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Thursday evening I had some friends take me to dinner.  These were all friends from work.....wonderful people.  These are the people who already accept me...no matter how big I am..no matter if we disagree on things...I know that all of these folks will be there for me no matter what.  I'm so lucky and blessed to have these folks beside me and behind me with encouragement and support.  How lucky can a girl get?  And that's a wonderful feeling.  So I want to thank you all.....I had a wonderful evening.  I'm sorry that I didn't get to talk to some of you as much as I wanted...but there will be other get-togethers. :)  I love ya all!!!  Thank you for everything!

As for the rest of life.  It's great.  I've got one day left to work.... and I'm taking the rest of that week off before surgery.  I wanna get some things in order around the house.  I just want a "breather" before my surgery.  I feel like I am constantly go-go-go...I wanted to slow down....for just a bit before hand.  :)  I'm looking forward to it.  

With surgery right around the corner, I've been thinking a lot about my life and how it's gonna change.  Things I'm looking forward to...not looking forward to and although there are too many to list, I'll name a few.  I'm looking forward to not having to worry about eating so much.  I am sometimes in amazement as to how much food I need to fill me up and not feel hungry.  Soon that will be gone.  I'm looking forward to no pain.  No pain in my legs/knees when I stand, no pain in my back when I move, no pain in my feet and ankles from support my big butt.  :)  I'm looking forward to cloths.  Right now, I live in scrubs and large house dresses or night gowns.  Cloths are just so uncomfortable to me right now.  I wanna wear real cloths....real pants...no elastic waste...that type of thing.  I'm looking forward to being able to breathe.  I have done a lot of work on myself with quiting smoking but I still have a hard time breathing....just walking down the dang hall at work I get winded.  I'm looking forward to NOT being the hottest person in the room.  And I'm talking temperature wise.  :)  Always burning up and sweating....not pretty!!  And most importantly, I'm looking forward to feeling good and having energy.  Woo Hoo!  :) 

As for everyone else who might be reading this.  Friends, family, co-workers....I wanna thank you all too.  I know you'll be there behind me too....supporting me.  I had one co-worker practially beg me not to turn to a new addiction after my surgery.  :)  And although that is a real thing that can happen, I'm gonna try my best to make it NOT so.  I will have new addictions that will consist of exercise and sports (I can't tell you how bad I wanna play volleyball again) and it will consist of crafts....crotcheting, beading, and maybe some new talents I don't even know I have yet or have heard about yet.  No shopping, gambling, spending money, drinking, or drugging for me....thanks!!!  :)  So with all this support....how can I go wrong?  :)

Well, I'll probably blog one more time before surgery.....I hope that all is well with you if you are reading this.  Feel free to write me or respond...maybe send me some "new healthy addiction" ideas.  :)
HUGS TO YOU ALL!!
Apes 
P.S....if you don't wanna go through here....you can e-mail me at [email protected]   
 

Look to the left....do you see that?  See that surgery date?  All I can say is "WOO HOO"!!!  God is good!!!!!

I'm hoping by putting all my surgery woe's on here, that others will learn from my mistakes....like getting too excited because your insurance mis-lead you and told you an approval would only take 3-4 days.  Well, I found out yesterday that that is only if your doctor has marked your paper work with an urgent message.  Otherwise, it takes up to 3 weeks.  Guess what, my doctor didn't make it "urgent".  So I continue to wait.   Which I don't mind.  I just wish I wasn't told the 3-4 days thing.  It's kinda funny, because I've gotten to the point where nothing surprises me anymore when it comes to this surgery.  It's been such a fight the whole time....must mean I really want it huh?  :)  And I guess there is a reason for all this waiting.  I'm definately learning a lot of patience.....that's for sure.  :)  Course I can't complain....it took my dad a couple of years of fighting to get his surgery.  So compared to that, I've only just begun........
Thanks all for stopping by!!!  :)

After much delay for reasons I won't go into, my insurance should be responding within 3-4 business days. Isn't that wonderful? Again, I'm jumping around smiling like a little girl........

I just want to tell everyone how much I appreciate their support.  It's funny, you get support from places you least expect it yet don't from where you DO expect it.  Isn't life strange?  Anyway, still nothing from the insurance....but any day now I'm sure!!!  :) 
God Bless you all,
April

 

A couple of my co-workers were talking one day and the female was talking about how she wanted to loose those few extra pounds she had left to loose.  "I could take up smoking!!" she says.  "Oh great, you'll just trade one killer for another!", the male co-worker said.  I stopped dead in my tracks....thankfully not literally.  Standing there I realized I had both of those strikes against me.  I was a smoker of about 1 pack a day and I was over-weight.  Suddenly it all became real.....I gotta knock this crap off!!!  So on April 11, 2006 I had my last cigarette....that's right baby, almost 10 months!!!  But looking back I realize how stupid smoking was but yet how much of a motivator it was.  Having a cigarette was my "reward" for working hard or whatever I was doing...."ok, I'll clean the kitchen and have a smoke."  How stupid does that sound?  But that's how it was....and I've noticed that with not having that "motivator" there, I do less.  I'm working on it though....:)  But that was the day my eyes were opened wide...what I was doing to myself was thrown right into my face....like a big coconut cream pie....mmmmmm....pie......  Just picking.  But I am so thankful that that happened.  Now....if I can just get my little tool inserted into my tummy....I can get rid of the second strike......:)

Thanks all!  And thanks to those two co-workers who scared me straight!   :)

You're my life's one miracle
Everything I've done that's good
And you break my heart with tenderness
and I confess it's true
I never knew a love like this 'til you

You're the reason I was born
Now I finally know for sure
And I'm overwhelmed with happiness
So blessed to hold you close
The one that I love most
Though the future has so much for you in store
Who could ever love you more?

The nearest thing to heaven
You're my angel from above
Only God creates such perfect love

When you smile at me, I cry
And to save your life I'd die
With a romance that is pure in heart
You are my dearest part
Whatever it requires
I live for your desires
Forget my own, your needs will come before
Who could ever love you more?

There's is nothing you could ever do
To make me stop loving you
And every breath I take
Is always for your sake
You sleep inside my dreams and know for sure
Who could ever love you more?

Yes, Rachel is my main reason for having this surgery.  I want to be here for her as long as I can.  I wanna see her as much as she'll let me.  I wanna be there for her growing up, first heart-break, first job, first car, graduation, college, and whatever follows after that.  I wanna be there!  And since I'm already starting to fall behind in life, this surgery is just what I'll need to keep up with her!  She is my everything.  And now I can do something....like take care of myself for her.  And she may not need me when she grows up....but at least I'll be around to find out!  :) 

and waiting.....:)

One of my co-worker's brother had the gastric-bypass in Colorado Springs yesterday.  Lucky guy!  There were some minor things that popped up during surgery but it sounds like everything is great.  I wish him the best and can't wait to see his before and after!  :)   Pray for him!  

Well, I've jumped through all my hoops.....I think.  I have attented every required class and I have done everything I'm suppose to be doing....and now I'm just waiting on insurance.  If they approve, they will only approve about half of the cost....but that's better than a sharp stick in the eye!  
I WANNA DO THIS...I WANNA GET THIS DONE AND OVER WITH!