Mrs. Vice Versa
10/11/2005.....I have always been a heavy person. It never really hindered me nor did I ever really feel bad about it until I became an adult. I began to feel the effects of carrying so much weight for so many years. I was always an outgoing person who felt comfortable in my own skin...as a matter of fact I was border-line vain. Slowly all my confidence and "vainess" began to disappear. i began to isolate myself and stay in the house...my friends and family didn't understand it....but chalked it up as Tira being Tira. I tried many diets..fads..exercise progams...you name it I tried it. I was actually one of those people who was 100% against WLS. I always said that I would NEVER do it...(never say never!). There were three factors that made me decide to finally have this surgery...first one was when I went to my PCP for a routine check up and he told me I was 277lbs...and classified me as being MORBIDLY OBESE! My first reaction was 277!..that's more than I weighed when I was in my 9th month with my daughter...WHAT THE HELL! The next reaction was to kick him because I just knew he didn't just call ME morbid!!!!!!(the vainess kicked back in). The second deciding was when I had my sleep study done and was diagnosed with SEVERE sleep apnea. I was told that I stopped breathing 120 times in an hour....120x's.....That literally scared the shit out of me. All I could think of was me dying and leaving my 4 yr old daughter and my brand new husband...(I have been married for a year...Sept. 25,2005). And that brings me to my third deciding factor...I am 28 yrs old...a mother and brand new wife...I have wayyyyy too much life to live to let food win! OH HELL NO!
So I began my journey...I had a girlfriend who's husband was in the process of having the surgery. He recommened Dr Abkin to me and on June 23,2005 I went to his seminar. I was impressed as soon as I heard him speak. That same day I made my nutrionist appt...my psych appt and my appt to see Dr Abkin... They were all on the 30th of June and on the date he gave me my surgery date of Aug. 22,2005. I was approved by United Healthcare first try...THANK GOD!
Fast-forward to Aug.22...I was scared shitless...my husband was quiet as a mouse...my daughter didn't understand..she just knew mommy was going to be in the hospital....my mother was SOOOO supportive. My surgery was scheduled for 1 that afternoon and I had to be there 2 hrs before...once I went to get prepped it felt like everything was moving in slow motion...all I kept saying was that I wanted my mother...so they brought her to me...then I went on to cry for my husband. Once they calmed me down i don't remember anything else except waking up and seeing my father standing there. The first words out of my mouth was..Daddy the pressure...all I felt was pressure. I spent my 2 days in the hospital and made 2 very good friends in the hospital who both had just had the surgery...I call them my surgery buddies....lol. They mademy time in the hospital so much easier...we walked the halls together..and helped each other through those first two days. Thank God for them. Once I got home the first week was the worst. i was in pain...couldn't sleep...was hungry as all hell..and just mad at myself for making this decision. by that next Monday i was MUCH better. Each day is a struggle....each day I learn something new...but with each day I know that this was the best decision for me. I have an addiction to food...but I am now controlling it thank to my new tool.
12/08/05
Haven't been on here awhile. I've made major changes in my life in the past couple of months. I've not only moved I've also changed jobs! Yayyyyyyyyyy! I have been enjoying my weight loss and it's amazing to see how fast it is coming off. It's funny...when people see me that have not seen me in the last couple of months; the reacton is beautiful. I am sooo happy that I have part of my life back. I did experience a personal tragedy recently though, i have a friend that had the surgery on Oct 17 and unfortunatly 2 weeks later she died of a blood clot to the lungs. (R.I.P Cullette). Since then i have been on a personal crusade that every pound I lose is not only for me...it's for her also. She is my personal angel and I know that she is continuing to watch over me. On a happier note...MY HUSBAND IS LOVING THE NEW ME!!!!! LOL I can not keep the man off of me. He says that it feels like he has a different woman every week...so needless to see we have fallen in love all over adain. Well I just wanted to update my profile ad let eveyone know what has been going on in my world. HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND HAPPY LOSING!
08/22/2006.......Transformation
For years
I remained
Hidden from view
Afraid to show myself
or my true colors.
Cloaked
Concealed
I endured.
Waiting for the spring
with the sunlight
the signal to emerge.
Slowly
Cautiously
I begin to unfold my wings,
finding the courage
discovering my strength.
In awe
I marvel at the array
Deepest sapphire blue
Renewing amethyst violet
Tranquil aquamarine
Iridescent blushing rose
Sparkling
Radiant
I take flight.
Kirsti A. Dyer, MD, MS
One year ago today I prayed harder than I ever have prayed in my life.
One year ago today I stepped out on faith and gave it all up to God
One year ago today I buried the person that kept me from who I always knew I was on the inside.
One year ago today I was more vulnerable and humble than I have ever been.
One year ago today I made the final decision to love me.
By the Grace of God and the love of my family I HAVE MADE IT!!!!!!
I have never been so happy with myself EVER!! This journey that I am on I never planned for myself. I was one of those people that didn't believe that Gastric Bypass was the answer. God had other plans for me. This surgery I truly believe has saved my life.
Thank you BAF for being the family of strangers that can relate when no one else understands. I love you guys just for understanding. 
pre surgery....277
2 week post-op visit....256
1 month post-op....241
3 month post -op....218
4 month post-op....207
5 month post-op....199
5 1/2 month post -op....194
8 months post-op...180
11 months post -op.....174
14 months post op.....165
16 months post op.....155
