Michelle T.
Underwear shopping...how hard can that be?
Jul 22, 2012
...does anyone else still find themselves shopping the plus size departments only to realize you're not 'that' size anymore? I sure hope it's not only me!
My eyes don't see what others do and I wonder if anyone else has dealt or is still dealing with the same problem.
A picture is worth a thousand words and when there was a recently taken picture of my husband and myself I was told I looked like a little girl sitting next to him. I've also been told I'm not recognizable anymore. That's a good thing, right?
The sizes keep going down and down again and I do look at myself in the mirror everyday but I don't see the 'before and after' in my mind. (I do see that I am smaller, don't get me wrong but maybe just not as small as I truly appear.)
Sort of like when I look at an old picture I have of myself and CANNOT believe I was that big.
(I look like I was ready to burst at any given moment!) When you are that size do you ever really see just how big you are? I was in MAJOR denile. I knew I was heavy just not THAT heavy! :(
It's been one year and 3 months since surgery. The only issues that I continue to have are getting in enough protein. (thank God for protein shakes!)..and I still cannot stand the 'taste' of water. If someone had told me that prior to my surgery I would have laughed out loud! I was downing at least a gallon of water a day, if not more! I drank water and nothing else! So now I've become an iced tea junkie!
My portions have not gotten bigger but have remained the same and I am still finding that certain food items are over the top super sweet and I cannot tolerate the taste. (I'm not complaining...that is secretly a good thing! it's just something that has changed.)
I do admit I love meeting friends for lunch or dinner and totally enjoying their company instead of being so focused on the menu and what I'm about to devour! I always order an appetizer and end up taking even some of that home with me! My friends can't believe the little amount of food that I consume. It's not even a second thought to me at this point. I know if I ever ordered a
full menu item I'd be eating it for breakfast, lunch and even dinner the next day!
I am so thankful for this site. I feel so comfortable sharing my thoughts and feelings with so many who maybe think and feel the same way I do.
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My eyes don't see what others do and I wonder if anyone else has dealt or is still dealing with the same problem.
A picture is worth a thousand words and when there was a recently taken picture of my husband and myself I was told I looked like a little girl sitting next to him. I've also been told I'm not recognizable anymore. That's a good thing, right?
The sizes keep going down and down again and I do look at myself in the mirror everyday but I don't see the 'before and after' in my mind. (I do see that I am smaller, don't get me wrong but maybe just not as small as I truly appear.)
Sort of like when I look at an old picture I have of myself and CANNOT believe I was that big.
(I look like I was ready to burst at any given moment!) When you are that size do you ever really see just how big you are? I was in MAJOR denile. I knew I was heavy just not THAT heavy! :(
It's been one year and 3 months since surgery. The only issues that I continue to have are getting in enough protein. (thank God for protein shakes!)..and I still cannot stand the 'taste' of water. If someone had told me that prior to my surgery I would have laughed out loud! I was downing at least a gallon of water a day, if not more! I drank water and nothing else! So now I've become an iced tea junkie!
My portions have not gotten bigger but have remained the same and I am still finding that certain food items are over the top super sweet and I cannot tolerate the taste. (I'm not complaining...that is secretly a good thing! it's just something that has changed.)
I do admit I love meeting friends for lunch or dinner and totally enjoying their company instead of being so focused on the menu and what I'm about to devour! I always order an appetizer and end up taking even some of that home with me! My friends can't believe the little amount of food that I consume. It's not even a second thought to me at this point. I know if I ever ordered a
full menu item I'd be eating it for breakfast, lunch and even dinner the next day!
I am so thankful for this site. I feel so comfortable sharing my thoughts and feelings with so many who maybe think and feel the same way I do.
Onederland, I'm almost there!
Feb 24, 2012
2 pounds to the milestone '100' I can hardly believe it! (I've lost a total of 119 since the very beginning but couldn't seem to put that number out there for the world to see.)
So my 100 lb weight loss starts at my highest weight on my profile.
Things have been going fairly well. Although I struggle daily with taking in enough protein and liquids. (I know I'm in good company in this department.) Since surgery my old friend 'water' and I no longer get along like we used to. We were best of buds! I drank H20 to my heart's content prior to surgery and still to this day have a hard time swallowing it just to take daily vitamins! I hope one day to rediscover my love for aqua but until then I sip away on crystal light type drinks and vitamin water. Coffee is still a morning routine. 2 cup maximum for this girl or I will talk your ears off! I've never been a 'soda gal' (I have never liked anything carbonated so any caffeine gets my engines running!) And protein shakes are still my saving grace!
I do find myself making my husband sweet treats and I find I only eat 1 cookie, if that. Sweet things now taste sweeter than usual and I just don't like them like I used to. Ice cream used to be my greatest weakness and in my head I say I'd like some, end up buying a half gallon, spooning out a small dish and end up throwing most of it away. (My noggin still LOVES ice cream, my belly not so much.)
I still outwalk my dog (you'd think he'd know the routine by now!) I sleep less, am not tired enough in the daytime to grab a nap and am not ready for bed by 9pm any longer. I never realized how much I slept until I didn't 'need' to.
I feel light as air some days and still catch myself looking in the mirror and not knowing who the person is staring back at me. (I've yet to take any pictures, maybe then I would 'see.' I'm now wearing 14/16 jeans and xl shirts and have given all my old clothes away.
I thank God everyday for this gift that has been given to me. The gift of a healthier life and for my amazing husband knowing he loved me at my highest weight when I didn't even love myself.
Life is good!
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So my 100 lb weight loss starts at my highest weight on my profile.
Things have been going fairly well. Although I struggle daily with taking in enough protein and liquids. (I know I'm in good company in this department.) Since surgery my old friend 'water' and I no longer get along like we used to. We were best of buds! I drank H20 to my heart's content prior to surgery and still to this day have a hard time swallowing it just to take daily vitamins! I hope one day to rediscover my love for aqua but until then I sip away on crystal light type drinks and vitamin water. Coffee is still a morning routine. 2 cup maximum for this girl or I will talk your ears off! I've never been a 'soda gal' (I have never liked anything carbonated so any caffeine gets my engines running!) And protein shakes are still my saving grace!
I do find myself making my husband sweet treats and I find I only eat 1 cookie, if that. Sweet things now taste sweeter than usual and I just don't like them like I used to. Ice cream used to be my greatest weakness and in my head I say I'd like some, end up buying a half gallon, spooning out a small dish and end up throwing most of it away. (My noggin still LOVES ice cream, my belly not so much.)
I still outwalk my dog (you'd think he'd know the routine by now!) I sleep less, am not tired enough in the daytime to grab a nap and am not ready for bed by 9pm any longer. I never realized how much I slept until I didn't 'need' to.
I feel light as air some days and still catch myself looking in the mirror and not knowing who the person is staring back at me. (I've yet to take any pictures, maybe then I would 'see.' I'm now wearing 14/16 jeans and xl shirts and have given all my old clothes away.
I thank God everyday for this gift that has been given to me. The gift of a healthier life and for my amazing husband knowing he loved me at my highest weight when I didn't even love myself.
Life is good!
Chicken legs with a side order of bat wings
Aug 05, 2011
It's been 4 months since my surgery date and I am happy to say I am down 62 pounds! As amazing as that is I can say the changes in the way I eat are still very surreal to me. A few bites and I'm stuffed? I'm not even hungry?? Who woulda 'thunk' it! My present day clothes are falling off of me and my 'old fat' clothes (especially t-shirts) I wear to bed and I feel like I'm Jennifer Beale from Flashdance. (the shirts literally hang off one shoulder at all times! My old jeans, dress slacks and jammie bottoms...forget about them! They literally drop right to the ground. Luckily, I was one of those girls who saved my better looking smaller sized clothes thinking one day I'd get into them again...and I have! So SWEET..and even they are getting too loose on me. (but I am hardly complaining!)
I've always been active but now notice a lightness when I walk again which feels terrific! (I even 'outwalk' my dog! He pulls me to the car when he's done but when I'm ready to go again!) My energy level is through the roof and I'm even feeling confident enough to head back into the gym! (I am looking a little 'deflated' these days.)
I'm still having problems getting in my daily amount of protein, which is so frustrating and know I can't rely on shakes and protein bars for meals but I am grateful that they do help when I'm in a pinch.
Did I mention the bat wings? GEEZE! I was never one of the bigger girls who was lucky enough to have firm looking arms, (although I have always had rockin' calves) but now they are twice as jiggly. I am constantly pulling on my shirt sleeves to make sure they cover the wiggle. I need to do start weight training to get back on track and help diminish the wings.
Do I wish I did this years ago? For sure! Any regrets? Notta one! And to anyone who is considering or who already has a surgery date this truly is one of the best decisions you will ever make!
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3 week stall
May 03, 2011
I thought I'd be prepared for this phase, this little hinderance, this annoyance, but Noooooooooo. How exciting seeing the lbs. just melt away from the get go and then BOOM, nothing. Not even an ounce. I even move the scale from room to room hoping for a lower number, somewhere, anywhere! (Please tell me I'm not the only person who has ever done this!)
I'm doing everything right, but the scale tells me a different story. Hurry up you stupid stall and get outta here..I have weight to lose! Grrrrr.
2 weeks
Apr 20, 2011
It's my 2 week follow up today! Come on pureed foods!
I'll pretend I need to bite you because my teeth are so lonely!
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I'll pretend I need to bite you because my teeth are so lonely!
Who do you think you are, SuperWoman? Well, yeah!
Apr 11, 2011
Sunday was the nicest Sunday around these parts in months...almost 80 degrees and sunny!
(This has been the longest winter ever here in Ohio.)
Opened a few windows, the breeze felt amazing and I thought since my husband is out working in the garage I'm going to sort of 'superclean' since, as much as I love my husband men just don't clean like women do and the house hasn't been cleaned since the Monday before surgery.
WELL...........
I overdid it! Overdone it! Why'd I do that?? Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.
Today my stomach area hurts so much, I can't get comfortable, slept lousy last nite, tried to sleep a little bit today and not think about it. My fault! I know. Couldn't sleep and now I think I'm going to take a double dose of pain meds for a little relief. Then maybe I'll be able to take a nap and forget about the stupid move I decided to make on such a sunny Sunday.
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(This has been the longest winter ever here in Ohio.)
Opened a few windows, the breeze felt amazing and I thought since my husband is out working in the garage I'm going to sort of 'superclean' since, as much as I love my husband men just don't clean like women do and the house hasn't been cleaned since the Monday before surgery.
WELL...........
I overdid it! Overdone it! Why'd I do that?? Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.
Today my stomach area hurts so much, I can't get comfortable, slept lousy last nite, tried to sleep a little bit today and not think about it. My fault! I know. Couldn't sleep and now I think I'm going to take a double dose of pain meds for a little relief. Then maybe I'll be able to take a nap and forget about the stupid move I decided to make on such a sunny Sunday.
It's good to be home.
Apr 09, 2011
...Came home on Friday and never thought I'd be so happy! There was no peace and quiet in the hospital as they were in the middle of major reconstruction on the floor beneath the one I was staying on and every morning the jack hammers began their day starting precisely at 7 a.m.!
Surgery went well, took a little longer than expected. Found out there was a hernia that needed repaired but other than that everything has been ok...pain is 'eh'. Every now and then I reach for the meds but don't want to use them until the pain is making my time sleeping too uncomfortable.
I've been drinking protein shakes (ok, shake as in 'one') since this morning, switching between vitamin water and throwing in a popsicle or two along the way. Frozen goodies seem to work best for me right now, they don't feel as heavy as the shake...too bad they don't make protein popsicles, I'd be their biggest fan! I'm thinking of opening a shake and pouring some into an ice cube tray and see if that might make them easier to go down. Any thoughts or tips? I'd love to hear them! :)
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Surgery went well, took a little longer than expected. Found out there was a hernia that needed repaired but other than that everything has been ok...pain is 'eh'. Every now and then I reach for the meds but don't want to use them until the pain is making my time sleeping too uncomfortable.
I've been drinking protein shakes (ok, shake as in 'one') since this morning, switching between vitamin water and throwing in a popsicle or two along the way. Frozen goodies seem to work best for me right now, they don't feel as heavy as the shake...too bad they don't make protein popsicles, I'd be their biggest fan! I'm thinking of opening a shake and pouring some into an ice cube tray and see if that might make them easier to go down. Any thoughts or tips? I'd love to hear them! :)
Spring
Apr 01, 2011
This is the time of year that I dread...going through the closets and pulling out spring clothes and hoping that something from last season still fits. I would have already went through every catalog, earmarking pages, tallying up the total cost in hopes of finding something that has some style, some personality that matches mine and doesn't look like I've resorted to wearing 'gramma's clothes from her closet.
This year is different though, with surgery right around the corner I'm holding off buying anything new and also knowing I have a few different sizes still in my closet..clothes that don't fit but are practically new and I just couldn't bring myself to donating them with hopes of fitting into them again.
I have a rockin' pair of jeans that I can't wait to get into again!
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Spring cleaning, nesting and nervous?
Mar 31, 2011
...seems I'm trying to get everything done before the big day (which is less than a week away)
wanting to do things that I might not be able to do after surgery or won't feel like doing...(washing walls, scrubbing carpets, cleaning out closets, etc...)
Some are calling it nesting, could be. I'm wanting to be as prepared as can be so I can focus my attention on healing and making my time at home be as comfortable as possible. After reading everyone else's experiences I won't know what or how I'll be feeling until those days are here. I'm hoping for smooth sailing!
Nervous? Subconsciously, yes. On the surface, no. But I am finding myself wanting to eat things I may not be able to eat down the road and wonder to myself why I am feeling as though I am losing that part of myself? I don't want to gain any weight before surgery and am trying my best not to.. Today,I started doing my own 'liquid thing' until tuesday with maybe one last meal on the weekend...my last hoorah, if you will.
Tick Tick Tick...it'll be here before I know it.
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wanting to do things that I might not be able to do after surgery or won't feel like doing...(washing walls, scrubbing carpets, cleaning out closets, etc...)
Some are calling it nesting, could be. I'm wanting to be as prepared as can be so I can focus my attention on healing and making my time at home be as comfortable as possible. After reading everyone else's experiences I won't know what or how I'll be feeling until those days are here. I'm hoping for smooth sailing!
Nervous? Subconsciously, yes. On the surface, no. But I am finding myself wanting to eat things I may not be able to eat down the road and wonder to myself why I am feeling as though I am losing that part of myself? I don't want to gain any weight before surgery and am trying my best not to.. Today,I started doing my own 'liquid thing' until tuesday with maybe one last meal on the weekend...my last hoorah, if you will.
Tick Tick Tick...it'll be here before I know it.
Preparedness
Mar 24, 2011
Went shopping today for the things I'll be needing once I come home...
Let's see...
Protein shakes
Protein powders
A cool Hamilton Beach single serve blender. (this was an impulse buy!) ;)
Sippy cups (this one makes me giggle but I'm sure I'll be thankful that I have them.)
Baby spoons (from what I'm reading a really good idea!)
Flavored waters
Juices
Broths
Popsicles
Italian Ice
Chewable Vitamins
Gas-X strips (another tip that I read about.)
Am I forgetting anything? Please let me know what else I may need.
This is harder than packing for a vacation! ;)~
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Let's see...
Protein shakes
Protein powders
A cool Hamilton Beach single serve blender. (this was an impulse buy!) ;)
Sippy cups (this one makes me giggle but I'm sure I'll be thankful that I have them.)
Baby spoons (from what I'm reading a really good idea!)
Flavored waters
Juices
Broths
Popsicles
Italian Ice
Chewable Vitamins
Gas-X strips (another tip that I read about.)
Am I forgetting anything? Please let me know what else I may need.
This is harder than packing for a vacation! ;)~
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04/05/2011
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Feb 24, 2011
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