tarcy
I have been overweight my entire life. I have been on diet after diet after diet. You name it I've tried it. The problem is, diet's don't work! I've lose weight over the years, and have gained what I lost plus some. I am 37 years old, and the heaviest I have ever weighed. I have always lost and gained, but after I had my gallbladder removed, my body was different, it seemed like no matter what I did I couldn't lose weight. Well that was about 3 years ago, and 60 pounds later. During that time I went thru my second divorce, which just made me feel sorry for myself. I think I thought if I ate more and more I wouldn't have to worry about anyone being attracted to me, and I there would be no chance I would fall in love, and get hurt yet again. Yes, yes I know a big pitty party for me. I've realized I have packed on all this weight to hide, I'm big as life, and I'm hiding. What kind of sense does that make? Well, I'm tired of hiding, I'm tired of being alone, I'm tired of feeling trapped in this body. I want to live, I want to change, I want to be happy. I have the power to make that happen, no one else can do it, I NEED TO DO IT!! I'm making steps towards that!
