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I have lost 90 pounds in 3.5 months. I knew that I would lose weight but I didn't think I would lose this much so quickly! I am pretty excited about it. The down fall of it is that I have a professional job and clothes are killing my pocket! Wow they can be expensive when you have to buy a new size every couple of weeks or so. But I suppose its a stupid thing to complain about when you compare the benefits.

Its been one heck of a week! I have lost a bit of weight so far ~ I know that its water, but I still can enjoy it! When I came home I was a MESS!!! I was freaking out! Absolutely horrible. I know part of it is just the emotions running wild due to all the changes that are happening in my body and part of it is my anxiety that I have dealt with all my life.
I go see my PCP today and we will see what she has to say about all that has happened in the last week.

I get to go back to work next monday ~ I am pretty excited about that, I will not be as bored anymore and my mind will not have a chance to wonder so much and focus on the negative.

I have been pretty tired but I dont get a lot of sleep because I can't fall asleep at night.
Well until next time....

I had my surgery on Monday. Monday was absolutely HORRIBLE!!! I was in so much pain.
Tuesday was completely different... not so much pain. I was able to get up and walk ~ In fact I walked almost 2 miles there on the floor at the hospital. Yesterday was about the same... walked a little more, but also had a little more pain. Today I came home and am in quite a bit of pain but I think that is to be expected. I didn't walk as much today since its cold and wet and nasty outside today. I think I will get on the machine and see if that works for me.
Anyways just wanted to update everyone.

As I was getting ready for work this morning I glanced into the mirror and the first thought was "who is that" ~ I have gotten so fat that I don't even recognize myself. I think how did I get here and it always comes back to one thing... I AM ADDICTED TO FOOD! I love it, I love the smell, the taste, the texture. The one thing that I do not love is the way that it makes me feel. I feel gross, I am short of breathe, I hate it! So like any person trying to kick an addiction, I needed to admit that I am addictted to food. I don't eat just becuase I am hungry I eat because it looks good or smells good and I know it will taste good.
So as I begin this journey to WLS (which will take place 2/23) I ask myself can I do this? and the answer is always YES! I know that I can because I refuse to fail. Yes I will have the fear that I may fail however that fear will be what keeps me going.

Some of the things I am looking forward to once I start my new journey in life.
1. Not being the largest in the group
2. Shopping in the misses department
3. Having sex and not worring if my fat is grossing my hubby out
4. Running
5. Climbing stairs w/out getting out of breathe
6. Enjoying being out in public
7. Not embarrassing my kids
8. Sitting in a booth at a resturant and not having my stomach hit the table
9. Crossing my legs like a lady not a man
10. Having people look at me because I look good, not because I am fat
11. Riding roller coasters
12. clothes sizes that start with 1's not 2's & 3's
13. Not just thinking about what I want to do, but actually doing it
14. Going to job interviews and have people not hire me because someone is better qualified not becuase they don't want someone so obese working in their office
15. Being in pictures... not the one that is taking them all the time

These are just a few of the things I am going to do, there are many more I am sure. I am so excited I am brusting at the seams... ok maybe that is not the right term to use but you get the point!

OH MY I was soooo excited at work today when Jen from Dr. Oakleys office called and told me my date is FEBRUARY 23rd. It seems like a while aways but I know that it come fast enough. Now I have to do all the preparing for it! I will be going to GNC to get my protein and I will be ordering my vitamins, I think I am going to use the ones that have everything in them except the b1 ~ that just seems like the smarter choice. Anyways just wanted to post my date!

Today as I was getting out of the shower my insurance company called me to say they approved my WLS. I am SOOOO EXCITED. I called my drs office and they told me that they will be calling me next week with a surgery time, however that will not be until March. Oh well, at least I am approved. I can not wait (but I guess I will have to, not much choice).

I will update my date when I get it!