Mindi, I am wishing you a safe, complication free surgery and a smooth, quick recovery. I had my Open RNY on 12/10/01 and have absolutely NO regrets other than not having done it several years sooner. I can honestly say, without a doubt, that this is the best thing I have ever done for myself. God bless you as you start your healthy new life. As far as being afraid of dying, your chances of living are VASTLY greater and your young age will be an advantage to you. You are so courageous and so fortunate to be able to do this while you are still so young. You have your whole life ahead of you. Think of the fun, the relationships and the years of good health you have to look forward to. How exciting! Good luck to you, hon, and keep in touch. I'd love to hear from you or offer any support I can.