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I am staying around 230ish-
I wish it would come off faster!! I am getting to the point where I just want to see 227 sooo bad I have not see that number is sooo long!!

I need to update-
I have foot surgery monday - today doing much better I hope to get the stiches out monday. the pain it really not that bad anymore rather quick recovery. I havebeen off work now since 1 week before the 16th of april. I don't really want to go back to work but I am getting bored and I think it is getting time. I really donot like my job but think I am going to look for something else this job at COSTCO is just to much manul labor, very hard on your back!! I am thinkong of dental or somthing going to stay to look in the papers to look for something in an office!

I am trying to drink more fluids, I went in monday to have the surgery and they had to give me 2 full iv bags becasue I was so dehydrated! I need to drink!! So starting today I am going to take time out to do that. I also do not eat verymuch -- HONELSTY I forget! I am going to work on that!! Before I would eat to just eat now it is different I do not really care to eat-- hummm weird!

I am going to post more pics soon!! I loved it when I was looking thru profiles they had lots of pics!!

I am on my second round of surgery .... My Rny on april 16th and now a foot surgery.. I am not sure how much more of this I can take. THis is PAINFUL! the difference between this and the rny is- I could sit and not have pain with the RNY this- is painful ALL the time. I feel like I just want the foot taken off. Feels like someone just cut my foot from heal to toe and there is nothing I can do about it. the pain meds are not working, It has been getting so intense i cry. My teendaughters are driving me crazy cause I think they are getting tired of mom not being able to do things, I am totally bed bound. Do you know what it is like to not be able to do anything but lay in bed?? Makes for a Long day!!! if the pain was not so bad I couls handle it.. the throbbing and deep pain awww it hurts so much. I try to lay here and block it out but it is not easy... God I hope this gets better soon!!!

 

Well my daughter graduated from high school this weekend! People were saying I looked great!! I really am liking me.. it is nice to go somewhere and not be the biggest one there! I am liking how I am feeling!!

The fat is melting off me... Just hard to believe I was 275 just a few weeks ago! Almost like it is not even real...

TODAY HAS BEEN A GOOD DAY! WENT TO SOFTBALL GAMES FOR MY NEICE, IT WAS A GREAT DAY MY FAMILY ALL ATTENDED... 
WE ALL HAD A GREAT TIME!!

GROWING UP WAS NOT A VERY BRADY BUNCH BUT I GUESS WHO IS BUT ALL MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS HAVE DECIDED WE WERE GOING TO BECOME CLOSER AND BECOME A REAL FAMILY, IT HAS BEEN VERY HEALING FOR ME. I AM SURE LOTS OF THE REASONS I HAVE BEEN OVER WEIGHT. I WAS THE MIDDLE CHILD SO I HAVE THE MIDDLE CHILD SYDROME FOR SURE.. BUT I SEE THAT MY SIBLINGS ARE ALL TOGETHER REALLY MAKES ME FEEL WHOLE AND FILLS THAT VOID I FELT LIKE I CARRIED WITH ME MY WHOLE LIFE. MY OLDER SISTER MICHELLE- THERE IS A PIC OF HER- SHE IS A MOTHERLY TYPE, SHE NEVER STOPS GUIDING AND PROTECTING... THROUGH THE SURGERY SHE WAS ALWAYS THERE DRIVING  2 HOURS EACH WAY SETTING ASIDE HER FAMILY WITH 4 KIDS TO TAKE CARE OF ME... AND WILL AGAIN BE DOING IT CAUSE I HAVE TO HAVE FOOT SURGERY SOON. MY LENORE OTHER SISTER AND I ARE NOT REALLY THAT CLOSE, BUT I HOPE TO ONE DAY. THEN THERE IS ME, THEN A YOUNGER BROTHER KENNY, HE HAS BEEN THERE FOR ME WHEN EVERY I NEED ANYTHING... IF IT GETS BROKEN HE IS HERE TO FIX IT, MAKING SURE I AM OK HERE-- I  BOUGHT A HOUSE FOR MY DAUGHTERS AND I A LITTLE OVER A YEAR AGO AND NO MATTER WHAT IT IS IF IT BREAKS HE WILL PUT WHAT EVER HE IS DOING ON HOLD AND COME TO FIX IT-  HE WAS IN THE SERVICE FOR A FEW YEARS- WENT TO SERVE IN A WAR SO I THINK HE DEALS WITH HIS OWN DEMONS BUT NO MATTER HOW HE FEELS IF I NEED HIM HE WOULD BE HERE NO MATTER HOW TOUGH HE MAY THINK HE IS I JUST KNOW HE WOULD.... IF I NEEDED TO CRY HE WOULD LET ME, IF I JUST NEEDED TO TALK HE WOULD LISTEN... THEN I HAVE A BABY BROTHER WHO REALLY ISN'T MUCH OF A BABY- I HAVE A PIC OF HIM TOO IN THE ALBUM- BUT HE HAD A HARD TIME FINDING HIS WAY IN LIFE BUT I THINK HE IS FINALLY MAKING IT.... WE TALK JUST ABOUT EVERYDAY ONLINE HE IS A BIG SOFTY... MADE LOTS OF MISTAKES BUT REALLY GROWING UP AND HEADING DOWN THE RIGHT ROAD!! I FEEL LUCKY!!! I FEEL LIKE THIS IS MY TIME IN MY LIFE! LIFE IS GOOD!!

I AM DOWN ABOUT 40 POUNDS .. I FEEL BETTER, I AM STARTING TO NOTICE THE DIFFERENCE, I STILL FEEL FAT BUT I CAN SEE MYSELF SHRINKING A LITTLE BIT.. I AM WEARING CLOTHES I WAS UNABLE TO WEAR BEFORE, FEELING BETTER ABOUT MYSELF!! LIFE IS GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello!
Today was the first day I can say I was as normal as I could be.There was a little pulling or mucle pain on my left side but totally dueable! I just never thought I would get to this point every again! What a great mothers day present!!
I am having a hard time eating much, i notice solids are harder for me to get down so i lose appities and just do not want to bother with it. Tomorrow I am going to try again I guess the more I try to get it down the better it gets, I dont know.. I am just not going to give up. I am WEARING things I have not been able to wear in a long time. That was nice! I can't believe this is working for me!!

I am trying new foods, trying to eat sugar free,low carbs, to make this better- I have not dumped I think I am going to be pretty good with eating, it s nice not eating a lot and feeling good about being full. yippie! GOOD FOR ME!!







 

It is Saturday again! Monday it will be 1 month since surgery- I can not believe a month has gone by already- 
At first i was scared to get this done when the day came- I never thought the pain would ever go away- it has gotten lots better since surgery that's for sure , I am just able to sleep in bed again- I was getting tired of the recliner- still a little uncomfortable but still better than the recliner. I still have pain on my left side some days it hurts more than others. This RECOVERY IS LONG!!! I have learned it does not happen over night or even in a week. Takes time and lots of doing not much to allow your body to heal. I am able to start very slowly pick things up off the floor, but not all the time. I just can not wait for it to be 100% again!! 

my currect weight is 141ish some days it goes up a pound others it doesn't  down approx 35 lbs

I am finding food just doesn't taste as good anymore, nothing really, but I try to eat as much as I can. Just hard when you think your going to like somthing but just don't after you start to eat it. I was a FOOD LOVER! that was my fix! Now it just isn't it is almost like work to eat right now- i guess in time it comes back I am not for sure.

I have gotten food stuck 3 times- hurts alot- I am trying to eat slower but it is hard when you are so used to eating one way. I have thrown up 2 times and gotten the foamies- it is a learning time for me right now-- I havenot dumped butI am not really wanting to even take the chance on something right now- It hurts bad enough withthe other issuses I have had let alone the dumping- ya all can hold on to that for me for a while!!

I am able to wear clothes that I had out grew in the past year or so- so that is nice ... Today I have a picnic to go to and going to try to find something "new" again to wear... thatis the nice part of this- looking nice again! Feeling like I want to look nice again! I went into this nt wanting to be stick thin- I really don't care if I am 170, I just want to look nice in clothes. I have never been able to wear dresses or skirts cause I just have big hips- it would be nice to wear one- or a little black dress- somthing that doesnt say - BED SHEET!!!

I am loving me again! It is nice to be able to say that. All this hard work and hurt is starting to pay off.

I cant wait for 3 months!!

I am feeling better today- yesterday was not a good day- I was feeling real upset about STIll feeling the pain of the surgery. I was sick of the hurting on my left side, I still after 3 weeks can not really move the way I would like, I still have pain in my left side and around my belly button. I thought this was going to be much easier than it was but Iwas WRONG. I am hoping for relief soon! I am supposed to go in for more surgery in 2 weeks.... we will see how that goes if I still feel crappy I am not going to do it, cause I have to have a foot surgery and be on crutches and just feel it will not be able to work if my side hurts!!

I was in a stall in my weight loss already- i could not believe it bt I think I am not out of it. I am 243 today, whoohooo! Back to where I was when I met Rich, 2 years ago, THe lightest i have been in years was 240 and I am almost past that point. This is really going to happen for me I can not believe it- somday I am going to be thin!!!

 

Well today I went to the doctor to be checked out, I was still haveing pains near and around my belly button, the dr ran some blood tests and said he thoughtI would be fine just needs to take time to heal. He also said because I havebeen on pain meds for so long that it could be the reason I havebeen in so much pain during this whole thing. I just am tired of the pain! 

To whome ever reads this-FOr me my personal experience-

THis was painful, the worst pain I have ever felt in my life- and I had it lapscropic, I have heard of others having no pain but I was not one of those people- I went into this thinking I would not have that much pain but this was painful, I just hope for me this will be worth it, as of yet i have just lots 14 pounds since surgery. I have faith, Hopefully soon I will be reporting i am losing more weight.