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Well I am three days out from the hospital.  My first night I was struggling with nausea.  I did not have so much of pain just the feeling to gag.  Which I kinda did a few times.  Once I was awake after surgery that is when I realize that 'WOW I JUST DID MAJOR SURGERY' .  I had a Foley bag, had the leg thing to prevent clots. I literally had a nurse sit next to me and just stared at me and my monitor.  The beginning experience was kind of freaky. The day of discharge still feeling nausea but just want to go home to my own bed and see my family.  And once I did that I felt much better. I took my time to swallow.  It is still a bit uncomfortable but manageable. I make sure I take my multi vit  and calcium cuz baby I'm afraid to lose my hair. lololol.
Anyway whats making me feel lost is that I was not hungry or had any temptation but I felt bored like,  lost.  Like what do I do now? At the same time this is a scary feeling I am hoping I don't develop another addiction because I heard that is what happens sometime. anyway just taking one day at a time so I don't feel lost.

Today April 26, 2012 and I am so scared. Everyday it get closer to my surgery (4/30) my mind starts to race.  I wonder if I can manage my new lifesttyle. Will I come out alive.  This is a big deal to me. I want this so much but I dont want to have any regret.  My family supports me but they dont think that I am strong enough because food is my addiction along with other stuff which I have gotten rid of the other stuff for a year now.

The past year I went through a lot of changes and all for the best and with my wls on 4/30 this would be another new change for the best.  Here is to NEW BEGINNINGS!!!!!!!