to 7am so she was very tired and the meeting was susposed to last for 2 hours so she napped while i learned.. it was a very good meeting there were 2 other paients of doctor slotman's so it was good to see others having it..although the one lady seemed to me like she wasnt fully ready to handle all that is to come from thise surgery but they i may be wrong..so we learned somethings to help us stay clam and heal faster it was a great class then we learned about how to inject ourselves with lovenox which is a blood thinner to make sure we dont get clots.. it was fun we praticed on a pillow poor pillow lol.. my surgeon is great he does 3 things to fight blood clots and i am happy about that he seems to know his stuff and i trust him completely.. i know i shouldnt have this close to my date but i went to the memoral page on this site it kinda scared me some of these people were like a year or 2 out and died.. i know everyone is different and god has a plan for us all.. i jus dont want to die honestly..i know people say u should embrace dealth but i still got some living i wanna do.. but i pray to god that he keep me safe and i ask everyone to stay a prayerfor me.. well thats really all i have to update i will update later.. and oh yeah we dont have a bowel prep to do thank goodness for that one.. pray for me i will pray for u all..
May 28,2006
hey everyone can u believe it 5 more days until my new life.. i cant wait!!!! i recieved my protien and i have to say the nectar is nasty whoa.. i got some suggestions to try them with crystal light so i will.. but i know if that doesnt work i will have to buy something else cuz it is jus nasty.. gosh i thought it would be good i guess not.. well i am a bit nervous its just i cant believe its gonna happen.. well my baby wants to get on the computer so i will update prolly tomorrow.. also i read 2 profiles on here that actually helped me alot i could really see my same struggle in these women.. helped me feel not so alone... i am so happy i found OH.. oh yeah i want to add some music to my page if u dont wanna hear it while u read my profile jus turn ya sound down.. till i write again i will keep u all in my prayers god bless...
May 29,2006
well i am 4 days away from my surgery and i must admit i am getting nervous but i have been.. i am thinking like i wont be able to have this or that but honestly its sad that i see how much food was left to be the only thing i could enjoy.. my cuzin and my baby would be like lets go here and i would go but some places i just didnt wanna go cuz i feel fat.. i mean this weight is so crazy it stops u from doing so much.. i gained wait when i seen the doctor
on the 16th but keep in mind i hadnt seem him since nov when i had my consult of last year so gaining 15 pounds isnt as bad as it could be in all those months so i aint gonna beat myself up over it.. i am gonna use my tool and have thise surgery work for me...i just worry about like will i have everything and then with this nasty protein i know i need to get somemore i know it all will work out.. have any of u experinced crazy dreams i kno i have smh also i am scared about the empadoral (i spelled that wrong) see when i get needles i jump and i know if u jump that could be all over for u so i am hoping i dont jump.. well pray for me i will update later...
May 31,2006
hey all i just feel like i should update.. well if my date was never changed i would have had my surgery today but god moved my date to june 2nd so i have actually oneday and then i am gonna be a loser.. i say a prayer everyday for everyone that is having surgery that day.. i hope they are all okay.. well on friday i have to be at the hospital by 7:45am.. pretty early but i like it to be over with u know get me in and out i pray everything is okay i am going to leave it in god's hands thats all i can do he is the ultimate decison maker anyway.. i am not really scared right now i feel pretty calm u prolly wouldnt know i was having surgery tomorrow if i didnt tell u i wonder if this will last lol we will see.. well i will update tomorrow... please say a prayer for me in case i dont..god bless
June 2,2006
Hey everyone today is the big day its 12:45am and I am hella scared it just hit me I am trying not to cry I know I want this surgery its jus its scarey this is major surgery ya know but I have faith in god and I know he has a plan for me but that still don't help me not go crazy lol I just hope u all say a special prayer for me.. I am back I went to hug the kids good night u will never believe the day I had first our water was all messed up I called and they said I have to wait then a thunderstrom struck all the lights off had to cook dinner for my family in the dark and let me tell u it was very hot but I made it lol the lights came on at 12 that's why the kids are just now getting in there bed to sleep they was sleep but on the couch.. So my day before surgery is one I will never forget its like whatever could go wrong did lol.. Well when I huged the kids I cried a little I would hate to not see them again I love them like there my own (there my sister kids but me and my baby take care of them.) I will prolly cry again but its alright I am not backing out and crying there is nothing wrong with it doesn't mean ur weak or anything at all so if yall need to cry jus do it...I am going to take a shower in a few so that's one less thing 2 do in the morning cuz I have to be there so early but I rather get it over with u kno...if any of yall read this please say a special prayer for me...well I guess I will go see yall on the other side if its the lords will...good bless
