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I think I look the same!
May 04, 2011
It's so strange! I have lost 70 pounds. Of course, I have been at a painful stall for many weeks now, which is incredibly frustrating. But I saw a "fat picture" of me at my highest weight yesterday and I was shocked by it, and in the same breath as I asked my husband "I was that fat?" I also said "well, actually I think I look the same". I realized at that moment that I do feel like I am the same. I think that no matter how much weight I ever lose, I'll always, somewhere, in the back of my mind, think like a "fat girl".
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Recipes from books that I have
Nov 11, 2010
I decided to dust off some of my favorite cookbooks that I haven't used in a while that I know have high protein, yummy recipes in them. I decided to go ahead and blog the recipes that I want to make for me and the fam in the near future. The balance is difficult because my 15-year-old daughter is a vegetarian and has been for about two years. My husband doesn't eat beef or pork of any kind. Ever. Hasn't for over longer than I've known him. We were actually vegans for about five years, but started back on fish, chicken, turkey about six years ago. My eight-year-old son is just picky, picky, picky, and I now have to focus on ME and getting the protein that I need. So in all of that, I guess I will sometimes be using leftovers and sometimes more than one dish to appease, but I want to use MY meals as a centerpiece for the meal and add things around it. Seems like the most normal thing to do. If the kids don't want the main dish, then I have leftovers! Lots of leftovers!
So, from Everyday Food's "Great Food Fast" From the Kitchens of Martha Stewart Living Cookbook:
Some of these are also on Martha Stewart's website and I'm going to link the ones that are, so you can see the recipes that I mean.
*Chicken Parmigiana -this uses bread crumbs, I'll try to find the gluten-free, low carb kind
*Cashew Chicken (ALWAYS YUM! I wouldn't eat the rice)
*Chicken Chilaquiles -this is one of my all-time favorite dishes at our favorite Mexican restaurant and I've been craving it something awful, so we'll see how this one goes. I'll probably have to stick with just the chicken portions.
*Herb-Crusted Snapper
* Fish Tacos -I just want the FISH!! MMM
*Parmesan-Stuffed Chicken Breasts
*Moroccan Chicken Couscous (skip the couscous, but make it for the rest of the family)
*Chicken Curry
Okay, I'll have to do the other cookbooks on another day because I just remembered that I need to finish folding laundry so that people can sit on the seating surfaces in my living room!
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So, from Everyday Food's "Great Food Fast" From the Kitchens of Martha Stewart Living Cookbook:
Some of these are also on Martha Stewart's website and I'm going to link the ones that are, so you can see the recipes that I mean.
*Chicken Parmigiana -this uses bread crumbs, I'll try to find the gluten-free, low carb kind
*Cashew Chicken (ALWAYS YUM! I wouldn't eat the rice)
*Chicken Chilaquiles -this is one of my all-time favorite dishes at our favorite Mexican restaurant and I've been craving it something awful, so we'll see how this one goes. I'll probably have to stick with just the chicken portions.
*Herb-Crusted Snapper
* Fish Tacos -I just want the FISH!! MMM
*Parmesan-Stuffed Chicken Breasts
*Moroccan Chicken Couscous (skip the couscous, but make it for the rest of the family)
*Chicken Curry
Okay, I'll have to do the other cookbooks on another day because I just remembered that I need to finish folding laundry so that people can sit on the seating surfaces in my living room!
Day 10 and ONE MORE DAY of HALLOWEEN!
Oct 30, 2010
This wasn't something I ever encoutered growing up on the West Coast, but we're now in the SOUTH, y'all (church on every corner), and because Halloween falls on a Sunday, it's been a huge "to do" about when Trick or Treating is. Saturday or Sunday? Such an ordeal.
Now...we do a big Dowtown merchant TorT on the Friday before Halloween, so that was two days ago. Last night, we knew we were going to get TorTers and we did. We had the candy out and were ready. There's gonna be more TorTing tonight. This is when we'll take our kids out because, well, it's HALLOWEEN! Anyway, I usually eat as much candy as I give out and I got the GOOD stuff this year but the smell of it pouring it into the big bucket actually made me feel a little ill. I never really believed that I'd find things I loved previously totally disgusting until it started happening to me.
That said, I still feel so weird that I haven't had any candy! It's almost like a mourning of sorts. I know that at some point, if I can handle it and I want to, I can taste things like that, but that's not even the point. I didn't really understand the idea of mourning food until now.
We did have fun carving pumpkins and so that didn't change. What a trip this new life is going to be...
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Now...we do a big Dowtown merchant TorT on the Friday before Halloween, so that was two days ago. Last night, we knew we were going to get TorTers and we did. We had the candy out and were ready. There's gonna be more TorTing tonight. This is when we'll take our kids out because, well, it's HALLOWEEN! Anyway, I usually eat as much candy as I give out and I got the GOOD stuff this year but the smell of it pouring it into the big bucket actually made me feel a little ill. I never really believed that I'd find things I loved previously totally disgusting until it started happening to me.
That said, I still feel so weird that I haven't had any candy! It's almost like a mourning of sorts. I know that at some point, if I can handle it and I want to, I can taste things like that, but that's not even the point. I didn't really understand the idea of mourning food until now.
We did have fun carving pumpkins and so that didn't change. What a trip this new life is going to be...
Gross-ery Store! 4 Days Post-Op
Oct 25, 2010
Today, Day 4 post op, went with DH to the local grocery chain. I am exhausted just from doing that, but I was totally grossed out by things I normally would have put in my cart. I guess that's a good sign, but looking at everything there, I realize how few items are really actually food. The checkout aisle was inundated with more gross stuff and although being overweight has been my choice overall, it doesn't surprise me how we struggle considering what's offered to the public as food.
My SINGLE (still totally stoked about that) incision is healing nicely, I'm having far less discomfort than I have the past several days and I feel like I'm just sort of biding my time in the healing process to get to the next stage where I can start preparing some nice soups and mushies and such to eat.
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My SINGLE (still totally stoked about that) incision is healing nicely, I'm having far less discomfort than I have the past several days and I feel like I'm just sort of biding my time in the healing process to get to the next stage where I can start preparing some nice soups and mushies and such to eat.
First Post Ever -Day 3 Post-Op
Oct 24, 2010
I had a Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy on Thursday, October 21st, 2010. Before my pre-op diet, I weighed approximately 260 pounds. At three days post-op, I weigh about 236. Not bad for a start.
I was very nervous about surgery because I have never been comfortable with even having a dental exam without some kind of "calming" medication. I have realized over the past couple of years, though, as my weight never went down, even as I dieted, tried to work out even though I would hurt for days afterward, etc that as I had crept up into the "obese" category, my health was seriously at risk. I have dieted many times in my life, lost weight and gained it back. Even when I was a strict vegan. Even when I was a raw foodist. Even when I just ate like a normal person.
What's funny is that people are always surprised when they see my pantry and our meals (which I post pictures of on Facebook like a goofball) and just my overall grocery shopping habits that I am pretty health-conscious when it comes to food. i prefer to go for the more natural varieties, natural ingredients, etc, but I am more vigilant about it for the kids than for myself. To be exact, I am more vigilant about portions and quality with my kids. Me? I could snack all day. i'm not a volume eater. I mean, I have eaten to the point where I've felt sick before, but that's not my usual M.O. My problem is that I have no problem giving in to any craving and then continuing to eat it beyond the serving size (or 2 or 3).
It's about choices and I've made the choice to restrict the size of my actual stomach and to see if controlling some of the hunger hormones that cause me to eat too much when I do, along with really listening to my body and finding new things to do besides nibble on food is going to work for me longterm.
The truth is, the past few days since I had my surgery, I've had a lot of anxiety about how I'll ever eat again, smelling food makes me feel hungry although that is not supposed to be medically possible. It's psychological, no doubt, and yeah, I may have to get back to my therapist on a regular basis just to make it through to where I feel confident.
The day of the surgery, I was miserable after surgery. I had a rough time coming out of anesthesia, as in, I felt like I'd been run over, I kept coughing (which hurt), they kept asking me to do things I didn't want to do like breathe more deeply, into the incentive spirometer, I got sick when they wheeled me from surgery to my room just from the motion and of course with my luck, every time I got a shot of morphine when I said I was in pain, I was throwing up again. Every time. I actually would hold off, even in pain, because I wanted to wait until I was mentally ready to throw up again. A) it looked gross...and I won't go into that and B) It hurt to through up. It hurt my incision and it hurt in the area of my stomach actually.
Getting up walking the night of? I must have looked at the nurse like she was out of her mind! I was like a walking zombie. I SO did not want to be up. I was miserable in bed, too, so what difference did it make? I had what I can only describe as some of the most intense hunger sensations of my life that night and it was so uncomfortable that it ruined my morphine-soaked sleep plans. Looking back, it was probably too much acide. They were giving me something for it, but for some reason, I was having some issue. The gas started right after that and if I had to rate one thing as the hardest part of it so far, physically, I'd say the gas pains both in hospital after I got home the next day as the most difficult to manage. The surgical pain is really mostly gone, with just some soreness, like something happened there, but if I couldn't SEE my steri-strips and SINGLE (YES SINGLE) incision, I wouldn't think I felt like I just had major surgery.
What was interesting, post=surgically, is that while I was still mostly out of it, the nurse on my recovery floor asked me if I remembered that I'd had a bad reaction to something during surgery and if I remember them giving me Benadryl to try to fix it because when I came out of surgery, I had hives/rashy stuff all over my trunk (belly, chest, arms, neck). I have no recollection of that, thankfully! I have an allergy to amoxicillin, which was well documented and I know that they took special precautions, so who knows? Scary, though.
Good news: I was able to search the OH forums and found that using Gas-X Strips helped some people with the gas pains and I wish I'd taken them back on day one! Between them and the walking, slow sipping, I'm feeling a lot more like I can tolerate the amounts of water and other liquids I'm supposed to be having during the day.
I felt bad for my kids, who my husband brought with him to the hospital that evening and I basically dozed in and out on and felt bad they had to see me like that. I don't know in the long run what the toll will be on them and how I will fully explain why I've made this choice, but I hope in the months and years to come, it becomes apparent WHY I did this and HOW it's made my life...and their lives better in many ways.
I don't think I'll get all of my protein in today because I'm feeling fed up with it today, but I'm getting my liquids in and started my chewable multivitamin that I was happy to find at Walgreens when I got DH to take me out today because I'd forgotten that part of the plan pre-surg. We went in to Walgreens, I walked over the the vitamins, then picked out my Pepcid and by that time, I was done. I felt hot and sweaty, had to take off my hoodie and I was ready to be done for the day. I hope that gets better soon, too, because although I plan to take it as easy as possible, I am anxious to get back to the day-to-day, too.
Things are good today. I'm taking very few doses of pain pills, like maybe every 8 hours or so, and only half of what is prescribed and I'm finding as long as I keep the pepcid and Gas-X strips on board, I'm good to go!
DH says I look so much better and seem so much better today than yesterday and he said the same thing about yesterday and the day before, so it's only up (not in weight) from here, right?
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I was very nervous about surgery because I have never been comfortable with even having a dental exam without some kind of "calming" medication. I have realized over the past couple of years, though, as my weight never went down, even as I dieted, tried to work out even though I would hurt for days afterward, etc that as I had crept up into the "obese" category, my health was seriously at risk. I have dieted many times in my life, lost weight and gained it back. Even when I was a strict vegan. Even when I was a raw foodist. Even when I just ate like a normal person.
What's funny is that people are always surprised when they see my pantry and our meals (which I post pictures of on Facebook like a goofball) and just my overall grocery shopping habits that I am pretty health-conscious when it comes to food. i prefer to go for the more natural varieties, natural ingredients, etc, but I am more vigilant about it for the kids than for myself. To be exact, I am more vigilant about portions and quality with my kids. Me? I could snack all day. i'm not a volume eater. I mean, I have eaten to the point where I've felt sick before, but that's not my usual M.O. My problem is that I have no problem giving in to any craving and then continuing to eat it beyond the serving size (or 2 or 3).
It's about choices and I've made the choice to restrict the size of my actual stomach and to see if controlling some of the hunger hormones that cause me to eat too much when I do, along with really listening to my body and finding new things to do besides nibble on food is going to work for me longterm.
The truth is, the past few days since I had my surgery, I've had a lot of anxiety about how I'll ever eat again, smelling food makes me feel hungry although that is not supposed to be medically possible. It's psychological, no doubt, and yeah, I may have to get back to my therapist on a regular basis just to make it through to where I feel confident.
The day of the surgery, I was miserable after surgery. I had a rough time coming out of anesthesia, as in, I felt like I'd been run over, I kept coughing (which hurt), they kept asking me to do things I didn't want to do like breathe more deeply, into the incentive spirometer, I got sick when they wheeled me from surgery to my room just from the motion and of course with my luck, every time I got a shot of morphine when I said I was in pain, I was throwing up again. Every time. I actually would hold off, even in pain, because I wanted to wait until I was mentally ready to throw up again. A) it looked gross...and I won't go into that and B) It hurt to through up. It hurt my incision and it hurt in the area of my stomach actually.
Getting up walking the night of? I must have looked at the nurse like she was out of her mind! I was like a walking zombie. I SO did not want to be up. I was miserable in bed, too, so what difference did it make? I had what I can only describe as some of the most intense hunger sensations of my life that night and it was so uncomfortable that it ruined my morphine-soaked sleep plans. Looking back, it was probably too much acide. They were giving me something for it, but for some reason, I was having some issue. The gas started right after that and if I had to rate one thing as the hardest part of it so far, physically, I'd say the gas pains both in hospital after I got home the next day as the most difficult to manage. The surgical pain is really mostly gone, with just some soreness, like something happened there, but if I couldn't SEE my steri-strips and SINGLE (YES SINGLE) incision, I wouldn't think I felt like I just had major surgery.
What was interesting, post=surgically, is that while I was still mostly out of it, the nurse on my recovery floor asked me if I remembered that I'd had a bad reaction to something during surgery and if I remember them giving me Benadryl to try to fix it because when I came out of surgery, I had hives/rashy stuff all over my trunk (belly, chest, arms, neck). I have no recollection of that, thankfully! I have an allergy to amoxicillin, which was well documented and I know that they took special precautions, so who knows? Scary, though.
Good news: I was able to search the OH forums and found that using Gas-X Strips helped some people with the gas pains and I wish I'd taken them back on day one! Between them and the walking, slow sipping, I'm feeling a lot more like I can tolerate the amounts of water and other liquids I'm supposed to be having during the day.
I felt bad for my kids, who my husband brought with him to the hospital that evening and I basically dozed in and out on and felt bad they had to see me like that. I don't know in the long run what the toll will be on them and how I will fully explain why I've made this choice, but I hope in the months and years to come, it becomes apparent WHY I did this and HOW it's made my life...and their lives better in many ways.
I don't think I'll get all of my protein in today because I'm feeling fed up with it today, but I'm getting my liquids in and started my chewable multivitamin that I was happy to find at Walgreens when I got DH to take me out today because I'd forgotten that part of the plan pre-surg. We went in to Walgreens, I walked over the the vitamins, then picked out my Pepcid and by that time, I was done. I felt hot and sweaty, had to take off my hoodie and I was ready to be done for the day. I hope that gets better soon, too, because although I plan to take it as easy as possible, I am anxious to get back to the day-to-day, too.
Things are good today. I'm taking very few doses of pain pills, like maybe every 8 hours or so, and only half of what is prescribed and I'm finding as long as I keep the pepcid and Gas-X strips on board, I'm good to go!
DH says I look so much better and seem so much better today than yesterday and he said the same thing about yesterday and the day before, so it's only up (not in weight) from here, right?
