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Moving right along do do do do do do 10/19/2008
Oct 19, 2008
Ok drug all the exercise stuff back into my bedroom and am currently giving the work out ball the evil eye lol. Went to Fitday.com and added in all the vitamins and supplements I am taking into the custom food section so they will now be easy to total into my day. I'm feeling shaky and unsure of myself but the first week is always the hardest it's just getting through the next 7 days and then after that it should get easier. Be brave woman!!!
Well starting over again 10/18/2008 ...
Oct 18, 2008
After reviewing my WLS profile I used to be 35 lbs away from my personal goal in weight loss I had to configure my current weight to find my new BMI and get my new weight loss total from where I am at now. I wanna take the next 3 months to focus on getting myself back into my clothes and then going down from there and with winter coming this should be my total focus because there is not a whole lot I can do outside when there is snow on the ground so I won't be going out as much. This weekend I will be moving my exercise equipment back in and refilling my ball to get back to those dreaded squats I hate so much lol. So 5 day pouch test here I come...
Setting up a no fail plan...
Nov 04, 2007
Ok I'm planning tomorrow as my official D-Day in the get my ass back on the plan man lol. So this morning I went and made a account at Fitday.com to start logging all my meals. So I logged in and added in my protein drinks information and all my vitamin information so it's all there and ready to go. It took forever to set all that information up by the back of the bottle listings but now everything is set to go. I want everything I take in there so everything I intake is listed and it's a no fail plan. But I can already see calorie wise I need to pick up skim or 2% milk for my protein drink. I'm not the sort of person who likes to have to think first thing in the morning so I have always done a protein/powder drink with a banana and milk with ice in the blender for breakfast since my wls. I seem to be able to run the blender semi-alert without injury.
So today is like trial day to ease into tomorrow so I have everything set. I dunno if its the time change or my fear of going into the new year with a weight gain ok that I'm exploding out of my pants but whatever it is I'm motivated! I'm getting my hair done on Monday so I figure new cut new out a new outlook on life. Yes it's a little thing but it's a start ya know and also on Monday I'm starting a 5 Day Pouch Test.
Where I'm gonna do liquids for a few days and then ease back into high protein foods. This will do 2 things for me cleanse my pallet and help kick me off the carb craving bus I seem to be riding on and 2 get me in the zone and focused on weight loss again.
Hate something, change something...
Oct 31, 2007
Well there is no getting around it I know this entire year I have been dropping the ball and ignoring my food and water intake. This 27 pound weight gain in one years time is a huge eye opener. That and the fact I'm now sucking it in to get into my pants again. The only bonus in all of this is that it's scared the hell out of me enough to get myself back on track. It's not gonna be easy like before when I was a newbie and was afraid of food but I have to take control here and no one can fix this but me. I'm sick of only having a Before pic lol I mean where is my After? You know. I have let the let go of my balloon here and let my life get away from me. I'm starting today and now. I'm not going into 2008 being 27 pounds heavier. I just will not do it nor am I gonna going into next spring feeling miserable shopping for larger sizes. In fact I wanna throw out all of my current size summer clothes so there is no going back for me. I got up this morning drinking my protein drink and looking at the Before and After photos like I used to for inspiration. That is what this board has always been for me a source of people and their inspiring battles and success stories. I wanna be my own success story!
Sink or swim...
Oct 26, 2007
10/27/2007
I think 2007 is the year I let myself spiral out of control knowingly. I've had a lot of personal hits to my financial problems and self esteem and I let it snowball me. I also took to cooking/baking again for the first time in years. A lot of things have gone wrong and a lot of things I have let gone wrong in my life and then let myself stew and wallow in the misery. I had a Doctor's appointment yesterday with a SSI Doctor and went into shock seeing I had gained 27 lbs. I knew it was gonna be bad because simply I have had to almost surgically seal myself to get into my jeans. I was in a size 18 victory jeans and then moved into a size 20 jeans and now I'm busting outta those. I have been grazing like a mad cow disease in the kitchen. I have been drinking with meals. I have been living off of carbs and crap. I have not been doing my water intake. I have not watched or put my protein first. I have not been exercising. I have not been logging in my WLS journal. I have not seen my WLS Doctor. I have not been good with my vitamins. I am starting over today. I am not going into a size 22 jeans. I am not gonna ignore my eating anymore. I am not going to drink with my meals. I am not going to slide on my vitamin intake and wonder why I'm in another hair loss phase. I am going to do protein first. I am going to get back into my new pair of size 18 jeans in my closet. I am not going to let myself throw away all of my successes. I am going to take control of my life my eating and my actions.
I think 2007 is the year I let myself spiral out of control knowingly. I've had a lot of personal hits to my financial problems and self esteem and I let it snowball me. I also took to cooking/baking again for the first time in years. A lot of things have gone wrong and a lot of things I have let gone wrong in my life and then let myself stew and wallow in the misery. I had a Doctor's appointment yesterday with a SSI Doctor and went into shock seeing I had gained 27 lbs. I knew it was gonna be bad because simply I have had to almost surgically seal myself to get into my jeans. I was in a size 18 victory jeans and then moved into a size 20 jeans and now I'm busting outta those. I have been grazing like a mad cow disease in the kitchen. I have been drinking with meals. I have been living off of carbs and crap. I have not been doing my water intake. I have not watched or put my protein first. I have not been exercising. I have not been logging in my WLS journal. I have not seen my WLS Doctor. I have not been good with my vitamins. I am starting over today. I am not going into a size 22 jeans. I am not gonna ignore my eating anymore. I am not going to drink with my meals. I am not going to slide on my vitamin intake and wonder why I'm in another hair loss phase. I am going to do protein first. I am going to get back into my new pair of size 18 jeans in my closet. I am not going to let myself throw away all of my successes. I am going to take control of my life my eating and my actions.
Day 2 Time Out Plan...
May 31, 2007
Yesterday I really wanted to graze badly but I stuck to my guns and said "No" and just have to keep going. I did this once before after my WLS breaking up with carbs and sugar and I can do it again and I know the first 2 weeks are the hardest to get thru but get thru it I shall. I think this "Time Out" plan is a great way for me to go cold turkey and wash out a lot of bad things from my system.
Not being able to zip my jeans without sucking it in and trying to relocate all my organs has been a good wake up call for me lol in seeing how far I've slipped into old bad eating habits. I'm just glad I didn't ever start drinking pop or caffeine again after my surgery so that's one less thing to deal with. So I just got to beat back this "Carbo-monster" and "Sugar-troll" and I should be back on the yellow brick road in my routine again.
After I pay for the new tires and brake job on my car I'm getting myself a good exercise bike and then see about maybe a gym. With my walking issues and stuff walking isn't a easy way for me to exercise but I'm gonna do all that I can to kick my own bootie again.
Vitalady was also very kind to send me a recommended vitamin list so I can get caught up on those as well soon.
Face the music sister your ass is falling outta your jeans...
May 30, 2007
It seems I have gained 25 lbs from eating badly and drinking with my meals and grazing and avoiding updating my profile on this site and kinda losing site on my goals and having no accountability for myself. And you wonder on the weight gain? lol. So as of today I'm put myself on a Time Out Plan fast for the coming week as a sort of detox for myself as I try to break free from carbs and sugar and get myself back on track and refocused on all of my new goals.
I think a lot of small things added up into a giant ball of problems for me and I turned to old food eating habits. Which is not the right thing to do in going to food for comfort and not facing things head on but it is what it is and now I have to face it head on and deal with the consequences.
But I am back to looking at O.H. every morning again and thinking "Weight Loss" and I'm back to wanting to be a success and I want that feeling back of knowing I was on the right path again and I can get there.
o.O... Uga-bugga and swallow...
Jan 01, 2007
The thing is what they don't tell you about always having to drink protein drink everyday for life is that not once in the weight loss process do you wake up mix up one of these suckers and think to yourself "I love the taste of napalm in the morning"...
Water water water
Dec 27, 2006
Ahhhhhhhhh!
I'm on a water wave and I think my insides are a swimming! Getting back into the water and protein swing and I've labeled bread as the fruit of all evils lol! But I'm feeling good and getting back on track and want to lose this last 40 pounds and start thinking about a tummy tuck. I'm thinking about another hair makeover and some other little changes in my appearance. I find if I'm always working on little things I do strong in my food plan cause of the rewards of looking and feeling better about myself.
A new day of crazy and weight loss...
Dec 25, 2006
I have a gallon of water looming before me telling me today is the day I get back on track. Mom gave me this pair of jeans in a size 18 that has a elastic waist and although I cringe at their style its nice to have another set of pant options. I refuse to buy any new clothes until the ones I have start falling off of me. I'm very scared right now and I haven't talked to anyone about it with bad snacking and food choices it's like I'm hiding my food guilt or something. This year has really been a roller coaster ride of ups and downs in my personal life and I can see where I'm failing to deal with personal issues and trying to turn towards food again. I don't wanna fail and I don't wanna be that girl I used to be and it absolutely terrifies me that's where I am headed. My 2 year anniversary came and came and went and I didn't tell anyone cause I'm still not at goal.This I took really hard in ways I cannot explain even taking into consideration my starting weight and knowing I had more to lose then some other folks. So today I went back to basics and old WLS school lol and got a notebook to journal my food in and so forth so at least I'm honest with myself. I'm eating yogurt even though I hate it and just taking things one day at a time. I also wanna get the Step Up soundtrack as my new exercise music cd to get me moving. I'm making new goals today and moving forward and just not gonna settle for less then what I want and who I wanna be in this body anymore.
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