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It has been so so long since I last posted almost a year and a half, but it because of great things.  I truly have been busy living life.  I have reached my personal goal weight and passed it goal was 160 and I am currently 158 and have been maintaining steady since my year mark in Feb.  I have all good labs except vitamin D but that was always there prior to WLS. ( it is believed that those who suffer from Fibromyagia and conditions like it have vitamin D deficiencies)  I have made some great strides with life and so happy to be here living.   

Well I do not know where to start.  I am almost down 100 lbs, 97lbs to be exact.  I love the new life I have.  I am living the life to the fullest.  I do every thing I dreamed of doing.  I take long walks swimming, and running.  I am wearing a size 14-16 and X large to 1X it depends on the cut.  I am so happy that I made this chice to change my life.  No only do I feel good, I look good.   

Where has the time gone? I have been so busy that I had not noticed that I hit my two month mark a while a go.  I had not been really watching the scale, just trying to get my exercise in and getting healthy.  So I got on the scale today and I was pleastantly surprised. My weight is 233 lbs,  I am so have to be under 300lbs that I am not worried about any thing else.  I have drop down to a size 16-18  and still some 18-20.  I love the engery level I have had and the freedom from horrible pain, and heartless stares.  I am learning to leave the obsese feeling about myself behind.  It is hard to see the person that everyone else is seing in me.  I do feel better and look better in clothes but the attention I get from men is something I do not get nor  do I like.  I have always got attendtion for who I am not what my body look like.  I have had this happen before but it was when I was younger and smaller than I am now.  I have grown ( and I am married) as a person so I do not desire the longling stares of a man with demon thoughts.  I also feel like I should not have to cover up and not show off my new figure to my husband.  I am in between a rock and an uncomfortable place. Where do I go from here.

Wow is all I can say.  I have been so busy that I do not have time to be on the computer like I used to.  That is a great though.  I have been hitting the works out hards and using all this new engery that has come from 63 lbs weight loss.  I never knew that losing was the best.  I wish I had done it sooner.  Well the big new I have to share is that yester day I was running with my boys.  They have a fun run at shcool and they wanted to train.  So while I was coaching them one said "Mommy will you run with me.  That is the best way I will learn to pace."  How could I denie him?  So I ran at a slow pace to show how to build up his endurance.  Then the got me " let's race" came out and I said "ok but I not that fast."  To my surprise I not only was able to keep up I beat him in the race.  It felt so good to be out with my boys that I did it again.  Later with more intensive pace both of my older boys put two week of chores up on the line that they could beat me.  Not being a mom who back down from a challenge I put up the same, but assured them that "MOMMY DOES NOT DO DISHES NOR TRASH"  So with all my heart and a little prayer I ran a race. I did it again.  I won the race.  I know that some my think Oh is kids but my boys are fast and know how to move and never before could I even run a half a block let alone beat one of them running.  I am just so happy that all my hard work is paying off.  Thank to all who support and I hope this help someone who is debating about having the WLS.   

Wow it has been almost a week since I last posted.  I have been busy but I am happy to said that I busy.  I have been hitting the gym and pool everyday.  One day I do the gym workout and another a pool.  I am feeling so good after the work out that I can not wait to go at it again.  Life is so sweet on the other side.  I have not had the time to stop and think about what I am doing and not doing.  I love this time that I am putting into myself.  The 50lbs loss has giving me the jumpstart I needed. 

I went for a walk to tady that turned into a two mile walk, then I went to Y with a friend and worked it out again.  I am feeling the pain.  I am so out ot shape, the almost 50lbs lost has helped a lot.  I still love my swimming but Dr said I have to switch up my daily excerise so my body gets the best.  I will try something new tomorrow and more weights.

I am completly surprised that I am down to a size 18 & 1X  already.  I was able to wear some clothes that I had (never wanted too let go ) and they fit.  I am so glad that I am feeling good and healthier.  I am excited to start on this new life.  Untill next time.

Well I know that it has been four day because I have been feeling bad.  I have been feeling good that I had been sleeping on my sides. Well here three days later I am feeling the pain of sleeping on my side.  I had to start taking my heavy  meds again, the pain is that bad.  The Dr. said to take the meds and sleep in a recliner chair.  So last night I did and a feel a litter better.  I will sleeping in the chair again tonight.  Hubby is not happy about that but he will be Ok. I will sleep in the chair until I feel better for a long time.

Untill next time. 

I have noticed one big side effect, bad breathe.  I have asked others on the message board and what I got is that it is becasue of the weight lose coming out of all possible places from my body.  The worset is that I can tasste it so I know that it is bad.  I know that I will not be getting those special kisses from hubby.  One good side effect is my three year old son got his arms around me.  I cried I was so happy.  I am moving along good.  I am keeping to what the dr said.  The hardest this is the taste of the meds in my food.  I need to find another way to get some of my meds in a liquid. Well untill next time.

I am here two weeks and two days out feeling good.  I am learning every day how to get the most  out of my meals.  I am eating more protein in with each meal.  One thing that I have noticed is that the same food that I did not eat before I tend not to want to eat.  Like I can have yogurt, jello and pudding, I have never been big on this items to start with.  I have noticed that I am not eating as much as I through when I weighted it out on my scale today.  I need to eat more.  I do not eat until I am full ( only did that once) maybe because I am afraid of overeating.  That was how I dealt with my pain and emotions. Although i have dealt (before wls was an idea)  with my emotional issues and there pain.  I fell into comfort with just eatting.  I also love to cook and bake and that is one of the hardest things right now is cooking meals that I can not eat.  I have not cooked a meal in over three weeks (one week before surgery) I just do not feel the came in my own kitchen. I feel like I am at someone elses house too early for a dinner party.  I also do not have to engery to cook like I did before.  That is why I am going to make a chicken chilli tomorrow in the slow cooker.  I do not have to stand over the stove. Well I am over to bed to dream of sugar plum and fariy tales