Tawanda R.
GUESS WHO'S BIZZACK!!!!
April 18, 2008
Well ladies and gents ... I have been missing in action for several months. I will admit that I was discouraged when I couldnt get my surgery right away. Blue Cross Blue Shield required me to do a six month nutrition program. My program concluded April 1st. My paperwork was submitted the next day and I got an approval a under two weeks later.
My surgery date is May 27th 2008. One day before my 33rd birthday!!!!
I'll keep you posted until next time.
ok wait!!!
I cannot believe it took me this long to figure out where I start my posts.
Ok for those who dont know my name is Tawanda and I'm a 31 year old carb craving diva in desperate need a lifestyle change.
Before I update what's I want to take this time to thank each and every last person who shared there stories on this site. You are a blessing to me. I have been a fan of this site going on five years.
I've applied for GBS twice in the last five years and was denied both times due to my previous insurance providers not having covered bariatric surgery. As of March 1,2007 I am pleased to say that I have a new insurance provider that covers GBS. I have my first support group meeting on April 11th at 6:30 pm after which I will schedule my first appointment with Dr. Amir Moazzez and his staff. I'm so happy that the door has finally opened for me.
I'm going to keep you all updating on my status and my journey. God Bless each one of my Obesity Help family......until next time......Tawanda :0)
04/04/07 12:54 PM
Hi fam.............I hope all is well. I just wanted to check in and say that I hope everyone is doing well and I want to let you all know that you are continuously in my prayers. Even though I have never met any of you personally, I feel like I share a bond with you. I thank God for this site and everyone for your stories.
I spoke with Dr Moazzez's assistant today and scheduled my first appointment with him as well as his team for April 25th. I was informed at this time they will go over the surgery I have chosen which is Laprascopic Roux-En-Y, and they will submit my papers to my insurance company for approval. I'm sure what the difference between distal and proximal is but I assume he will pick between the two.I've already claimed my approval and I'm not the least bit worried that i will be denied. Whelp that's all for now. God Bless You All..........hugs .............Tawanda :0)
04/23/07
hello family!!
I have two more days until I see Dr. Moazzez......I'm souped!!
I cannot wait to become a looser.....ok so i have a little something something imma add 100 reasons why I wanna have this surgery!!
100 reasons for WLS
1.To feel good about ourselves.
2.So we won't think people are laughing or talking about us.
3.To buy clothes in a normal store and actually get clothes with some style, to them that fit correctly.
4.To have more energy!
5.To be able to paint my toenails.
6.To be able to sit on a floor and get up gracefully.
7.To wear a bathing suit.
8.To cross your legs or sit Indian style.
9.To fit into an airline/theatre/bus/whatever seat without spilling over and without having to see "that look" from the person who has to sit beside you.
10.So our ankles won't swell.
11.To fit into a booth at any restaurant.
12.To not need an extension to a seat belt on an airplane and to have the tray
table not balance on our bellies.
13.To not worry about being decapitated in our cars with our seat belts on if we should be in an accident.
14.To not start weezing after moderate exertion.
15.To be able to pick something up off the floor.
16.Panty Hose that fit!
17.To go to an amusement park and ride the rides.
18.To be able to sit in any chair without worry of breakage.
19.To not have to apologize when caught in a narrow aisle and have someone need to get by.
20.To go dancing, skating.
21.To be able to go horseback riding or ride a bike.
22.To not worry about rashes and sweating.
23.To not have to listen to "caring" people ask why you don't diet or worse still... "Gee you have such a pretty face".
24.To not worry about spilling food, sauces or gravy down the front of your blouse/dress/shirt when eating.
25.To not have to think up some excuse for not doing something because you know your weight will impede you.
26.To not have your belly hit the steering wheel and to be able to fit comfortably in the driver's seat.
27.To have a bra fit comfortably and to be able to buy underwear at Victoria's Secret rather than at "Tubby the Underwear Guy".
28.To not have to worry about the weight limit of step stools, ladders, motorcycle, exercise equipment, etc.
29.To not get stuck in a turn style.
30.To not wake up feeling achy in the back or to have ache free legs and feet.
31.So the bathroom scale won't creak and groan when you step on it.
32.To be able to leave the tablecloth on the table at a restaurant instead of dragging it with you when you get up.
33.So you won't look the other way when you see yourself in a monitor where they have security cameras.
34.To never be embarrassed about your size.
35.To not count tying shoes as daily exercise.
36.To not have to wait for the handicap stall when there are plenty of other stalls available.
37.To not be more out of shape than seniors.
38.To not break toilet seat when leaning to one side.
39.To be able to put on wedding rings again.
40.To try to make a double chin and fail!
41.Buy clothing bargains to fit the next year ... and they do!
Not to have to worry about plastic zippers or having your pants bust open.
42.To have Normal waistbands rather than elastic!
43.To wear knee socks correctly instead of worn like slouches!
44.To look good in a tee shirt!
45.To try on slacks or jeans and have the pant leg actually fit over leg!
46.To be able to get close to sink and not come away with a wet belly!
47.To get out of a stuffed chair GRACEFULLY and not look down to see if the chair has come up with you!
48.To not worry if the hairdresser's smock will fit!
49.To not be self-conscious about eating in front of others!
50.To not be afraid to ask which hairstyle suits your face.
51.To not have people checking you out after looking in your grocery cart.
52.To not feel (and look) like a sausage in stirrup pants.
53.To have your friends NOT be embarrassed to be seen with you.
54.To get promotions/hired or close that sale.
55.Pants that stay up because your waist is smaller than your butt!
56.No more boobs! (this is for the guys!)
57.Wearing shorts or tank tops without fear of arrest or grossing out others!
58.To not have the fear of being rejected.
59.To successfully flirt!
60.To not worry about how to get in and out of the back seat in a two door car!
61.One size fits all and it fits you!
62.To have a lap.
63.To not have the car you are ride in slant in your direction.
64.To be able to use toilet paper as it was meant to be used and not to have to invent ways to "get the job done".
65.To not have to watch TV news reports on fat people in hopes that you haven't been caught on camera!
66.To be able to get between cars in a parking lot without wiping the dust off with your belly and your butt.
67.No more heat rashes and chafing in the upper thighs.
68.So that the cloth in the thigh area doesn't wear away long before the rest of the slacks do!
69.To meet a friend online and not be horrified to have to send a picture of yourself.
70.To not take fat references and fat jokes personally.
71.To know you can go anywhere because wherever you sit you CAN be comfortable and look at ease.
72.To shop at the mall and not have your back ache from lugging your huge butt and stomach around!
73.To be able to stand still, carrying nothing and still look poised.
74.To be able to cross your arms across your chest without them resting on your stomach!
75.To have your feet get smaller.
76.Using your mouth to taste and chew food rather than as just a route to get the food from your lips to your stomach.
77.Blood pressure returns to normal.
78.To avoid other health complications from being overweight.
79.To be able to borrow a co-worker's jacket for an important meeting.
80.To meet someone for the first time and their eyes don't pop out of their head with amazement...because they never knew you're fat!
81.To see your reflection in a mirror or store window without turning away!
82.To wear a watch with a regular length watch band.
83.To look in the mirror when getting your hair cut without thinking you have the biggest face in the world.
84.To not mind getting your picture taken.
85.To not avoid going to the doctor because you have to get "weighed" in.
86.To wake up each morning feeling energized and ready to go.
87.To not even worry about squeezing into small spaces.
88.To not have to enter an elevator and check the weight limit.
89.To look in your closet and have problems deciding which stylish outfit to work since you have so many that look good and fit well.
90.To not have to lie perfectly still in bed at night for fear of breaking the bed!
91.To buy tie shoes instead of slip-ons!
92.To be able to walk any distance without looking for a bench to sit on.
93.To look forward to shopping and just trying on clothes!
94.To be able to drive by any fast food place without salivating!
95.To be able to shop at the same store for food instead of having to remember where you shopped last night for the junk food so you can avoid that store for a few days!
96.To not feel lower than low when an innocent child remarks about your size!
97.To not constantly be thinking of where your next morsel of food is coming from.
98.And the 100th reason to lose 100 pounds.....
99.I'M WORTH IT!
04/25/08
OK.........I'm going to cry !!!
I went to my appointment today and was soooooo excited then I was informed that I have to do a 6 month program (supervised diet) :0(..............I just knew I would be able to have my surgery in June. Dr Moazzez is the nicest doctor ive ever met!!
Prayer for Patience ~. “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” —Galatians 6:9 ...
God, teach me to be patient...
Teach me to go slow...
Teach me how to "wait on you"
When my way I do not know...
Teach me sweet forbearance
When things do not go right
So I remain unruffled
When others grow uptight...
Teach me how to quiet
My racing, rising heart
So I may hear the answer
You are trying to impart...
Teach me to let go, dear God,
And pray undisturbed until
My heart is filled with inner peace
And I learn to know your will!
"Be still and know that I am God."
Psalms 46:10
