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well its been quite a while since i have posted anything, but lets see a run down on what lifes been like for me in my new self. Been pretty busy actually, semi more active of a dating life and life in general. I have my ups and downs like anyone else, sometimes i get scared when i look in the mirror and see the old me rather than the new me. Currently i weigh 212 lbs, and from 445 i suppose i am pretty darn proud of that, i can safely say i havent weighed this since the 8th grade, and I am 33 years old, how weird is that, to be a weight i havent been in 20 years, crazy i tell ya. I actively go to curves and I love the show the biggest loser and plan to have my last 25lbs gone by the time this season ends (it starts tonight, cant wait!!) i always get on my eliptical while i watch the show, makes me feel more connected to it..hahaha, i cant sit here and lie and say i am on a strictly healthy diet, however when i grocery shop for me, its all chicken and vegetables and healthy things, but i do have a tendency to over indulge semi often..haha but somehow i lost about 4 lbs over the holidays, dont ask me how that happened cuz i have no idea, but i wasnt going to look a gift horse in the mouth. I am not someone who can only eat 2 bites and i am full by any means, i can eat a pretty normal healthy sized portion of food so now it feels more like me losing the weight rather than the surgery and i havent figured out if that is a good thing or a bad thing, i still have to battle the same demons and try my hardest to make the right decisions at least 90% of the time. I get on the scale everyday which i know i shouldnt do but i figure its a good habit to be in cuz then 10 lbs cant just sneak up on you, i can deal with it all on a pound to pound basis, and so far i havent gained anything so thats good. I am only trying to reach about 185-190 then it will just be the game of maintenance for me, due to all the excess skin i have i dont want to get much smaller than that only cuz if the wonderful day that i could have skin removed ever did come (which is highly unlikely) believe me i have a good 40 lbs of it, so then i would be right where i wanted to be, but i would still rather have hanging gross skin, than it to be expanded by fat. Well i hope everyone had a wonderful new year, and i wish you all the best!!! if i acheive my goal of the 25lbs, better believe i will be blogging back!!

Well here it is, one whole year later and i have gone from weighing 445 to now weighing 229, that is somewhat surreal to me for sure. Things have been going pretty good i suppose, i have gone on a date here and there, and have a couple guys that i frequent around with so thats been kinda nice, went to great america and got on every ride with no problems whatsoever, that was a great day. just being able to go to any restaurant and fit in any booth, basically just being able to fit anywhere is the most wonderful feeling in the world for sure, the movies is my favorite place to be comfortable. I should really blog more often i just dont think about it all the time, you know since i am just soooo busy now..hahahaha, Well its been a good year, and much progress has been made, i am pretty proud of myself and what i have accomplished, and i will keep this blog updated with any new happenings.

Well here I am again a few months later and a few lbs lighter, not many but i guess i cant expect to keep rapidly losing weight. so now i am down to 256 and stableized, kinda stinks but oh well i have been trapped at this weight for what feels like forever when technically its just been weeks. its ok though, life is sooo much easier now so the weight loss can take its time as long as i stay healthy. I havent had to many wow moments except the normal ones, like being able to easily adjust the seat in my car, wearing a size 18 is pretty fun also, but other than that not to much to speak of. So i just thought i would post my thoughts and i will get back if i ever lose weight again..hahahaha, bye for now!!

Well here i am again, with yet more good news!! so i can finally say that i went from the mid 4's to the 3's to the 2's in a mere 5 months. Pretty proud of myself i must say, given myself a few pats on the back for sure. Still feeling great and so much healthier, working out, moving around, things that were completely foreign to me 5 months ago, back then i was wishing for the cold so that i could not be hot anymore given that i had to wear a sweatsuit all summer since nothing in stores fit me, now that its winter i am pushing for the spring so can get out and enjoy the day.  So at the start of this I was beyond a size 32, those jean in the pic are a 32 and like i said didnt wear them for a while cuz they were way to small for me, weighing 445 lbs, and now here i am only 5 months later weighing 299 lbs and a sz 22. Never thought being a sz 22 could be so joyous but it can be believe me, and never thought i would ever be so happy to see a 2 at the beginning of my weight, i dont think i have been in the 2's in about 8 years or so i think, seems like forever ago, but now here i am still going strong, hoping that all of you are being just as strong and being just as successful as i have been, Well i will be back in another 30 lbs or so, keep an eye out!!

Well here i am in the year 2008 weighing 117 lbs less than i did in the year 2007, so am i patting myself on the back, sure i am... haha, I still have a long road ahead of me but i am hoping that by the end of this year i will be saying that i cant believe i started off this year weighing 328 lbs. I mean here i am feeling good about myself when people who weigh like 100 lbs less than me have the surgery, that is just bizarre but thats my opinion, but that is all irrelavent i guess, to each his own, i am just glad to be where i am, having the people behind me that i have, my family, my friends,  and just feeling better by the day. So i am officially down 5 full sizes since the start of all this so that is pretty fun. My new years resolutions this year are of course to stay on track and get the rest of the weight off that i need to, to try and save some $$, to exercise more than i already do, and of course to follow through on my resolutions..haha, so on new years eve i did have a few drinks and some chicken wings and spinach dip, and i am not going to let myself feel guilty about it either, i deserved it, i am back on the wagon as of yesterday and all will be well, So hopefully this will year life will be looking up for me, and hey who knows maybe i will even have a date next new years eve, but i wont push my luck..haha  Happy New Year!!!!!

Merry Christmas everyone!! I hope everyone is staying strong foodwise around the holidays. Hasnt been the easiest but i do believe this holiday season i have lost 5 lbs. So far this holiday season i have tried to only eat the good things, well good as far as health goes anyways. I have eaten alot of shrimp cocktail, and cheese and crackers. I did have some ham, but didnt feel to guilty about that, and have had a holiday cocktail or 2. , hey we all gotta have something to get us through right? I stick with vodka due to the no fat or sugar, so it works, and hey i have lost 115 lbs so far, so i think i am due for a little celebration, with another 140 lbs to go i am feeling much better about only have 140 to lose rather than 255, i would say i have come pretty far, and i am still feeling great, full of energy and much more full of life. On my way right now to another xmas gathering just thought i would wish everyone a merry xmas and losing new year..

So hi everyone, here it is a mere 10 weeks later down 98lbs and feeling great. My diet is very strict though, i just recently switched it up, now i am finally eating salads and spinach and lots of lemons in my water, i think its working better, but i just stick with turkey burgers and salads and protein and lots of sweatin to the oldies. Sometimes i feel as though  they didnt really give me the surgery cuz i havent really had any adverse reactions to anything, granted i havent tempted fate really at all, no sweets, no grease, no goods, no dumping, haha, well i guess i should be happy that everything is going so well, but i cant lie and say that i am not sitting here sometimes waiting for the ball to drop. I am actually going to my work xmas party tomorrow and i am very excited and even bought some new clothes to wear there. I have to admit i have had a couple of alcoholic beverages but nothing bad has happened and there is yet another place i wont push things. Well just wanted to share my current thoughts and after i finally reach the 100 mark i will post a new picture, talk to everyone soon.

Well here i am 8 weeks and a couple days out and just found out i have lost 85lbs so far... wow! So here i am on Thanksgiving and I have alot to be thankful for. I am thankful for my wonderful sister, who put the idea in my head to even consider surgery and for all her help getting to that point, and for all her help since,  my mother who is just always there and has helped me so much to take of me when i couldnt and shop for me, and exercise with me, and to my very special father who has helped me out in so many ways before and after my surgery, taking care of my house and helping me out financially and has just been there for anything i needed, and everyone else in my life that has just helped me out and been there for me, and most of all i have to thank god for getting me through everything with flying colors and the strength to succeed at this whole thing. I hope all of you out there are just as lucky as i have been and that everything is going just as great!! 85LBS!!!!  WOOHOO!!!!!!! Take care everyone and Happy Thanksgiving!!!!

So here i am 7 weeks out of surgery, still feeling great, keeping all my food down, not really been to adventageous when it comes to what i eat, i figure i will lose the weight first then spice up my eating life. so i am on my 3rd week back at work and how wonderful it is. I can actually dress in nice clothes again, and real work shoes now that my feet arent water balloons. All the support i have received and am still receiving is really what keeps me going. My friends, my wonderful family and just everyone has been great. (dont get me wrong i have come across a hater or two..haha) but basically i know that i am a lucky lucky girl as far as having my own personal support group. I have pretty much been sticking to the same eating regimen, ground turkey for a meat, although i did have salmon for the first time tonight and it was great, but i am way to scared to ever cook fish for myself. but i love cabbage and green beans and i did make some awesome turkey pineapple chili it was really good. Well take care everyone, and i will talk to you all soon, when i lose another 13lbs another pic will be posted.Talk soon!!   be strong and keep on movin along!!

Well, almost 5 weeks out now, and already going back to work on monday. Pretty exciting actually, I am so ready to be back in the land of the working. Well i am also amongst the few of us who actually likes what they do and the people they work with. Its nice that i was able to buy some new clothes to go back to work in, i no longer have to wear jeans and a tshirt, which by the way are forbidden where i work but nothing else fit me so now i have real work clothes so that will be nice, nothing makes you feel better about yourself than looking nice thats for sure. So I eat semi solid foods at this point, still basically soft foods, but i eat lunchmeat now, and i no longer ground up my turkey i actually make it into a patty now and have a breadless cheese burger and its fabulous. i eat alot of tuna, and carrots, been keeping up with the protein and vitamins and all seems to be going real well. At this point I am now down 70 lbs, seems weird that in 7 weeks i have lost 70 lbs but i started off with ALOT of extra weight so maybe its justified by that. Well take care everyone, talk soon!!