Tracey T.
Wow.. where to start.. Well I am a 37 years old and married to a wonderful husband for 15 years and together for 20 years. We have two beautiful kids, 14 and 11. When I first met my husband in high school, I was a size 9/10.about a 160 pounds and I thought I looked good.. chubby thighs.. but still looked pretty good..... I felt great and looked great.. then after high school we led a sedentery life with babysitting all the time and never really doing much. I slowly gained alot of weight and ballooned to size 18/20 for our wedding.. I could not believe it... While I was pregnant it was great... no complications.. but people did not notice that I was pregnant until I was like 7 months or so along... that part sucked. I have tried a multitude of diets with slowing losing weight but never more than 40 pounds.
I am mostly embarrassed about my weight because of my family... I am the baby in the family and I have always joked about being the baby in the family and getting all the hand-me-downs.. as in clothes.. and now all the weight!!! My sisters are very tiny (maybe size 0 and 4) They are small bone also.. not me... I am big boned... so I keep asking myself the question... why me!!!!! All of my nieces are sooo tiny also.. again.. noone bigger than a size 4!!!!!! I am 6x bigger than everyone in my family!!!!!! They have tried to help as much as possible, but they really do not understand what it feels like to be the Pink Elephant in the room... That is how I feel when I go to get-togethers..I am the fatest person in the room.. you should feel comfortable with your family but not me! I have heard from certain people in my family that they are embarrassed of me
Yes I said it, 309 pounds and I am a size 24... I need to own that number... as this number will be in the past....I have joined a gym with a really good friend of mine, Tina, and we have been trying to go 3x/week. I met with my personel trainer on Thursday and he was nice, surprisingly very understanding and is willing to help out. He gave me some good exercise ideas to do at home and there in the gym.
I am doing this surgery for ME!!!!! I want my life back, I want to be able to go on hikes with my son, do a dance class with my daughter!!, go on a nice cruise with my husband... I am also doing this surgery for my daughter's sake also... she is 11 and she knows how much my weight bothers me and how easy it is to put it on... I need to show her that there is more to life than FOOD!! My husband has been my backbone.. he tells me that he loves me for me and not for my size... Which is awesome...but he is 100% behind me on this decision.
