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It was a long time since I last wrote here.

 

I guess I am just living my life. I have adjusted to a life with the DS, most of the time I don't really think about it.

My lab values are mostly good, with the exception of the calcium levels where I am way low. But I have increased the dose I am taking and the levels are slowly going up.

 

I am so happy that my skin has adjusted to my new weight better then I thought possible. So dressed noone can see that I have lost a lot of weight, eventhough I haven't had any plastic surgery at all. People never believe me when I say that I used to weigh 440 lbs. I Always have to show them photos.

I don't Think I will ever be that Active again in any WLS-forums, I am to busy to just live Life... 

It's been 19 months since I got the first surgery a sleeve, and now it's been 7 months since step 2 the DS. And I have currently lost almost 225 lbs, more than half my SW.

I have gone from a size 30 to a size 16. And I feel great.  I have no signs that my weight loss is slowing down yet, so I hope that I will have reached my GW 159  in time for my 37th birthday in July.  I have already told my fiance what I want for my birthday present, I want him to take me to our local amusement park and give me a ticket that last all day, so I can go on all the rides over and over again.  The last 12 years I haven't been able to fit in them, but now I am sure I can!  So I have some catching up to do...  

I have followed my NUTs recommendation and keep eat a varied diet, consisting of much protein, medium carbs and then veggies.  And I try to keep to a rather low fat diet just the opposite that is recommended in the US. I don't do any bullets or proteinpowders,  and my doctor checked me up about 14 days ago to make sure I have eaten enough protein and the testresult was very good. 

Over all, all my lab values are really good and I notice that I no longer suffer from mood swings....

I love my new life and my new stomach...   
 

Now I am going to have surgery number 2. My sleeve is becoming a DS.

I got a phone call from the nurse at my hospital on tuesday informing me that I am scheduled for surgery on June 1st. The day before my 1 year aniversary as sleeved.

I was somewhat shocked by the news. Not that I haven't always known that I was supposed to get a second surgery, but I thought I wouldn't get it until after the summer. But my surgeon think it is really important that I get the DS before the 1 year aniversary as sleeved. I don't know why, but I trust him.

Now when a few days have passed I have started to calm down. I know I have to do a lot of research on the DS. I should have started this earlier, but time has a tendancy to fly.

6 weeks have past since my surgery. It's been both good and bad. I have a huge problem with the fact that I forget to drink. I drink way to little...

I struggle with eating habits. I am proud to say that I have eaten breakfast every single day the last week. That I haven't done since I moved out from my mom, 15 years ago.  I eat lunch and dinner everyday, but it's the snacks that are a problem.

I sometimes skip them, sometimes forget them, and sometimes chose to eat something totally wrong at snack time.

Tomorrow I have an apointment with my surgeon. It's time for my check-up after surgery. I wonder what he will say. I have lost 24,7 lbs since surgery. I wonder if he will be satisfied with that loss or if he expects more from me.

 

Last monday I finally got my sleeve.

And now I am a week out, and doing great. I have no problem with eating/drinking. And tomorrow I will start on the mushie-phase.

I am losing weight, this week I have lost 9,5 lbs. I can hardly believe it. But I am happy. Really happy.

Totally I have lost 35 lbs since I was at the peak of my weight chart.

 

 

 

 

Today will be my third day of walking. I haven't decided where we are going for our walk. I wish we had lived in a neighbourhood that felt inviting for a walk, but we don't at least not from my point of view.

But since my fiance first have a class to attend to, he is getting a small education about insurances by the union. And then he has a political meeting to go to, well it will be rather late before he gets home and we get a chance to take our walk. So I guess we just go down to Kviberg, an old military facility (the cavalleri) and take our walk there. Nowadays it's filled with soccer fields. There will be tons of kids in July during the Gothia cup, but now there is rather quiet.

We will just take a short walk today, my legs is rather sore from yesterdays 2 mile walk. But for me it's just the idea of starting to do something active everyday that is the most important. I want to get in the best shape I can before surgery.

Just one week to go before WLS, and I am on my pre-op-diet. It's is very simple I get to drink 4 tetras of VLCD-shakes. And then I should drink as much water, or SF sodas or SF still drinks that I can.

I have been doing this for almost 2 weeks now and I have really bad food cravings. I can almost feel how it would be to let my teeth sink into a hamburger or a pizza. I don't give in, I have stayed on my dietplan strictly. But it is hard... especially when my fiance makes himself dinner, everything smells so good. Even food I normally don't like that much. Well he must eat of course, but it is hard.

The positive thing about my food cravings is that they are just food cravings, I haven't got a single craving for candy, chocolate, cookies or ice cream which normally is my problem.

To keep up my spirit I have put my scale in the closet. I couldn't leave it alone, and I just got discouraged when the weight isn't dropping off fast enough. So now I will wait until Sunday June 1st, the day before my WLS and check how I have done then. 

Today I have prepared for post-op. Me and my fiance have been cooking all day. We made 3 different kinds of soup (Tacosoup, Fish- and shellfishsoup and Quorn-currysoup) , all made out of one veggiesoup. Now my freezer is filled with post-op-soup and some food for the mushie phase. I like the feeling of knowing what I am eating, especially since I am sensitive to lactose.

Well we cooked so much soup that my fiance also got 7 lunchboxes full and a bowl of soup for dinner. He actually called me tonight from work asking why we never had made Tacosoup before. He loved it.

And the part that I am most proud of is I didn't taste anything at all. I have kept strictly to my dietplan.

 

So similiar and yet so different. I came to this site because VSG is still not a very common method in Sweden. Eventhough more and more are getting it.

I will just live with VSG for about 6 months to a year, then I will go thrugh another surgery and get either a Gastric bypass or a Duodenal Switch. My surgeon has chosen to do it in 2 steps because of my BMI. It's safer.

Well even if I am just living with this method for a short period I still wanted to know more about it. So someone told me to go here and I did.

And so much is similar to the Swedish communitys for WLS and so much is so different. 

I mean I never heard of anyone in Sweden getting restrictions from their NUT when it comes to carbs. My foodplan told me that I am supposed to eat mashed potatoes twice every single day during the mushie phase. And when I start to eat normal food I am just supposed to eat what we call 1-1-1   ½ decilitre potatoes/rice or pasta, ½ decilitre meat or fish, and ½ decilitre vegetables.  And on top of that a small serving of lowfat-sauce.

And then there is one thing that is soooo different and that is all the talk of insurance. I am not used to it, because we have public health care.  I know that the questions of insurance are really important in US. I guess I just can't even imagine living in that situation.   

My anxiety level is high right now. I have been eating VLCD for a week as I said in my last post. But the last 2 days nothing happens. I haven't lost any weight at not even a tenth of 1 lb.

I know it's great that I lost 15 lbs i 5 days but now when the weight loss has stopped I am worried, what if I don't lose any more then this. What if I don't meet my surgeons demand. He demands that I lose at least 10 kg which is approx 22 lbs before surgery by this VLCD-diet.  I have two weeks of VLCD left but I am worried...

 Worst is that it feels like noone takes my worry seriously.