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Okay so.. Now my weight is in.. 320-326 area.. I'm trying to get a job at my mom's work.. My mom has to talk to her Boss.. He's saying he's not sure cause they might lose a Hospital and then they will ALL be out of jobs.. But if he can keep the Hospital, then maybe I can work there.. I hope so, it'd be really good for me.. I really just want a job.. ya know.. So I don't feel like a loser that I currently am.. I can't drive and too embarassed to go to Drivers ED, a class full of 15-17 year olds in High School! I'm 21! So yeah.. That's it for now.. Bye for now..

Sorry for not updating in forever, if anyone is still even watching me or whatever. But yeah. I just haven't been doing much, been up to nothing. Not losing any weight really. Slowly. Up and down mostly from 330lbs - 340lbs. I had my wisdom teeth pulled recently, ouch. All 4, under the gums.. had stitches, finally the stitches are coming out.. So yeah. That's pretty much it. Byebye now. X:

Hey everyone! I'm doing good right now.. I wish my weight loss was faster but oh well. I'll get there! Just got to work at it.

***I added THREE new photos!***
I am wearing a new shirt too! It's a 4x instead of my usual 8x shirts! YAY!

ALSO!!

I've rewritten the My Story section of the profile.. So please go read it!

~Rewritten Story~
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Well to begin with my name is Jesse.. I grew up in a not so stable home as my mom and dad fought a lot, my dad working night shifts so I would only really see him on the weekends when he didn't work.. but to make a long sad story short they separated when I was about 7 or 8 years old.. Of course I was depressed about it all and especially when my mom found a new guy who moved in.. He was not a great guy and he made my life miserable for almost 8 years.. Not a day went by that I was filled with hate and disgust over this man.. So during those 16 years I did a lot of emotional eating and staying and hiding in my room with the computer.. I was 380lbs by the time I was 16 years old.. And that was also around the time I learned about weight loss surgery and so desperately wanted it.. We looked into it too and my mom was all for it.. In fact it was her idea! We did everything we needed to do but the insurance denied us.. They even said themselves it was necessary but they do not cover weight loss surgery.. We did that about two more times over the years AS I KEPT GAINING WEIGHT! Feeling like it was hopeless and I would never have my dream come true of having weight loss surgery.. being depressed about not being able to have this surgery that would change my life for the better and let me enjoy what I had left of my school years..

 Out of desperation I even tried contacting celebrities like Oprah and Mark Cuban.. My mom emailed Dr. Phil even cause she was desperate for me too.. No answers though of course.. Why give 25k out of their millions of dollars.. Because they need it to put new fountains in the yards and buy another house or two or a new car to give away to their audiences.. Make sure it was on TV to make themselves look good...

For years I been telling my mom to ask for the money from my grandmother and finally my mom got the courage to do so.. and of course she said yes! I always knew she would.. except now I was 19 years old and I have gotten up to 556lbs.. That's right.. I gained almost 200lbs from when I was 16 years old trying to get Weight Loss Surgery to now 19 years old.. But better late than never.. It's just going to be a lot harder to get to a normal size.. than it would have been if I had gotten this surgery at 16 years old..
I would have been skinny by now and would have had a great Senior year of High School and would have gotten my Senior Pictures taken so I could be in my Senior Yearbook.. but I was not because I was too big to be able to wear the required outfit that all Seniors had to wear.. but I didn't want to go through the embarrassment.  And if I had the surgery at 16 years old  I could have graduated on stage with my friends and have my family there to watch me graduate because I worked SO HARD to do so.. but I could not because they didn't have my gown size and I didn't want to have my mom spend more money on a oversized gown just so I could be embarrassed walking on stage with a big maroon gown on.. looking like a big maroon blob.. So yes.. It hurts a lot not being able have that memory of graduating on stage, going to prom, seeing myself in the yearbook.. If it wasn't for my mailed diploma I wouldn't have no proof that I even went to that school and graduated..

But yes.. I finally did get my surgery on September 17th 2007 thanks to my grandmother who passed away in February 2008. It was the greatest gift I ever gotten and it was from her.. and she even got to see how much it helped me too.. and she was happy she did it.. and I love her so much and I thank my mom too as she finally did ask her for it.. even though she had to pay back the money with the inheritance she got to my Uncle and Aunt.. Cause that is only fair.

Hum.. well.. I'm 376lbs.. now.. I don't know what to say really.. nothing is new here..  I'm kind of upset.. neh.. *huff* Because.. I meet guys online.. they really like me untill they see a picture of me.........

Starting Weight - 556lbs.. (Pre-Op - 2nd Consult) Surgery Date -
9/17/07 - 544lbs (lost 12lbs before surgery - 1month of no sodas and Liquid Diet)
9/25/07 - 527lbs (Lost 29lbs)
10/25/07 - 508lbs (Depressed, lost only 48lbs - 36lbs after surgery)
1/08/08 - 454lbs (Got my scale today and I lost 102lbs - 90lbs since surgery date)
1/14/08 - 445lbs (Wondering if my scale is dumb.. 9lbs in 6 days doesn't seem right)
4/04/08 - 408lbs (Not losing much weight lately. But I am losing some.. 37lbs in 3 months is good still.. I guess? Just wish it was faster since I have SO much to lose.. more than most people need to lose. Starting out at 556lbs..)
5/06/08 - 395lbs (200 more lbs to go to BE 200lbs.. I'll be happy if I lose 200 more pounds)

Hey there.. Haven't updated in awhile.. I haven't been losing a lot of weight like I been wanting to.. I'm not eating a lot but I haven't been working out or taking protein or any vitamins.. My grandmother died Feb 27th, alittle before that we moved to a new house and been trying to get things settled here.. All is fine right now sort of.. I'm really upset nobody is giving me the support i need in this family.. Nobody will take me to the gym or go walk with me.. So it's up to me to get the exercise I need but usually it just slips my mind to walk the stairs in our new house.. Really I just wish someone would company me to walk around this new neighborhood like they keep saying they will.. but when I ask them they say no.. In my last post I told you me and my sis were talking about joining the gym.. Guess what.. Still "talking" about it. She makes up so many excuses.. It's just not going to happen.. I don't blame my mom so much since she's older and can't walk well since she hut her ankle a few months back. But my sister has no excuse to help me. I just really wish I had more support. I wish I has SOMEONE to help me.. Like the only reason I'm not doing my protein is because my sister/mom won't buy me the shakes. My mom keeps forgetting and my sister is too busy being selfish and won't get it.. I really wish I had a car.. but first I need to be able to fit in one and get my license. One step at a time..

I lost 102lbs.. Yay? D: But I was expecting to lose more. Oh well.. Me and my sis been talking bout joining a gym.. but she hasn't yet.. -_- and I can't go unless she does.. cause I dont have a ride.. so anyways.. waiting for that..
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Now I lost (according to the scale) I lost 11lbs in 6 days. I think theres something wrong with the scale.. Cause it's always different each time I step on it... plus it's a spanish speak scale.. (they sent us a wrong one) D: and yeah.. so.. just don't know..

Hi everyone! I been doing WAYWAY better with my vitamins! It's only been a few days.. Still not doing -that- good.. on taking every vitamin i need.. heres whats been going on..

27th - I took the b complex.. OMG SO GROSS!!!! then thats all i took.. was scared the others (capsule pills) would taste bad..

28th - i tried the calcium capsules. omg no taste. how good.. only took 2..

29th - I took a b tablet and 2 calci capsules..

Nov 1st -  I took a b tablet.. iron capsule (no taste) and 4 calci capsules.. supposed to do 6 a day

and for now on ima do my very best to get every single bit of vitamins that i need IN ME!

I am doing.. probably really bad on the protein.. I need 60grams i think.. waiting for my mom to get me the leadbody a dotor at the office told me about.. so when i get that.. i should be getting all the protein i need from IT and the food i eat.

I'm really depressed right now about my weight loss... I need to lose as much weight as possible.. It's been a month and a week since surgery and I've only lost 36lbs.. I was hoping to lose atleast 50lbs total.. That's what most people lose.. It's my fault though cause I haven't been taking my protein or vitamins and I haven't been exercising.. So I can only blame myself.. So whatever. x.x;; I guess I'll just start doing better. Do what I need to.. Also my birthday is tomorrow so yeah.. and I just got in a argument with my mom about the weight thing.. so things are very upsetting right now..

I can finally eat solids now.. I can tell I've lost weight just by looking straight down and noticing my stomach is smaller. My cuts are healing up fine.. Everything is good I guess..  Just updating since I haven't done it for awhile..