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So my weight is staying stable. I struggle to make choices that are best for me. I find that as time goes on it is easy to slide into patterns of eating that are not helping me stay on track to being healthy.
Taking the time to slowly eat the good foods that builds me up, takes planning and thought. Mindless munching is Mindless and not beneficial. I am working on having more healthy choices in reach and keeping less foods around that not smart choices.  I am working on  a list of comfort foods that work to help me keep on track but can be eaten when I am on the run or just in a mood. 
Planning is the key to keeping my health on track. 

I have been at this weight for a while and will be OK if I stay here. I want to firm up and get in better over all shape but weight is not an issue this year. I am going to focus on making the life I want to live and having fun. I want to enjoy everyday that I can. I will live with little regret and not judge myself so much.

I have found that I am fighting myself less and staying at a stable weight. Not quite where I wwant but so much beter than where I was. The less I try to do it the better I do. When I focus too much on food I get in a hyper eating pattern.  I don't weigh and measure food I just try to eat only if I am hungery and keep a few healthier comfort foods on hand like berries.
I am an eemotional eatr and eating only when I am hungery is very hard to do. I want to eat when the car breaks down, when my kids call for money, and when work is stressful. I have to work hard to stick to this rule and don't al the time.
I try not to think about food and what I will eat. If they don't have food I am comfortable with I can just wait. I really need so little food compared to what I have always thought I needed.

I can hardly believe it has been two years. I feel great and am more active then I could have been before.
The learning curve has been steep and this past year the biggest challenge. I am amazed that I have come this far. I am so happy that I have been able to more forward iwth my life and no longer am stuck in patterns of eating that kept me struggling to move and breath.
I am blessed with hte best hubby who has supported me through emotional storms.  He has never judged me and has always loved me so I am blessed to have this man in my life. This has been an emotional journey. No longer hiding emotions behind food I have lashed out more than ever.
I feel more whole and in touch with myself. Letting myself have premission to be mad or hurt or scared has been a hard thing. I have more work to do. Yet I feel confident I can succeed now.

I am staying in the low one sixties and would like to be lower but with my life I find that time is really crunched rihgt now. I have WII sports and work out with that when I have time. I could be lighter but I really need to just be willing to love how I am.
If this is where I stay it is sooo much better then where I was. I know I must keep one eye on my weight but I am working on not letting eating dominate my life any more. If i skip a meal it is no big deal. If I snack too much I just try to have healthy choices on hand.. I will only make myself self destruct by fretting about food.
food is not the number one thing in my life and I need to let it go.

I am doing better weight is going down and I feel like I finally have a handle on how to eat. I am getting back to the gym.
Doing a combined count weight watcher points and count protiens. Really most high proten foods are not high in points. it is all the  extras. Once I took to writing it down It was easier for me to really accept what I was doing. To see the numbers show me I dont have to gain. I can eat what I like and still keep my size 10's

I am finding I don't get a full filling now. I can eat more than I have for the past year and a half and not fill full even on meats. I thought the pouch would keep me from over eating by getting full and now this is not happening. I am working on weight watchers to plan meals and levels but I had hoped I was done with all the counting. What ever it takes to keep the weight off is worth it.

I am on hormones for menopause and the weight started adding up in just a few weeks. I can see I am stress pattern eating. I know I need to cut it out. My "friend" at work keeps giving me sweets. She can see I am stressed out so she is trying to help. I ahve told her it is not helpful but she really is hurting my progress. If there are goodies in the office I pass up she will put some on my desk. she brought me chocolate today. Good stuff.
I don't know how to say no in a good way. I guess I can throw it all away as soon as she walks away but once it is in my hand it seems to be in my mouth. My size 12 are fitting better all the time. I will not beat myself up over this but I must come up with a strategy to get her to help me instead of hurt my efforts.

I am putting myself back on track I have lost 4 pounds and am eating more real meals now. I feel better and am not sor stressed. I have decided that I will be in the 140's by the end of the year. Not a big goal but it should be easy to reach. I have been sitting at 156 for nearly a year now. I need to move on.
My goal is so close I can see it and yet I have not move that direction in a long time. I have been focused on life not my health. I am making some careful adjustments and getting back to the gym. I am going to start putting up money for plastic surgery. I know I will want a tummy tuck at the very least. No matter what I weigh I have this pouch that just won't go away.

I think I am trying to make myself crazy. I am too old to deal with school.
I started Grad school in April. The past couple classes have been really hard. I get stressed but I can't just eat through the stress. I end up snapping at people and then feel bad.  Then I can't  focus and get the work  done.

Last night I was at my wits end with a test and I just decided not to worry about it. I turned on the TV to a favorite show and worked on the test while we watched it and guess what I did better.

I just had myself so up tight I could not focus. I am working on finding some good relaxation techniques to use to de compress before test now so I will not block myself from doing well.

This a slow process of developing a good tool kit of ways to deal with life in a good way. It getts better each day.