michelle,
I wish I could say people don't read that page and get scared very often, but I think every preop does it and gets scared including me. The one thing I discovered from analyzing it that many of the deaths are not a direct result of the surgery. For example, some are from other things like asthma, complications of previous illnesses like kidney problems or diabetes, blood clots which are more prevalent in persons who have been unable to walk prior to surgery. Others died years later from other causes. You have to think about how many of us would have died or become disabled by complications of MO. when I put that all in perspective, I realized the complications of the surgery which result in death due occur but rarely and the risk is worth it for me because I couldn't stand my life the way it was. It may be different for you. I was at the end of my rope and now I have a wonderful new life down 54# in 5 months and 40 to go. I feel so much better and my mental attitude is so much better. Maybe you can relate, I woke up every AM with the first thought, "You are so disgusting. You create all your own problems and all this pain is your own fault for eating."
I never think that anymore. Thank God for the miracle of life every day. I wish you the same success and better.