dear friend....you need to give yourself a little more time.. try going back to your soft food diet and building on that...give yourself a chance to heal from the surgery. if down the road you decide that this surgery is not for you, it is your body. no one can dictate that you can or cannot do. a few members from AMOS have chosen reversals because of being constantly sick. you then need to find a surgeon willing to listen to you and how you feel medically. if it's depression because you cannot eat like you used to, then find a therpist to help you with those issues. it is possible you may need some medication to get you over the hump. good luck and god bless, judy