ambadiva
Yes, I am Amber...
Jun 18, 2007
I am using the user name AMBADIVA and signing my posts as Amber
which has been my name in anonymity for many years whether paticipating
in workshops, writing my book or signing alot of my art work. It was necessary as I felt a need to protect the people around me as I came out
to give witness to many years of sexual abuse and other abuses which I displayed throughout my communications and artistic expressions . I have
also been diagnosed as bi-polar which redeemed itself during my second
year of teaching in which I was esposed to a sexual assualt that brought forth all of my past sexual abuses as a young child and teenager, etc.
Up until that point I was about 140 # in weight and within a few years I
emotionally ate my way up to 269# which left me completely uncomfortable
and in poor health.
I have always had a good sense of humor and in a tough moment I would
sort of step back and laugh at myself which took me out of my pain. I have
worked very hard at nearly all of my issues concerning my journey to
good mental health and creative abundance...I am here and I'm not going
away. I want to go into my "silver" years as healthy and energetic as I
possibly can be. I believe that the lapband surgery is a god-send and a
tool I can use well and creatively. I am a teacher and a student to all
that is about me. I look for and appreciate any advice and support and
I look to give some of my own insights and self-taught education for
the WLS journey. I am not a medical professional (although I was a
nursing assistant for nearly 20 years...which is my nibbana) but I am
always open to change and up to it.
I do not believe the past should dictate my future. I look upon my past
as having some tough moments and realize that I had to take each step
of my journey....I am happy today and look forward to tomorrow...I could
not have said this yesterday.....Amen, love and a healthy blessing, Amber.
which has been my name in anonymity for many years whether paticipating
in workshops, writing my book or signing alot of my art work. It was necessary as I felt a need to protect the people around me as I came out
to give witness to many years of sexual abuse and other abuses which I displayed throughout my communications and artistic expressions . I have
also been diagnosed as bi-polar which redeemed itself during my second
year of teaching in which I was esposed to a sexual assualt that brought forth all of my past sexual abuses as a young child and teenager, etc.
Up until that point I was about 140 # in weight and within a few years I
emotionally ate my way up to 269# which left me completely uncomfortable
and in poor health.
I have always had a good sense of humor and in a tough moment I would
sort of step back and laugh at myself which took me out of my pain. I have
worked very hard at nearly all of my issues concerning my journey to
good mental health and creative abundance...I am here and I'm not going
away. I want to go into my "silver" years as healthy and energetic as I
possibly can be. I believe that the lapband surgery is a god-send and a
tool I can use well and creatively. I am a teacher and a student to all
that is about me. I look for and appreciate any advice and support and
I look to give some of my own insights and self-taught education for
the WLS journey. I am not a medical professional (although I was a
nursing assistant for nearly 20 years...which is my nibbana) but I am
always open to change and up to it.
I do not believe the past should dictate my future. I look upon my past
as having some tough moments and realize that I had to take each step
of my journey....I am happy today and look forward to tomorrow...I could
not have said this yesterday.....Amen, love and a healthy blessing, Amber.
