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I am not entirely sure why I was feeling so yucky yesterday.  Today is a new day and I am feeling better.  I know deep down, that anything worth having is worth fighting for.  I am going to fight my way to better health and a better life. 

I have a terrific support system and a husband who adores me.  Fortunately, that part of my life is complete.  It is hard for me to put the focus on myself, when I am so used to taking care of everything else.  Putting my need for better health on the Top of my to do list HAS TO BE A PRIORITY!  I am worth it!

I am woman .. hear me roar ... LOL 

Today, I am at work.  I woke up this morning and got on the scale.  I haven't lost an ounce ... in fact I have gained a pound.  I am not sure why my body is rebelling. 

I went shopping this weekend.  I had a really rough time.  I tried on clothes and I am in between sizes and my giant belly looks like I am pregnant! It seems like my upper body and legs are getting trimmer much faster than my disgusting stomach (of which I have always hated!!).  I look like I swallowed a beach ball.  I wonder if I am bi-polar??  sometimes I love myself and feel like I look great ... but my other bitchy personality tells me that I am fat now and will always be fat, no matter how hard I try.

My brain keeps telling me that  I have come a long way and to give myself a break, but the rest of me is not listening.  I guess I just need to suck it up, pull up my big girl panties and deal with it!!!!!

I will write again when my head is in the right place.

04/06/09
I am starting my blog in the middle of my weight loss instead of the beginning.  I (like many) have struggled with my weight my entire life.  I had Lap-Band surgery November 14, 2008. I am 5'8" and weighed 320 pounds.  I was desperate to lose weight. I was miserable and had major back problems.  Today is April 6, 2009 and I weigh 266 pounds.  I have lost 54 pounds forever!  I am very excited about my progress and have bought a few new clothes (of course if I didn't I couldn't go to work naked!! LOL).   

I am married and have 2 kids. My daughter Loren is 12 and my son Brennan is 15.  The other day at the grocery store, my son was looking for me.  According to him, it took him a while to locate me because he could not recognize me from behind!  It made me feel so good. I know that the choices that I make today don't only affect me, but my family also.

We have been going to the local gym (they allow the kids to join also).  It is nice to have one of them to workout with.  I am not going as much as I would like, but I am making it one of my Goals this month.

I have been looking at the before/after pictures and am completely amazed!  There are so many wonderful people that are so inspiring.  I know deep in my heart that I am going to get all of the weight off that I need to lose and keep it off!