teresam
WOW
Jul 25, 2008
Things have been a little stressful and I need to get back on track. I have gained about 30 pounds and I really loathe myself for that. Of course its my fault and not blaming anyone else but me. So later on today..starts the new era of losing the extra baggage and not head down this road again.
February 9, 2007 will be one year post op!
Jan 31, 2007
Hello Everyone!
I just wanted to take the time to post on how things are going. Approximately 16 months ago, I made my first post on this site. If you read my story...I was completely self loathing and miserable. I made the decision to have surgery and things fell into place from that point forward.
My sugery was text book (so I was told by my surgeon) and I had one minor complication immediately after surgery..that was well my fault for not liking to take pain medication...so for all of my pre-op friends..take it from me...follow your doctors orders and manage your pain with whatever pain meds they give you to go home with. I guess that the liquid roxicet was just a little too intimidating for me.
Anyway, I have managed to join a gym and hire a pair of the best personal trainers on the planet. They keep me motivated and looking good. LOL.
I am just so happy with the results of my surgery. I did recently have to have my gallbladder removed as I was carrying around a bag full of stones (the sonographers description.) I also have an iron deficit. This is being controlled with vitamins and iron pills..DO NOT FORGET YOUR VITAMINS AND CALCIUM.
I am able to eat most anything I choose in small amounts, except white bread and pasta. I have also been known to indulge in a piece of cheesecake (the size of a quarter, but oh so yummy) and not suffer any ramifications of dumping. I also do drink 1 8 oz can of soda per day...yes that is an improvement of what used to be 3 20 oz bottles. I do drink all of my water that can sometimes be a challenge.
I remember reading of mind games that your head plays with you sometimes. I have been really fortunate in not suffering this consequence much. Sometimes when I am shopping, I do head for the size 24 - 26 and then it hits me that noooooo noooo noooo..I now need a size 12 or A WOMANS LARGE....NOT A MENS DOUBLE EXTRA LARGE. Over the course of my weight loss it did become apparent to me that everyone treats me differently...whether they say they are proud of me for going through with my journey and sacrifices along the way or its just a stranger staring at me. To me its a little unfortunate that people couldn't be proud of me before and that most men do not like to look at a larger woman or they are self proclaimed closet bbw lovers. All in all, I do not let it get me down, I
just feel bad for the men and the women that do not have surgery as an option.
I did go back to 6 flags and Disney this past year and I was able to ride the rides I wanted and not be embarassed of my weight. Now nearly one whole year later...I am feeling good about me and who I am and how I got to where I wanted to be with my weight. I have to honestly say, that my pre-op weight was a contributing factor in my issue of self loathing. Not so much that I actually hated myself, I just had no self control. I knew that by having the surgery, it would provide me with the necessary tool to restrict my food intake and when a stressful situation came about, I would have to find a healthy alternative that was not food related. So when I get pissed...I go to the gym, take out my frustrations on the gym equipment, then I go tanning.
By adapting to a new lifestyle such as I described above...I am now into ONE-derland at 184 pounds....4 more pounds till I reach 100 pounds gone forever.
When I first decided on the surgery, my brother who has 2 of the worst bratty children going told me that I was taking the easy way out (ha, there is nothing easy about this....trust me) and that I should have completed the application to The Biggest Loser.......My reply "Only if you apply to be on Nanny 911) Point here being...do not let anyone talk you out of surgery....do what your heart tells you to do.
God Bless!
I just wanted to take the time to post on how things are going. Approximately 16 months ago, I made my first post on this site. If you read my story...I was completely self loathing and miserable. I made the decision to have surgery and things fell into place from that point forward.
My sugery was text book (so I was told by my surgeon) and I had one minor complication immediately after surgery..that was well my fault for not liking to take pain medication...so for all of my pre-op friends..take it from me...follow your doctors orders and manage your pain with whatever pain meds they give you to go home with. I guess that the liquid roxicet was just a little too intimidating for me.
Anyway, I have managed to join a gym and hire a pair of the best personal trainers on the planet. They keep me motivated and looking good. LOL.
I am just so happy with the results of my surgery. I did recently have to have my gallbladder removed as I was carrying around a bag full of stones (the sonographers description.) I also have an iron deficit. This is being controlled with vitamins and iron pills..DO NOT FORGET YOUR VITAMINS AND CALCIUM.
I am able to eat most anything I choose in small amounts, except white bread and pasta. I have also been known to indulge in a piece of cheesecake (the size of a quarter, but oh so yummy) and not suffer any ramifications of dumping. I also do drink 1 8 oz can of soda per day...yes that is an improvement of what used to be 3 20 oz bottles. I do drink all of my water that can sometimes be a challenge.
I remember reading of mind games that your head plays with you sometimes. I have been really fortunate in not suffering this consequence much. Sometimes when I am shopping, I do head for the size 24 - 26 and then it hits me that noooooo noooo noooo..I now need a size 12 or A WOMANS LARGE....NOT A MENS DOUBLE EXTRA LARGE. Over the course of my weight loss it did become apparent to me that everyone treats me differently...whether they say they are proud of me for going through with my journey and sacrifices along the way or its just a stranger staring at me. To me its a little unfortunate that people couldn't be proud of me before and that most men do not like to look at a larger woman or they are self proclaimed closet bbw lovers. All in all, I do not let it get me down, I
just feel bad for the men and the women that do not have surgery as an option.
I did go back to 6 flags and Disney this past year and I was able to ride the rides I wanted and not be embarassed of my weight. Now nearly one whole year later...I am feeling good about me and who I am and how I got to where I wanted to be with my weight. I have to honestly say, that my pre-op weight was a contributing factor in my issue of self loathing. Not so much that I actually hated myself, I just had no self control. I knew that by having the surgery, it would provide me with the necessary tool to restrict my food intake and when a stressful situation came about, I would have to find a healthy alternative that was not food related. So when I get pissed...I go to the gym, take out my frustrations on the gym equipment, then I go tanning.
By adapting to a new lifestyle such as I described above...I am now into ONE-derland at 184 pounds....4 more pounds till I reach 100 pounds gone forever.
When I first decided on the surgery, my brother who has 2 of the worst bratty children going told me that I was taking the easy way out (ha, there is nothing easy about this....trust me) and that I should have completed the application to The Biggest Loser.......My reply "Only if you apply to be on Nanny 911) Point here being...do not let anyone talk you out of surgery....do what your heart tells you to do.
God Bless!
