wildewoman
Foods that Work, Foods that Don't
Apr 20, 2010
I think this is a good spot to track what works & what doesn't. Hopefully I can go back and edit this! So, from my experimentation:
Crunchmaster Multi-Seed Crackers are the devil. They may have no gluten or wheat, but one of those seeds are killing me. Ingredients: brown rice flour, sesame seeds, potato starch, quinoa seeds, flax seeds, amaranth seeds...
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Crunchmaster Multi-Seed Crackers are the devil. They may have no gluten or wheat, but one of those seeds are killing me. Ingredients: brown rice flour, sesame seeds, potato starch, quinoa seeds, flax seeds, amaranth seeds...
Sometimes you just KNOW it's time...
Sep 14, 2009
This is the third time I'm trying for surgery. I've been in the Bariatric program at Kaiser since 2007, and I've had one surgery date cancelled, and a second tentative date cancelled. Both times I was within 10 pounds of goal weight. I was so frustrated, and heartbroken, and so SICK of working so hard for what I viewed as an unattainable goal.
This year I turned 37, and something just snapped with me. I can't go on living like this. And since there is no other option than to continue living, it's the "like this" part that had to change. So once again, into the breach... back on that horse... third time's the charm. I chose to LIVE, to really live. So back to Kaiser I went, but this time to a different hospital, different staff, a fresh start.
I quit smoking completely and for good this year, and that was a huge thing for me too. I knew I had to quit in order to have surgery, and I couldn't seem to stay quit for longer than a few days. To top things off, I was a closet smoker - I know, ridiculous - so every time I wanted a cigarette, and couldn't find the privacy to have one, it was SO much drama! So for the past several years, I have been "trying to quit smoking" - which gave me license to munch on sunflower seeds, or popcorn, or whatever "rewards" i thought would work to kick the habit. I kept justifying it to myself - hey, if I eat M&Ms for a week, and end up a non-smoker, then it's worth the extra weight. It will all come off with surgery anyway, right?
This "I'm quitting" speech had gone on for YEARS. My husband also smokes like crazy, and I've always rationalized that I can't quit unless he quits, and he's not quitting. Now, it may seem obvious to someone without an addiction, but it really took some soul-searching to admit to myself that I couldn't blame him for my inability to kick the habit. If he chooses to smoke, that's his choice. But that doesn't mean I have to. And suddenly, I was so sick to death of smoking - the smell, the difficulties breathing, the expense, the hiding all the time. I just did it. No fanfare. No promises, No sunflower seeds or M&Ms. I just did it. This, after 20+ years of smoking. AND? I didn't gain ANY weight! (Okay, I didn't lose any either during the "quitting month", but still!) Go me!!
So now I'm back on the pre-op diet, and after a slow start I'm seeing some weight come off. Exercise is SO much easier now that I can breathe. And quitting smoking has made me evaluate my stressors more closely now. I used to smoke when something upset me. And I used to EAT when something upset me too. Now, I don't smoke, and I am not eating for comfort. It's been rough, but I'm making it.
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This year I turned 37, and something just snapped with me. I can't go on living like this. And since there is no other option than to continue living, it's the "like this" part that had to change. So once again, into the breach... back on that horse... third time's the charm. I chose to LIVE, to really live. So back to Kaiser I went, but this time to a different hospital, different staff, a fresh start.
I quit smoking completely and for good this year, and that was a huge thing for me too. I knew I had to quit in order to have surgery, and I couldn't seem to stay quit for longer than a few days. To top things off, I was a closet smoker - I know, ridiculous - so every time I wanted a cigarette, and couldn't find the privacy to have one, it was SO much drama! So for the past several years, I have been "trying to quit smoking" - which gave me license to munch on sunflower seeds, or popcorn, or whatever "rewards" i thought would work to kick the habit. I kept justifying it to myself - hey, if I eat M&Ms for a week, and end up a non-smoker, then it's worth the extra weight. It will all come off with surgery anyway, right?
This "I'm quitting" speech had gone on for YEARS. My husband also smokes like crazy, and I've always rationalized that I can't quit unless he quits, and he's not quitting. Now, it may seem obvious to someone without an addiction, but it really took some soul-searching to admit to myself that I couldn't blame him for my inability to kick the habit. If he chooses to smoke, that's his choice. But that doesn't mean I have to. And suddenly, I was so sick to death of smoking - the smell, the difficulties breathing, the expense, the hiding all the time. I just did it. No fanfare. No promises, No sunflower seeds or M&Ms. I just did it. This, after 20+ years of smoking. AND? I didn't gain ANY weight! (Okay, I didn't lose any either during the "quitting month", but still!) Go me!!
So now I'm back on the pre-op diet, and after a slow start I'm seeing some weight come off. Exercise is SO much easier now that I can breathe. And quitting smoking has made me evaluate my stressors more closely now. I used to smoke when something upset me. And I used to EAT when something upset me too. Now, I don't smoke, and I am not eating for comfort. It's been rough, but I'm making it.
Source of Inspiration
Sep 09, 2009
SARK is a great source of inspiration to me... She is an incredible writer with a long list of amazing books. If you've never experienced SARK, I highly recommend checking out her website.
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