Texas_Mom
Roller Coaster of Indecision
Jun 02, 2007
I remember seeing a story on the lapband procedure on something like 20/20 or Dateline several years ago. Man, that sounded great. My husband reminded me the day we found out it could be an option that I had once said "Maybe I should just gain more weight so I could have it done." I don't remember saying that. But maybe subconsciously I kept that possibility in the back of my mind as a way out if one day I found I couldn't do it anymore.
Well, I guess that day has come. And I honestly don't know what to do. I have gone from desperately wanting to have the surgery done, to being fearful, to feeling guilty, to thinking I might can do it on my own, to believing it impossible for me to do alone and wanting the surgery .... and on and on. How do you know it's the right thing? How do you know that life after the surgery will be better than the misery before the surgery? How do you know what God's will is? How do you know it is going to safe? That you're not going to die early someday because of it? That you're not setting a bad example for your kids? That you're not just being lazy - again? How do I know I can do it?
I have to stop asking other people and start listening to God and to my heart. Everybody has their own opinions. What matters is my opinion. What do I think is right for me?
I looked up the Pritikan Wellness and Longevity Center as per my friend's request and it looks great. Maybe I should try that. Lord, help me know what to do ... because I don't, and I need some guidance here.
Amen
Well, I guess that day has come. And I honestly don't know what to do. I have gone from desperately wanting to have the surgery done, to being fearful, to feeling guilty, to thinking I might can do it on my own, to believing it impossible for me to do alone and wanting the surgery .... and on and on. How do you know it's the right thing? How do you know that life after the surgery will be better than the misery before the surgery? How do you know what God's will is? How do you know it is going to safe? That you're not going to die early someday because of it? That you're not setting a bad example for your kids? That you're not just being lazy - again? How do I know I can do it?
I have to stop asking other people and start listening to God and to my heart. Everybody has their own opinions. What matters is my opinion. What do I think is right for me?
I looked up the Pritikan Wellness and Longevity Center as per my friend's request and it looks great. Maybe I should try that. Lord, help me know what to do ... because I don't, and I need some guidance here.
Amen
