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Well...I have had my first bad experience.  I just got out of the hospital from a bleeding ulcer.  I got sick and started bleeding a really dark maroon in my stool.  I almost passed out at work.  I came home and it did not get any better.  My husband made me go to the emergency room the next day.  I ended up needing 2 pints of blood.  What I want to say to everyone is please pay attention to anything you are experiencing and feeling.  I am now seriously anemic.  And right now I feel really tired.  I am looking forward to going back to work.

Well hello again.  It has been awhile.  Came in to change my pics.  I have changed so much since my sugery.  Looking for a new hair style/color.  I also change the color of my eyes in some pics.  I love the blue....but hubby said if he wanted to marry a blue eyed girl he would have.  LOL....so since I want to keep him I guess I will keep these ugly brown eyes.  lol
I now weigh 138-140 lbs and am considered "normal".  I still can hardly belive this is me.  But, it is.  When I look at pictures of myself I am amazed.  Family is wonderful.  My son plays High School Football(starting reciever) and my husband helps coach the team also.  They won the STATE (NC) championship game last week and it was AMAZING.  They are still on cloud 9.  Alexa my daughter is beautiful and getting more so each day.  Boy I worry about her...she is so pretty...the boys are already calling her TOO MUCH and she is only almost 13yrs old. So, anyway, this still remains one of the best decisions I have ever made in my life and would do it again tomorrow.  I just need plastics now. 

Well almost 1 year ago today I started on my WLS Journey.  I am down to 146lbs. Total loss of 115lbs.  Under Dr. goal and 15lbs to my goal.  I am really loosing slow now.  I feel great for the most part.  My iron is low and I am taking supliments.  I am tired some.  Other than that all is great.  My sugar is normal, my cholesterol is normal and my blood pressure is AWSOME.  So I am pleased.  If anyone ask me if I would do it again....I would answer with a resounding..YES!  In a heartbeat. 

Wow! Almost a year.  I am down to 148-149.  A loss of 113lbs.  I can hardly believe it.  I am posting some new during pictures.  Yes during.  Because I still want to loose 18lbs more.  I need plastics.  I just can not afford them right now.  Not sure when or if ever.  My son will be going to college next year and really do not need the extra expense.  My health is very good.  I feel great most of the time except for my fybro pain and being tired....I am anemic.  Other than that my WLS journey has been AMAZING.  No problems so far.  I know that could change any time.  But, now is awsome.  I love being able to ware skinnier clothes.  I am actually going to be able to ware a semi-regular bathing suit.  WhooHoo...that will be a big deal for me this summer.  'cause we have a pool and I am in a swim suit quite a bit.  One of my goals was:  My son will be a senoir this next year.  He plays football and baseball and they have senoir night.  I wanted to be able to walk out on the field and not be embarrassed about being the "fat" mom.  I wanted my son to be proud of me.  Not, that he wasn't anyway...but I am sure he is glad too.  Well that is all for now.
LATER

It has been forever since I have been on here.  I just wanted to come back and journal to keep up with it myself.  I am now 7 months out and am, as of today, down 94lbs.  WOW.  Almost 100 lbs.  Also, today is my 20th wedding anniversery.  I have been married to the same wonderful man for 20 yrs.  I thank God for giving him to me. And, I thank him for giving me 2 beautiful children.  Well, about my overall health.  It is pretty good except for my Iron.....I am still anemic and my iron levels are in the tank.  I feel tired all the time and feel dizzy sometimes and have difficulty breathing sometimes.  I have a friend that is a Dr. and she tells me that these symptoms are coming from anemia.  Other than that I guess I am healthy.  I do feel depressed sometimes....not sure why.  As, far as my apperance some people tell me not to loose anymore.  I never thought I would hear that...LOL.  My sister and brother in-law say I look sickly.  But, most others say I look great.  I still do not see myself as a smaller person.  I know I am because of my clothes and the scales....but, I still do not see it in the mirror or in my mind.

I had my check up this monday 10/1.  Everything was OK except I am anemic again.  I was anemic before my surgery but Dr. Cox told me to stop taking my iron.  I did.  I told my husband I needed my iron again because I felt sooo tired.  Well, anyway I am taking it again.  Hopefully my energy level will go back up.  I have now lost 72 lbs.  54%.  They tell me I am ahead of schedule.  They want you to loose 50% by 6mo and I am at 5mo.  So yea me.  I just wish I wasn't so tired.

I did it finally!  I am in onderland 198...I know just under 200 but it is still under.  I will turn 45 next week and I am finally under 200.  I can hardly believe it.  I just want to shout it from the rooftops.  Thanks to Dr. Cox and all my support peeps.

Well, I am 10 weeks out now.  I have lost 46.5lbs.  Wooohooo!  Things are still going well.  I am trying to get in enough protein but not quite there yet.  I can try salad but have been afraid to so far.  I am still eating 3-4 oz at each meal. I still have some pain and recently have had a stinging sensation also.  Thankfully I still get really full really fast.  
We had a birthday at the office this week and they bought a cake.  I did not feel left out in any way.  But, I have never been a big sweet eater.  My weakness has always been crunchy and starchy foods.  Well I will post later.

Had my 8 week visit last Thursday.  Down 40.5 lbs.  Had blood work done.  Results not back yet.  Dr. said still need to work on getting in enough protein.  Exercise going well.  Walking 1 mile 3-4 times per week.  Swimming some also.  Going to start going to gym to lift weights in a couple of weeks.  I felt like I was not loosing fast enough but the coordinator said I was right on target.
Also had my 1st wow moment last week.  I went to my sons baseball game and the guy at the ticked counter said I looked nice.  When we walked away my DH said what did he say.  I said OHHH never mind.  LOL.  But, I told him and he just laughed.  He is just proud of me.

I had 1st post op visit on day 11.  I had lost 19lbs.  The nut said I am not eating enough or getting enough protein.  But, that I am headed in the right direction.  I am now 16 days post op and have not weighed again.  I afraid too.  I know I have lost some more because a pair of capris I could not wear b4 surgery I can ware now.  I can eat some different things now.  Today I made a quesadeilla w/ mozzerella and pepper jack cheese.  It was good but set heavy in my pouch.  I bought a tape measure also I am going to use it tomorrow.  And try to keep up with inches also.