candace E.

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Wow! What a ride this has been... I look at myself and think Damn girl your looking good! I have soo much more energy and soo much more confidence than before. Next month I will have to go to my six month check-up and I hope all goes well with that.  Im down 90lbs and feel pretty good for now and hope to keep felling this way from here on out.  Alot of things has changed since the surgery besides my size in clothes. My way of thinking about being healthier than before, my mental state is getting so much better, being fat is probly one of the worst things that I did to myself. I allowed myself to believe that there was nothing or nobody in this world who would love me because I never did. Now Im starting to love myself again and realizing that I do have a brain and that Iam smart. There are things that Ive done in my life that were dumb but Ive come to learn that everyone makes mistakes nomatter what.  Life is too short to worry about the piddly things that happened in the past and made me who and what Iam today. I cannot change the way things were but I can change me and having the RNY was the first step in this rollercoaster we call "LIFE". Nomatter what anyone says I did this for me and my family so I can be there for them. Lord willing and the creek dont rise, I can be!

Im soo happy that i finally have 80 pounds to get off me. It seems like alot but now that it is almost 5 months out and have lost 77 pounds so far maybe by then end of this year I will be at goal... I just hope that things stay as good as they are now!

I weighed this morning and Im down 70lbs....Im soo happy!

I'm soo excited can't wait for that 70lbs mark now! YAY for me!!!

     My biggest fear going to Silver Dollar City was being told that I was too big for the rides. I was never told that I couldn't get on the rides before, it was just a big fear that I would be told that in front of alot of people. 
     
       Well I got to ride all the rides that I wanted.  I had sooo much fun! we even rode the Go-Carts four times. I cannot wait til we go again!

Well today I got on the scale and I hit my 270lbs mark!!!  I'm sooo excited! I'm not to far from my husband who weighs 260.  Thank God!  I can really feel a difference, I have more energy, My self confidence has went way up, and the way I hold myself is so much better... Oh yeah I can walk ALOT faster now!  Things are changing for the better and I cannot wait to get to my current goal.  Every pound lost is a milestone for me and I cannot wait till I hit 269 ( that should be tomorrow) I'm losing a pound per day.  Sometimes when I eat pasta or bread I gain that pound back or I dont lose anything at all. I know my limits what I can eat and not eat. I've also went down a couple pant sizes I was in a size 28 now im in a size 24. When I was in a 26 I was there for a little while cuz of the weight stall but I'm still losing.  Also my bra size I was a 48DD now I'm at 44D (I'm gonna miss my girls but thats ok they can be brought back to life again) I'm so proud of myself. I cannot believe that I was so scared about having my RNY done.  Ihave achieved one goal in my life and this was the first... I'm trying to go back to school to get my High School Diploma. The teacher said if I work hard enough I can get it done within a couple months... Maybe next year I can walk across that stage and recieve that diploma that I've been having nightmares about since I dropped out of school in 2000 (six months before graduation). I was dumb, and going through a hard time in my life, and my weight was a big issue.  I had one semester left of P.E. and I didn't want to have to run a mile in front of all of the smaller girls I was the biggest girl in there. I was afraid if what they would say even though none of them ever picked on me.  I was just self concious I guess. But anyway I will get this done and make myself even happier than before!!!

Well today I woke up and weighed myself again and seen that the scale read 280... Thank God!  During this whole couple of weeks hiatis I jumped up to 287lbs. I wasnt sure what was going on my feet were swelling and that scared the crap out of me.  I'm ok now they are not swelling anymore... So I guess thats about it for now. I will update more later!!!

Doc says im doing great!!! lost 37 lbs so far!!!