teejman
New to the whole blog thing........
Apr 12, 2009
I am not a very public person when it comes to my thoughts and feelings, however I feel pretty overwhelmed with the whole WLS!!! I am conflicted emotionally in many directions over the whole thing. I have feelings of failure (I should be able to lose the weight without surgery), guilt (I am not as morbidly obese as most others going through the procedure), fear (See breakdown further on...) HOPE (that it will be a cure for my diabetes), anxious (alot like fear, but more of a background stress, making me feel out-of-sorts all the time).
The most/biggest/dominant emotion is FEAR. They are numerous, often silly but a fact I have to deal with:
1) Will she still be attracted to me when I get thinner? (my wife who I adore)
2) Will I look older?
3) Complications from WLS (DEATH?)
4) Vocal Chord damage from the intubation (I sing in a Barbershop quartet and chorus. Would hate to lose that ability!!)
5) Can I make all the necessary life changes to make this whole thing worthwhile? I guess that is enough babbling for now....
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The most/biggest/dominant emotion is FEAR. They are numerous, often silly but a fact I have to deal with:
1) Will she still be attracted to me when I get thinner? (my wife who I adore)
2) Will I look older?
3) Complications from WLS (DEATH?)
4) Vocal Chord damage from the intubation (I sing in a Barbershop quartet and chorus. Would hate to lose that ability!!)
5) Can I make all the necessary life changes to make this whole thing worthwhile? I guess that is enough babbling for now....