teacherkathryn
Hi my name is Kathryn. I'm 24. I am a kindergarten teacher. I've lived in East Texas for 6 yeas. I love it here and feel so blessed to have my dream job. I'm single and teaching is pretty much my life. I love to garden, work on school stuff and love rock music. I like to think of myself as the most plain jane rocker chick there ever was.
I don't think I've alway been "fat". I was a normal size kid, normal size middle schooler, and kinda normal in high school.
Food never meant anything to me until my mom left in the 8th grade. When that happened, food became a comfort. I ate in hiding. I would eat until I was so full that I became sleepy. That was my comfort and escape.
In high school, I always felt fat. Now that I look back, I wasn't really fat. I was thick but I wish I could be back to that size again. I wish I would have been happy and comfortable in my skin.
After high school I moved away to go to college. I chose to live alone in an apartment complex instead of a dorm or with room mates. Living alone. Where to begin. I enjoy it but at the beginning I was lonely and eating was my comfort. I just ate crap because I didn't know how to cook. That's an excuse, I ate junk because it tastes good. I steadily gained weight over the next 6 years. I was in a serious relationship in 2003 and then he moved. That was such a painful time. The six months after he left I don't remember anything. I know I just ate and slept my life away.
So now here I am at 247. I didn't know how to handle stress or other emotions. I am an emotional eater. I eat when I am sad, angry and disappointed. I eat to numb out. I eat so I can go to sleep full.
I was introduced to this sight by one of my student's mothers. I am so excited. I love myspace and I love blogging. But not all the people on my myspace understand what I feel like. They don't understand my relationship to food. I am excited to be on ObesityHelp. I can't wait to share my feelings on blogs and see if other people understand how I'm feeling.
