suzright
I grew up in a very..let's put it "unhealthy" household. I'm not blaming my problems on my childhood but I'm sure it didn't help. I turned to food as a way to feel better, to comfort myself and it made me happy. I left home when I was 15 and as I remember lost a lot of weight simply because I couldn't afford food. Well that was then and now probably 200 lbs and 19 years later I have given up on being able to do this myself. I have always been a very healthy "large" person but it's catching up to me know. I decided around November 08 that I was going to give it one last push...found a diet that I could live with ( then) and had a huge support in my cousin. I did well for a while but when she suddenly passed away at 42 my world fell apart and needless to say so did the diet. I said that I would never have surgery but I started to look into it after she passed and the dust settled. I changed my mind, I figure if she could do it so could I. I just really wish she was here to talk to, it seems such a shame that she lost all that weight and not really have any time to enjoy it. Well moving on I'm hoping to have RNY surgery just like her one way or another. My husband says she's guiding me know, she's my angel and I really want to make her proud!
