whittinn
Today is March , 2008
I sat on the bus today and realized that my stomach nearly touches the seat in front on me. Sometimes I wonder why I eat so much. I do have pica cravings for corn starch whichis not good. I ws looking at pics from when I ws in High School and realized i was skinny then and how i got to this point well in a way i do know and in a way i don't.
My husband was ashamed of me...when h would go out with his friends to barbeques or get together i wouldget dressed and say okay what time we have to be there, he would tell me i was not invited to find out later he tok someone else. Did it hurt hell yes, but now I need to lose wight for me. I have bradycardia(slow heartrate) which they want to pacemaker me...no way, and sleep apnea don't help either I was told my heart rate dipped in to 38 bpm while sleep.
Well it is time to get my act together now and get healthy not fo other but for me alone.
