2/10/02 Well I hope I'm posting this email to the right place. Either way, I'm scheduled for surgery on Valentine's Day. I'm very nervous about dying. I guess this is pretty natural but I know that I've got to go into this confident and worry free. I'm reading this book called the Victory of Surrender. It's good because it just shows us about how much control over our life, we do not have. God has it all and he says to trust him and not worry. So I'm focusing these days on him and not worrying. I was going to write letters to all of my friends and family so that they know how much I love them, just in case I died in surgery. But I've got to have more faith than that. I'm doing this so that I can wake up and live. I have a 12 year old that I can barely get on rides with at Great Adventures because I can't fit on the rides. So I focus on this summer when I'll be small enough to fit on the rides that I couldn't last summer.
Pray for me, think of me and wish me well, as I will do the same for you.
Audrey