way2witty
I was recently diagnosed “fat”. Seriously, I did not realize I was so severely obese until my annual physical in February of 2007. I have always been big-boned and have additionally been blessed with propotional weight; i.e., I carry my weight very well. When I graduated high school, I weighed 150 lbs and was in the best physical condition of my life. I wore a size 12 (which at the time was still in the “regular size” clothing section. I flucutated to a 14 for a few years, yet still looked and felt good. My wedding dress was a perfect size 14. Then I had my first child. I gained 45 lbs…however, I lost the weight rather effortlessly and was happy with my size 16/18. Then I had the 2nd baby…gained a lot more weight…and yet, still a size 18 fit just fine. Now 4 years later, I can squeeze myself into an 18, a 20 is more comfortable though. I unfortunately did not lose any weight on the "divorce diet", if anything, I gained 10 lbs...then I met my soulmate, and gained another 10 lbs. UGH!
I literally feel like I look pretty okay; it’s only when I happen to see myself in a picture or in the mirror that I am shocked at the person I see. That being said, I was recently married to a wonderful man. My confidence is still high for a morbidly obese person. What really sucks is that my heartrate skyrockets with the simple act of walking up my stairs. I am short of breath, diagnosed with mild sleep apnea, have gastric reflux from hell, and borderline high blood pressure. My motiviation for this surgery is 90% health and 10% cosmetic. I feel mentally and physically ready for this life changing tool.
I have an awesome support group which includes my coworkers, best friend of 30 years, mom and most of all my husband.
I am truly ready to be re-diagnosed!
