Jonathan,
It may seem as though things are a struggle right now, but know that God is in Control and we are not. He gave this surgery as an opportunity for you to shine your light...For people to see you as the person and not the skin that we hide behind. To be a help to someone who is in a worst situation then we are and to be a voice of one who knows what it was like to walk in the shoes of someone who had more to give in his life than what people saw on the outside. The opportunity for you to grow on the inside and help those to cross over to the skinny side. Without a trial, there is not testimony. This is your trial time, but the surgery is over and now - you can be you. What you have always been - but now what others will see. It is clear that you had it in you all the time, now its time for you to give back to those who need your support. May you get well each and everyday, use this time as a crutch and stepping stone to be the fullest potential of a person who has now broken through the hard part and now can live life like we've never seen before. The quality of our lives is yet to come, and this is the beginning of your new life. Walk proud and know - you will now be all that you want to be and no one will discourage you from reaching that goal. God Bless You. :-)