Back to work tomorrow

Apr 08, 2009

Wow, does time ever fly!  I can't believe I am already going back to work tomorrow.  I was going to take off until monday, but since my company is kind of shaky right now and my boss and my bosses boss as well as 10 others have been laid off, I want to get as much $$$ in the bank as possible.  It has been two weeks and other than a nasty barf bug I got a couple days ago, I feel really good.  The bug set me back a couple days on my eating (went back to liquids) but that's ok.

So since I have been home I have gotten a little discombobulated - this happened with each one of my maternity leaves as well.  I have been actually counting the days until coffee get togethers and support group nights, as I am a little lonely for WLS companionship and out of sorts and feel like I need more support than ever with this new territory I am entering. 

My step sister, who I have had my share of difficulty with - let's just say she is immature, flaky and very self involved - blew me off once again this evening.  She lived a mile from me up until last summer when her husband took a job in Michigan.  I always thought she was so fun and was so excited to have her move so close to me.  Well, that was a huge disappointment and basically didn't work out the way I envisioned - I guess I don't meet the criteria for people she wants to hang out with. 

Once she moved away I finally dealt with it and at Christmas we made nice.  I then sent her an e-mail spilling my guts to her and letting her know how I have felt the last 5 years.  No reponse.  Well, she is back for Easter and called a week ago to invite us to the hotel in town where they were staying to go swimming tonight.  I was a little bummed because I really wanted to go to support group.  Long story short, I called her at 6 to see if we should come over and surprise surprise I get "Oh, I forgot to call you!  We had a change in plans and are staying at my friends house!  Sorry!"  GRRRRRR.  Of course now it is too late to go to support group.  Why oh why do I even try with her?  From now on I will be pleasant but tell her we have other plans no matter what the occasion.  I am so done with letting her do this to me and what really bothers me the most is that I gave up a support group night that I REALLY needed for NOTHING.

Sorry for the whining.  I needed that.  I can't believe that I get teary eyed reading this back to myself.  I guess the wounds are still a little fresh...

On a positive note I have lost 24 pounds and my clothes are already getting loose on me!

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