sweetrose
04/04/06
Well here I go again. I wish I saw the backup email thing before I did this a few minutes ago:). I am an employee at Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center(BIDMC) where I will be having surgery.
I have been overweight most of my life and ate too much all my life. After I went to the 1st informational meeting I got the ball working. I actually saw an employee at the hospital and she is also a friend of mines and she is having the surgery also. (Lapband) I am glad I was not planning to keep this as a secrret. I changed my name on this computer a couple of times but I will keep sweetrose it was Patricia before my middle name. Atfer I went to the informational meeting I got the ball rolling I set my appt up the next day. I saw the nurse and Dr H to get more information about the surgery. Prior to this I had did my blood work. After my appt with the nurse and Dr Hatchigan I went back to my office and had an anxiety attack. Inever had one of those before. First time for everything. I had this in front of my 2 bosses needless to say that is how I told them about my surgery. Also since I have decided to do this and since my 1st appt I GAINED 6lbs that is aweful I need to lese not gain. I did my Ultrasound the day I saw Dr H and the nurse I went to the front desk to make my Ultrasound appt and they called Radiology and they must of had a cancellation right before me because this was Thursday and they had an open appointment for the following Wednesday(last week). You usually wait like 3 weeks for an appt. I had my psych appt on last Thursday Iwas originally scheduled for 04/20 but there was a cancellation. I thank the Lord for His open doors.So since I am healthy just I am morbidly obese I do not have anymore tests. I saw the nutrionist and the excercise people on Monday 04/03. So I am waiting to hear from them. I have to go to another informational meeting on this Thursday evening and then I will be able to meet the surgeon and I definetly need to lose weight before I see him. I amactully in between Dr Jones or Schneider. I will be hearing Dr Schneider. I have heard he has better bedside manners then Dr Jones.
Well the way I got into doing this surgery is from my best friend/PAstor she is actually supporting me as a friend for this she is going to my meetings with me. She has seen me struggle with this disease for about 11 years. I used to date her brother and that how she became my friend and then she bacame my Pastor and we started our church together. She said she has been trying to tell me about doing this for a good few years but anytime she talked about someone having surgery I would say I am not getting cut with all those complications. But from reading the boards it is not as bad as I thought. I know that this is not going to be awalk in the park but it is a tool. I since I am healthy now I do not want the reprecussions from obesity. I will stop for now before I lose what I typed because I typed a whole lot more.
06/12/06
Well I am in here for my pre-op testing waiting fort tthe anestioliogist(?? on spelling). Wow only one week to the day that I am having surgery.It really seems real today. I have not been thinking about it lately as far as being nervous but today I feel a little anxious. I know though the Lord is with me. IF He brought me to it HE will bring me throuh it. My aunts are not to happy about me having surgery. But I have to do this for me and they do not know the struggles I have had with being overweight. It seems so strange especially with one aunt in particular that she has been getting on me for years about me being overweight and when I finally plan on doing something about it it is a struggle. We had a little tiff a few weeks ago but she is better especially when she realized it was the lap band and it was not as invasive. She thought I was having the RNY. I do not know what I am going to do with myself for 2 weeks off, I am never off that long. I am a certified workaholic.
06/15/06
Well time is winding up,this week went by sooooo fast. Monday is the day. This week was a crazy week I had a cyst on my thigh, never in my life had one but it had to come weeks before my surgery. I had it removed but can I tell you that it was gross and it looked like I had a nipple on the bottom of my thigh. The slit it and put wicker in it and I had it removed on today because it was irritating and it needed to be out. when I went for my appt on tuesday or them to remove it the attending Dr had the resident to it and since it was in such a weird place the Attending that is also Vice chair for surgery took my right leg and held it out spread eagle, I thought my he was going to rip my leg off. well I said I never thought I would be in this position again with a Dr. it was like I was having a baby.:) Needless to say not only do I work in the hospital where I saw him some times I do overtime on the floors and we have never paid each other any mind but I am sure we will never forget each other. Well any way had the wicker remove this morning and I feel better.I do mention the surgery a little bit but I am not as nervous as I thought I would be but it is not sunday night neither. I also wanted to thank everyone that wrote me in my profile or send me private email it is such an encouragement not only receiving but also clicking on YOUR sites and seeing where you were and where you are at today.
Also yesterday I went to the Christian bookstore and the DEvil him self went in this kid ansd she said to me am I having a baby soon. Well I was not hurt like I would be because needless to say I am big all over mostly hips and thighs and not my stomach because it evens out. Also my stomach was not sticking way out because it is every where else. then after she said this and I said no she walked away from where she was listening to music for the longest and went about here business. The devil can really be busy but I give God the praise.
06/29/06
Well I am 10 days POST OP. I have worked inpatient and I have seen some stuff but I cannot believe the things and body functions that came out of me. :) I am back at work I came back on yesterday. I was getting cabin fever and very anxious. I am 13lbs down thus far at 317lbs from 330lbs preop on 06/16. I will be seeing my surgeon on 07/13 to see how I am healing and to go to the next stage. Sometimes I have to remind myself to eat. The only thing I am craving is Salmon and Salad, you would think I would want a hamburger. My stomach is feeling a little funny right now but other then that I am doing well. I LOVE TO LAUGH and I cannot because my stomach hurts when I do so unfortunately my friends make fun of me because I cannot crack jokes. I also love to sleep at night and the last few nights I am up until 1am watching TV and getting up at 5-6 am YUCK. There is nothing hurting or anything I just cannot sleep.You know though I cannot complain because people are going through far worst then me. I just wanted to let others that read my profile of the little things that they may go through and if this is all you go through you are blessed and pray for the others that are going through worst.
07/20/06-317(-13)
wow it has been a month since surgery, I am so much like myself now in regards to energy. I went to see my surgeon on 07/13 I was down 12lbs since surgery. I was kind of sad about this but he and the nurse was pleased. I was walking I did not walk this week though because it has been just tooo HOT. I will be starting back upo this weekend though. I have been to the gym once since surgery and this week I was not able to go. I will be going starting next week, I miss the gym and the elliptical. I start a new job in the hospital I work for so I am excited about this position. I got on the scal on Yesterday and my weight was 317 I know wants I up the excercise it will come off much quicker. I do notice a change in my clothes; the things I used to not be able to button they are buttoning and there is a couple of shirts I could not button and they are buttoning up. AWESOME! I had some pants that were tight and they fit great on today. Personal goal is that I am going on vacation on 08/06 and I want to be under 300lbs. I really need to remember to chew I have vomited a few times it so weird realizing how I DID NOT chew my food, I guess that is apart of the addiction. I realized I ate to much but I barely chewed and sometime still not chewing my food properly but this band reminds me too.
August 2, 2006-309lbs
well it is about 1:30am and I am at working doing a little OT. I said since it is quiet I will update my profile. I went to see my surgeon on 08/24/06 and I was down 6lbs since my last visit which made me 311 but today I am 309lbs awesome I have not seen this in about 2-3 years I think the lowest I got since then was 315 and then I start gaining again. I see a significant change. My new boss even said to me to buy some new clothes that are not falling off of me. My pants the other day were huge down the bottom and my cardigan outfit was falling off my shoulders. Thursday I wore one of my comfortable dresses and I looked pregnant because it was too BIG. On Friday I wore a pair of pants that fitted that could not get up me hips a few months ago so I just Praise God for that. The last 3 weeks I really been going to the gym more often at 1st it was twice a week and walking twice a week also. This week I went 3 times a week and incorporated 2 of those days cardio weight training which is great. I am doing the eliptical also it really helps to do the excercise with the watching what you eat. My prayer is that i keep it up. I was saying to my bestfriend that as long as I make through the winter I will be all right. I just need to keep it up and that is my fear that I will not be consistent.
when I went to see the surgeon he did not give me a fill he thought I was doing good enough but he did say if I felt I needed one between now and 10/26/06 the day before my B'day then just call him. My prayer is that I will be under 300lbs by the end of this month also. Today though I had 2 pancakes and I know that was bad I have not it in months even probably close to a year but I nnoticed I could not eat me whole breakfast and that felt better before I would eat the whole thing. I am also noticing that I am walking more and faster. when I went to see my Dr I had to park far about 7min-10min walk and before I would of left my car and took the public transportation just so I would not walk. I am also feeling my ankle bone my ankles are not swollen any more. Yes there are challenges but I am trying to resist those temptationas and I believe that the band has helped me to do that. I am feeling better about myself and i am also learning alot about my self also the good and the bad and I am trying to change the bad. I am going the a Christianing later today at noon and I am also going to a wedding at 5 so I have a busy day but I am sure going to enjoy myself.
09/21/06 at 9:21pm go figure :)-305lbs
Well here I go again doing some OT since my last post I only lost 5lbs I have been excercising but I could do better with the food. There are somedays that I can eat the house but the band does restrict me just I need to make better choices and the there other days that I am on point. Well I have speaking to a guy friend of mines on the phone and the internet for the last few weeks. I have known him for years and we are developing a close friendship. the thing is that he wants me to send him a PIC and I am scared. I have not seen him in about 4yrs this week to be exact. He is actually my best friend's cousin. He just came out of a divorce 3 years ago.(his wife was unfaithful) This is scary but exciting at the sametime. This relationship is just out of the blue. We talk about everything and I share with him like it is nothing. I do not know what else to say I just needed to get that out. I feel Love is in the air but I am scared sometimes I will be hurt. But for the Christian readers I am not losing focus I need to keep my eye on Jesus. He is also a Christian and a Minister. He does want to get married again but right now we are focusing on a friendship but I cannot get this man out of my mind. Last night I spoke with him on the phone and he locked his keys in his locker.(LOL)
I am still loving going to the gym and my clothes are getting bigging and I loving the fact my stomach is getting smaller and my butt is getting firmer and smaller. My self eseeem is getting better also and I am just a nicer person since WLS and I thank God for this great experience and learning to make better decisions and saying no to food even though I want to say YES.
