TracyDK

Send Message

Block

Add Friend

I've been using my fitday blog more than here. Like I'd said before, I'm here for my friend holygrl.

So anyways, I was placed on a diabetic based diet, and so far in one month, I've lost 19lbs. :D whoohoo go me! :D This makes me so happy. :D I was hoping to make 20, but oh well. :P I can't get too upset over the 19. It's 19 less than I had when I started this thing. :D

Anyways, I thought I'd update this a tiny bit. :D

I'm still catching up on my bridge work. *LOL* I think I'm all caught up now.

Subtotal  = 6
1/28/07   = 1
1/29/07   = 1
                 + 1
Total        = 9

Ok, so I did one extra. :D S'all good. :) That girl has me doing all sorts of crazy stuff! *LOL* Love her to bits I do! :D Time to fix breakfast. I really need to start eating earlier so I can have lunch around this time. Retraining myself, ugh. *L*

I figured out why people dread "working out". Think about it. When we were kids, exercise was called "Playing". When we are adults it's called "work", who in their RIGHT mind LOVES to work? I don't. :D So I'm going to call mine frolicking. :D

So far I've walked another three miles today, to try to catch up to where I'm supposed to be. Still not caught up completely but almost there. :D

Subtotal  = 3
01/25/07 = 1
01/26/07 = 1
01/27/07 = 1
01/28/07 = 0
Total        = 6

I haven't eaten yet today, I woke up pretty late. Which is upsetting. But I need to get my cereal and my protein shake in. ugh. *LOL*

Ok, so I didn't find out that she was doing this until the day after it was supposed to start. She really should put more in her blog here for those that don't get to see her videos. Anyways! I have been sick and just haven't felt like moving, let alone walking. Well, I went to the doctor yesterday and I'm feeling a bit better today so I have some make up miles to work on. So today I walked 3 miles. So I'll put it in here until I catch up....

1/22/07 = 1
1/23/07 = 1
1/24/07 = 1
1/25/07 =
1/26/07 =
1/27/07 =
Total      = 3

Ok, so I'm still 3 days behind, but I'm catching up. Leslie Sansone will do that for you. :D This morning I had a bowl of Kashi mini wheats and skim milk. I'm about to get me an apple. Then it'll be time for the protein shake. Today I think I'm going to buy one of those lean dinners or something. They have fruit there for us to eat, so I will snack on that stuffs. I wish would would provide us with fruit alternatives all the time.

So far the eating is going better. I've been working on re-arranging the house as well as clearing out some furniture so I can work out more in the living room. I've been making sure to get my veggies in as well as cut down on my carbohydrates. Though I don't think I've lost weight, I can tell I don't feel as "puffy".  I've been keeping in better contact with Reba. :D And this has me happier. She's talked about this cake and adding some sort of body builder protein. Which because of my hair loss and trying to make all that better, I've been drinking a chocolate whey protein shake every day. Which to anyone that knows me, KNOWS I HATE chocolate milk, but so far that's the only tolerable way. So if I can do things like add it to cakes and such it'll be wonderful. :D Maybe this year I'll make my own birthday cake. :D I will just need to figure out how to make it chocolate. *LOL* Because I loves me some chocolate. :D I can tell a difference in my hair though with the extra protein. You know, God has really sent some blessings my way, and it's so easy to overlook them for whatever is rushing about in my life. And the fact that he sent Reba into my life when I needed her and the fact that though we are SO very different from one another, we're still very bonded with one another. :) I wish more people in life were more like her. This planet would be a very sweet place indeed. Ok, so about the weight loss deal. Reba has this walk a mile a day to bridge the gap to wellness. She's going to be bringing me a copy of her ledger and I'll make a copy for my girlfriend Mel. And we'll be doing it with her. :D This is a lot of preparation, however, this has to last and so I cannot just bulldoze my way into it. :D

So, what are my statistics now and what are my goals. I don't have any measurements, which I'll do tonight when I get home, I'll either make a new blog or I'll edit them in, whichever I can do. Currently or as of yesterday morning I weighed in at an overwhelming 285lbs. This makes me weep. I'm actually posting this public. OMG. I'm going to die. I want to ultimately lose 100lbs at least. But I'm not going to focus on that. I want to lose 20lbs by Valentine's Day, 50lbs by my birthday and 80lbs by Halloween and 100lbs by next Christmas. I'm truly going to need all the help and support I can get. This is going to be so hard for me. I know my boyfriend will support me. My roommate will, but he's weak willed when it comes to food too. My Mom I know will, and of course my friend on here will. I know she'll help me and pray with me and for me. :) Now I just want to be healthier. I don't have a size anything like that. 185lbs still has me technically obese, but I'm not going to be extremely obese and anything over that is just "cake", not the meal. This is truly scary to me, putting it all out there like this. Eghads! So this is the breakdown.

Current weight:  285lbs as of Mon. 12/18/06

Goal Weight: 265lbs by 02/14/07
Goal Weight: 235lbs by 06/18/07
Goal Weight: 205lbs by 10/31/07
Goal Weight: 185lbs by 12/25/07

That's 53 weeks to lose 100lbs. That breaks down into almost 2lbs/week. That's actually concidered a healthy weight loss. By the healthy scale of losing 2lbs/week, I will be 179lbs by next Christmas. But I doubt I'll have lost that much. I'm not going to kill myself if I don't meet each goal. I'll be happy if I maintain a certain weight loss. I wonder why I fall off the wagon so much? I wonder what it is about my brain that doesn't allow me to complete it. Once I figure that out, I'll be able to obliterate this problem from here on out. I do need to see food for what it is. Fuel. I need it to run efficiently. Also, I need to exercise and stretch. I need to improve my flexibility as well as my strength. I'm getting older and my bones aren't getting any better. Especially since I avoid most dairy. I also need to up my healthy protein intake without resorting to soy. Soy is bad news for me. So whey, nuts, legumes, etc.

Holy cow this is getting to be super long. I am going to end this now and do another one when I get off from work later.

*sigh* I cannot believe I'm putting this out there for everyone to see. Man I feel so naked. So I've been overweight my entire life. I was always a "husky" girl and I grew into an overweight adult. My mom has always been overweight. My stepdad always struggled with his weight, so a good chunk of this is environmental, upbringing and such.  Poor eating habits from way early in life. Not ever been pushed to exercise and keep active. Add to that PCOS which started out when I hit puberty, but went undiagnosed until I was 30. And we have a bad situation here. So last night.....I was cleaning my rabbits cage and I bent over the tub and heard my pants rip. It seems my pockets and my belly are conflicting forces and my pants gave way where my back pocket was sewn in. I was so embarrassed, though I was sitting in my own home. My roomie R was home, and he sympathized with me. And he understood and we made a pact to keep each other on track. I made a commitment to myself last night that I would treat myself better and eat more healthy and exercise more. This has to come off, and unfortunately, it has to be the old fashioned HARD way. Which is made harder by the insulin resistance, because it wants to PACK on more fat in my mid-section. But I will prevail. I have to. I am going to die if I don't. That's the evitable outcome. Well, THAT'S inevitable anyways, but it'll be a whole mess sooner if I don't take better care of myself. Oh well, this is my first blog entry. I'll get better at this as I go along I'm sure.