tbeaman36
We got our date!!!!!
Oct 22, 2008
Lisa and I finished our classes on Monday. On Tuesday, we met with our weight management specialists and today got the call. Our surgery is scheduled for January 6, 2009!! OMG!! I can't believe that we are really doing this. I am so excited, nervous, scared and elated. I bounced around work after the phone call chanting "I got a date, I got a date!" Now I just have to calm down and keep doing what I have been doing. I can do it!!
Amost done with classes!
Oct 13, 2008
It does not seem possible, but Lisa and I only have 2 more classes left! Then we meet with our weight management specialist at least once a month until surgery. Which will not be until January. It seems so far away, but really it's only 2 months from now. I am just so excited for this new step in my life. I have never, ever, been thin and it is exciting and a little scary to think about what I will look like. I have always thought that I would be cute if I was thin. Then last week, I thought, what if I am not as cute as I thought I would be. I also thought what will happen to my attitiude. Everybody we have talked to that has had or knows someone who has had surgery talked about self confidence. I honestly don't have a problem with self confidence, so to have more is another scary thought. One girl, told me that her mother and aunt had it and both ended up with quite the attitude. I don't want that to happen to me. I have friends who will take me down a peg or two if it happens, but I don't want it to happen. I keep having to remind myself of the true reason I am doing this...my health!!
Eating Monster
Oct 04, 2008
Last week I did great, I was feeling confident and good about things and lost 2 pounds. Woo-hoo for me. This week has been horrible. I have eaten what I want, when I want, with no thought to what it is going to do to me. AAArrrggghhh!! I thought that I had gotten past that. Now it is Sunday morning and my first thought was that the week was blown and to eat. My second thought (and the one I am going with) was that it's a new day and start again wth the right attitude. So, I got up and did my excercises and had a sensible breakfast. It's a good start and I'll have a good finish.
I'm sad!!
Sep 25, 2008
Today is the 5 month anniversary of my best friends passing away. Saying that Tim was my best friend, does not even beging to cover it. He was in my life for 24 years. That's half my life. I was closer to him than to anybody. As a matter of fact, he was my gay soul mate and I was his straight soul mate. Even though he was in California for the last 6 years and I was here in Colorado, we never lost that closeness. We would just know when the other needed to talk or whatever and we were there (on the phone). What still gets to me is that I did not know that he was so sick. I knew that something was not right, but he would not tell me what was up. Turns out that in February, he was diagnosed with Lymphoma. His mother, sister and father were the only ones here in Colorado who knew. I will never forget leaving work that day, with lisalouviers, and finding the rest of my family there to tell me. It was if my world caved in. I was numb for weeks after that. Now, I am just sad, but I am not going to use that as an excuse to eat. Which is what I have done for the last 5 months. I have gained 15 pounds since April 25th, but it is starting to come off again, and I know I can do this. Tim is my angel and will watch out for me, whatever might happen in the future.
not feeling well
Sep 16, 2008
Yesterday morning I woke up, had breakfast and exploded with pain. I honestly thought that I was having anoher heartattack. Called my husband and told him to get home from work. Bless his heart, he was here 15 minutes later. By that time I knew that it was not a heart attack, but something was definately wrong. My PCP only had 1 appointment available at 2:40 in the afternoon. That was a long day of pain, let me tell you. At noon, I had a bowl of soup. That was a mistake, I was ready to cry it hurt so bad. Got the my appointment, and realized that I had a lump under my right rib. Told Dr. Boyer about it, she looked and said "oh no". You really don't want to hear your doctor say something like that. She said, that would be your inflamed gallbladder. So today I go for an ultrasound and see what we are going to do. If I was having my gastric bypass sooner, she would just have it done then, but I am not having surgery until 2009 and I am not, repeat not, going to put up with this until then!! More later.
I'm on track!
Sep 13, 2008
I am finally on track!! I am learning alot in my surgery connections class. I think that the tools that I am learning in these classes are definately going to help me succeed in my weight loss... before and after surgery. I have been excercising more and eatling less. If I thought that I would keep that up, I would not be hoping to have my surgery in January. Until then, I am going to stay focused, keep my sister focused and enjoy life!!
first time!!
Sep 01, 2008
I belong to Kaiser of Colorado. I don't know how many people know what that entails. I had to apply to the weight managememt clinic. My sister and I did that in February of this year. In May we got a letter and a questionairre to fill out. Then, In July, we had to go to have a physical. We had to talk to a physcologist. Now it is September and we had our first of 8 classes to help prepare us for a successful surgery. I was totally ready for anything, until I walked into the class of 28 of us. Then it became real to me. And I got a little nervous. I feel that I am lucky to be doing this with my sister, who is also my best friend. I'm also lucky to have the support of other family members, friends and even my co-workers. It makes a big difference.
