Tara S.

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I'm not sure how I get so way off track that I forget where I started from but I really need to update my posts more often.   So much has happened since August last year.   In October I left my husband whom I have loved for half of my life.  Just couldn't take him put downs anymore and while he is very sweet most of the time, the bad times seem to stick with me.  He called me a name in front of  my son on our vacation in October and that was pretty much the last straw for me.  We have a court date of April 16th to sign our dissolution.  It is sad because he has been with me half of my life and I did love him more than he will probably ever realize but the hard days tore a little more of my love away each time and it just left me empty.  

I had plastic surgery on Wednesday last week!  I had a tummy tuck, liposuction and a medial thigh lift.   I could stand to have a brachioplasty and a mastopexy but those will wait.  I got rid of what I truely hated.  It's amazing what we go through to be beautiful.  It was time to do something to make me feel better about me, and not for anyone else.  Can't wait till the swelling and bruising is gone to see the final results.  Took some before pics, but will wait a while for the afters.  Looks pretty bad right now. 
 

Okay, so what's new with me?   Not too much...lol.   I made it through my thyroid surgery ( I do not have cancer!!), my thryoid hormone is finally back on track.  I am going to see a plastic surgeon tomorrow just to get some ideas of how much a new body is going to cost me.  Feeling great still with the band, no problems whatsoever.  I haven't had a fill since March of 2008 and still have great restriction.  Getting compliments all the time and loving life.  My little boy had his 7th birthday on Saturday and we took him to Kings Island amusement park for his surprise bday present.  He and I rode all the coasters together and it was wonderful!!!

First post of the new year.   I am having my thyroidectomy on February 2nd.  I guess I will look like Jack the Ripper got ahold of me for a while.  Oh well.  Let's hope after this surgery it will be my last for this year.  I cancelled my appointment with the plastic surgeon for Monday.  I figure I am going to be doing so much with my thyroid that I can wait until after that is under control before seeing him.  I wouldn't mind losing another 10 pounds before having surgery anyway.  I have been hovering at the same weight for months, up a few down a few but that is okay with me.  I know if they took off all the extra skin it would be another 20 pounds so nothing may change until then.  I did buy a total gym and a nordic ab cruncher so hopefully getting into a routine on them will help with a little toning and tightening. 

It has been a while since I posted.  I have been working about 70 hours a week with us moving into a new building at work, but I love it because it is a great job.

New news, tomorrow is my birthday and yesterday I found out that I have thyroid cancer.  So that sucks, but they say if your going to have cancer it is the one to have because it is the most treatable.  I will be having a total thyroidectomy in early January.  Weight is still staying around 176, I am seeing a plastic surgeon on January 12th just to see my options.  Getting ready for Christmas and looking forward to time with family.

Wow,  this is the first time that I have missed posting for a couple months since I started this journey.  Time to update>

So In July  I was getting my gall bladder removed on July 29th when on July 27th I had a case of sudden sensorineural hearing loss in my left ear leaving me profoundly deaf on the left side and incredibly nauseous and a wicked case of vertigo.  I have to say I never had anything like that happen to me before.  I went to urgent care and the idiot doctor told me that I had fluid in my ear, which I did not and he sent me home telling me it would clear up in 1-6 weeks.  Well 3 weeks later I saw an ENT who told me that I needed an urgent audiogram which confirmed the SSNHL and also that I would most likely never get my hearing back again.  My only chance at reversing the hearing loss was to be treated with steroids and an antiviral agent STAT or after 1-3 days with no treatment the loss is not reversible.  Sucks being me.  It has totally changed how I do everything and I can't hear anything when there is background noise around. 
I still had my gallbladder out which was incredibly painful, didn't have any kind of pain like that with the band, but OMG I couldn't breathe without crying and I couldn't cry cuz I couldn't take a breath.  It was horrible, they had me on a pain pump of morphine and Percocet by mouth and it wasn't touching it.  It was really bad for about a week.
Yesterday I had a thyroid uptake scan and a thyroid ultrasound for a nodule they found.  Will find out about having that biopsied soon. 

Weight loss is at a standstill but I am loving life and wouldn't care if I lost another pound.  110 pounds down to date.  Very happy with the band!

Also loving the new job, no stress there!!

Well I got a new job.  I applied for an IT job in the facility I am currently working in and low and behold they chose me.  I am so excited about it!  I have been in the medical field for 13 years and it is going to be such a huge change to do something different.  I won't be wearing scrubs to work, which will be a huge change.  I need to go shopping and I think I am going to hit up some thrift stores to find some clothes.  I am also really sad because I have been working for 3 years very hard on the current project for our new building and to leave it behind before it is finished is tough to do.  Looking forward to a new career but scared in some ways also.  We shall see....

I found out that my B12 and B1 were low which most likely explained my fatigue.  I started on a B12 sublingual 2500mcg supplement and a B complex.  My energy has increased greatly which feels great.  I am still at 181 which is perfectly fine with me.  I am wearing a size 12 pants which is quite unbelievable for me since I haven't seen that since I was 18 and before surgery I had a pair of pants that were extremely tight and a size 28.  What is strange to me is that I don't really see myself differently.  I feel so much better, my body feels so much better and I definately like to dress up where I didn't before.  Just feels weird because how I look now is how I have always seen myself, although when I see photos of myself before I about die because I can't believe how I actually looked.  I love the new lease on life this band has helped me to achieve.  
   Jacob graduated kindergarten yesterday!  I can't believe he is going to be in first grade next year, what happened to my baby??  The time is flying and I wanted him to stay this size forever.  He is wonderful and my little sweetheart!
   My mother in law had a stroke on friday.  She is only mid 50's and it is scary to think of how our health can go downhill so fast.  She seems to be doing so much better.  Makes me thankful that I have decreased cardiac risk just by losing this weight.  Now I need to quit smoking.  What a terribly nasty and expensive habit.  Hopefully I can break it soon.

So it's a new month and I am still hovering around the same weight as I was last month.  A lot has been going on the past few weeks.  I went to Texas for a mini vacation with the women in my family and we had an absolute blast.  I bought a tankini with a built in bra and it gave me some support but nothing is taming these babies until they are minus some extra skin, they are so big and the extra weight and skin just pull them down (gravity is not their friend).  Anyway we had so much fun and I took a ton of photos, I will post a couple on my photos page.  I definately look much different then I did a couple years ago in a bathing suit but I hate all the extra skin.  I think if I had plastics I would lose another 15 pounds easily.  Oh and the major stall that is going on is my fault.  I have been mindlessly eating and grazing on things I shouldn't.  I just got the nutrisystem plan and I am hoping with that I will be dedicated to kick this thing back into gear.  I am sure that it doesn't taste very good, but they are small portions and should make me full off of one of their meals.  I vow to cut out all extra grazing calories to really make this work.  I would like to get to 150 by the end of the summer but I don't know if that will happen before I can get some of the extra skin off.  We shall see....next I need to work on getting some time to exercise, hopefully with spring here I can get out of the house and at least work in the yard. 

I had a big poker tournament this weekend and split the pot for 1st with a couple of friends.  We each won $500.  It was a lot of fun and we are going to Zanesville Ohio for a huge tournament this weekend.  I can't wait.  

I am going shopping for a swimsuit this Sunday because next week my family is having a girl's trip to Galveston Texas to get a beach house and hang out.  I can't wait but I am worried about the bathing suit ordeal.  I don't like the sagging skin thing that is going on and I am looking forward to have plastic surgery in the next year or so.  I would like to work out as much as possible to tone up anything I can but there is defnitely some skin there that is going to have to go.  My husband said I will look like a baseball when I get done with all the stitches that I am going to have.  LOL he is right!

My husband and I went out for a date night for the first time in a loooonnnggggg time, were talking years.  We made reservations at Cap City Diner.  The food was unbelievable.  It was the first time I wish that I could of eaten my meal, but I bagged up everything but two bites off my plate and we even took desert home.  It was so nice to get out and not be so focused on eating food.  We sat and took in the environment around us and just enjoyed each others company.  It was such an enjoyable evening.  I love my hubby.  Jacob went with Aunt Robin to see the monster truck show and he will be home sunday after church.  I miss him not being here, but it was fun to have an adult night.