Hi Jaimie~ I am wishing you the very best for your surgery, recovery, and weight loss. I know how scarey it can be. I am a mother of 4, ages 2-12, and it scared me at times. Just keep thinking positively, when those scarey or bad thoughts come in your mind, just close your eyes and picture a door slamming shut on those emotions. You realy can't let your emotions freak you out. Just remember to deep breath alot after surgery, get up and walk, even if it hurts, and use common sence. I'll be praying for ya. ~ Sandy