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Emotions, Emotions, Emotions.
Oct 16, 2011
I'm writing my very first blog here. What a change a couple months makes. I'm down almost 60 lbs and am so grateful for the weight loss. I had complications with a leak from my sleeve and spent most of these last 2 months dealing with it. In and out of the hospital. On TPN for 3 weeks. So much was going wrong and I was terribly depressed. I figured once everything was corrected, (i.e. no more leak). I would have an immediate turn around boy was I wrong.
The emotions I'm feeling are so intense and I can't go to food to numb myself. I have to feel everything and it's so hard to do. I've spent so much of my life stuffing down my emotions (usually with food) that now they are on the surface and I'm still trying to figure out how to deal. I want to feel happy but I don't. I can't remember the last time I laughed, it was before surgery for sure. I haven't went back to work yet. I'm released to go back next week. I think maybe getting into routine may help. I can't sleep the insomnia is crazy, I mean come on it's 4am and here I am posting. I'm hoping putting it out there may help but I don't know. I know the emotions are normal after surgery but I wasn't prepared for the intensity I'm feeling. I guess I still have a lot of work to do and having WLS alone isn't going to slove all my problems.
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The emotions I'm feeling are so intense and I can't go to food to numb myself. I have to feel everything and it's so hard to do. I've spent so much of my life stuffing down my emotions (usually with food) that now they are on the surface and I'm still trying to figure out how to deal. I want to feel happy but I don't. I can't remember the last time I laughed, it was before surgery for sure. I haven't went back to work yet. I'm released to go back next week. I think maybe getting into routine may help. I can't sleep the insomnia is crazy, I mean come on it's 4am and here I am posting. I'm hoping putting it out there may help but I don't know. I know the emotions are normal after surgery but I wasn't prepared for the intensity I'm feeling. I guess I still have a lot of work to do and having WLS alone isn't going to slove all my problems.
